Torn ViNes oF Love

















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WeLL.. Hello Himali..
surely nice to see you
back online.. and by the
way.. a Happy Belated Birthday
for you in November
as i wished
it to you
then
in a blog
post just
for fun too..
i must say i have
a crush on all of existence
and every now and then a
liGht comes into my life i
WiLL never
forget..
and yes..
surely too
you are one
of those crushes oF liGht
my friEnd.. too far and few ‘tween
the rest of Star duST uS mY friEnd..:)
With Continued best wishes and hopes for your CPA study..:)
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Hello gigoid.. speaKing of lively
spirited Celtic Fiddlers
with a dance
to master
the tides
that shore
our liveS in whatever
way the dance and song
moves uS neXt i’LL share
this one too.. yNot.. iT’s A
very dreary day outside and
sunshiny alWays inside with
MaGiC MuSiC and DancE liKe
thiS in iNstrument of All thAT iS..:)
“It is fear that first brought gods into the world.”
~~ Petronius ~~
Interestingly.. i cannot even remember
fear anymore.. you know the kind that
lasts more than a split second wHeRe
fight or flight
can come..
and not
resolved split
second now..
totAlly as such
no different than
the cat who rests
after the forage
and fight
for liFE
saME
who simply
iS God my friEnd
aS Hair of the mammal
who has a limited vocabulary FOR LiFe..:)
“But since life is cruel, to you and to me, here I am.”
~~ Umberto Eco ~~
Better yET now
when iT’s good
i am A DancE
and SonG
iNstead
of worry
fear
and all
stuff related
to that place too..:)
SMiLes.. i often
pet dogma
and
smile
and even
giggle but no
longer does
dogma bite me..
hehe.. i master thaT BiTch..
And preTend liKe i’M itS slAve..;)
“I shall explain this by waving my hands
about in an appropriate manner.”
~~ gigoid, the dubious ~~
Yes.. i did that2 for
6500 miles noW in
what IS Approaching
6666 mileS iN 40 moNths2..
And iT doesn’T
matter iF
anYone
underStood
it or not
as i biT
the
dogma
and had fUn..
i’LL do iT soMe mOre2..;)
“Nothing in the entire universe ever perishes, believe me,
but things vary, and adopt a new form.
The phrase “being born” is used
for beginning to be something different from what one was before,
while “dying” means
ceasing to be the same.
Though this thing may pass into that,
and that into this
yet the sums of things remains unchanged.”
~~ Ovid — Metamorphoses ~~
Not reAlly sure about
the sum some of sum
with limited science eYes
but one thing for sure iS
i AM
reborn
every
second
to a new
creaTioN
thaT i sElF hELp too..;)
“A fish never thinks about water until he’s out of it.”
~~ Robert Penn Warren ~~
BEtter gRow
sEa
lEgs..;)
“You cannot teach a crab to walk straight.”
~~ Aristophanes~~
TrU
dAT..;)
“It takes a long time to understand nothing.”
~~ Edward Dahlberg~~
True in nothing now which
is more and less the absence
oF aLL FeeLinG and
seNses.. A thouSand
years IS
A second
iN NoW..
And that’s
a rough estimate
from the abyss of
noThIng AKA HeLL..
ha!.. and people thInk
that nothing is after liFe..;)
“Do you imagine that the universe is agitated?
Go out into the desert at night and look up at the sky.
this practice should answer the question.”
~~ Lao Tzu ~~
TrUe.. A Beach
without A
culture
oF
human
foot prints
taught me
this so long
ago iN the
sAMe HeaVen
then LooKing
aCross A River to
A FoReSt beFore i could
SPEaK then at age 3.. hUmans are
serIOUsly rEtarded iN more they have
on average
oF this
way
as culture
iS language
and abstract
constructs becoMe
tools as wE.. iNstead
oF dreAMtiMe now mY friEnd..:)
“There are things that are known, and things unknown,
and in between are the doors of perception.”
~~ Aldous Huxley, “The Doors of Perception” ~~
Yes.. and that is also
an excellent
metaphor
in tools
of words
too..
as
language
can take us
back to dreAMtiMe too..:)
Oh by a way..
DancinG to Master
of Tides works
for
me..
oh God
to heiGhts
most people
cannot iMaGinE..
thing iS.. i hAVe to
dAncE it for the SonG to riSe
to those heiGhts as yA say i BecOme
A
PoeM
oF DancE
And SonG
LiVinG iT iSREaL..:)
“There are two kinds of people.
Those who dance
And those who do not.”
– Guardians
of the Galaxy
New VerSion iN SuMmEr ’17..:)
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Hi.. Lala Rukh.. the
6th.. it is of December
and also the birthday
of my X-Catholic Priest
Grandfather who would have
been 121 years old.. but he..
dying in 1950.. at 54.. a year and a half younger
than me noW as fortunately for me.. a liFe
that almost came to an end at age 47
continues on for another 9 years..
yes.. if my greatest
wish had happened
then.. there would
be no 33 months
after that
to be
trapped
in a mind where
eyes and ears no longer
worked with the worst pain
known to humankind then.. no
strength in spirit to write that first
word on the Wrong Planet on Thanks
Giving of 2010.. or now a ThanksGiving
this year in celebration of writing 12 million
words that was only 6 million or so when i first
met you when i came out of earthly hell on or about
July 22nd of 2013.. coinciding with that Star of David
Planetary Alignment thingy we talked about after then..
i was gonna need a lot of moral support online to accomplish
what will be 6666 miles of Dance Walking an all free style of
martial arts and ballet-like dance in what will be on or about
the end of 2016 in all public places in my metro area i go
since the beginning of September of 2013.. and yes..
writing a 42 month witness for God in longest long
form poem ever in the history of humankind still
exceeding the other one at 1.8 million words
from India named the ‘Mahabharata’ where
now this 727th MacroVerse still exceeds
over 3.3 million words measured at
the 42 month point since i started
this entire blog adventure back on
March 10th.. of 2013.. remember
when i told you.. still documented
in that Blog in July of 2013 that
you were gonna help me then
deliver a special message
of sorts as i had a ‘vision’
as such when i was 21
that someone from
the East would
help me do
this one
day..
well.. you did
and you continue
to do that and the moral
support you provided me in
the early days where i was growing
my Grinch heArt that once was.. to 10 times
or more for what then would come to be now
my FriEnd.. was truly instrumental in noW all of what
comes as is for Now.. and you are currently the longest
standing friend originating online that i am still keeping in contact with  now as the
previous longest one way way back on the Wrong Planet in 2010 has left
the web sphere.. my friEnd Leah from Germany who promises to find me
one day again if she ever comes back.. and the second one.. Angel
Mind Retrofit.. before Leah actually came back to be a friend with
me online.. who introduced me to the dVerse Poetry site that made
all those words possible too of poetry and my development as
such.. erased her public blog presence.. too.. as well as the
Mags Burch woman who was also on the Autism Spectrum
along with those three.. who erased her existence from
Social Media as well.. the only one i could find who
supported me in the Autism Communities
and my first and only Facebook friend..
back when it seemed like i was the
only one who had a frigging
heArt in a land
of zombies
then
with cold
hearted souls
of us vs them..
anyWay.. at the point
where i actually escaped hell..
you were tHeRe and provided words
oF Unconditional Love and thAT was A
tUrning point iN my life.. my FriEnd
from Hell to Heaven as iSreal then..
anyway2.. as i gave ThanksGiving
this Thanks Giving for all of that
i give Thanks Giving to you my
friEnd as you also led me
as a participant on your
site from where i first
saw your White Pearl
on Mind Retrofit’s
blog to one of my
bests friends
online
Rafiah..
who has
stood by my
side since you got
married and the writing
spirit was no longer yours
to share.. and so many other
nice folks from your area in South
Asia have come into my life online since
then.. as sure there have been some very difficult
days in the very backwards place that i witness for
God in Public Dance.. thing is.. the legend.. the general
audience says i have become in this metro area now.. yes..
is one of freedom for those who feel outcast who shouldn’t
have to worry about what folks think about them to be able to express
ALL OF WHO THEY ARE IN THIS LIFE NOW.. and that freedom NOW..
my friend
is the
message
i bRinG.. it’s
rather simple
iN a Free DancE
and SonG of Fearless
smARt and Unconditional
Love.. but truly it has been
the job of JOB and StiLL is to
get out to everyone.. iN FAct
iT is impossible for one human
being.. or one savior.. one last prophet
or whatever now exists.. to
save our species as we
aLL who have God who
lives iN wE muST
do iT toGeTher
less misery
and suffering..
pain and discontent
and overall stress and
worry and fear and hate
continue to rule pockets
of the world and even expand more…
the species will be here for some time as now to come..
the thing is.. living life fully alive in free beats dead walls of life now..
Other than that
look forward to
talking to you again
whenever you will and
feel to come back.. and never
the less thanks for keeping a line
of communication open.. as truly
it is sad when friends close down for good
or for whatever reason they leave.. my FriEnd..
and never the less for all
of that.. contact and
connection
in life
leads
to more
in all of
social media now..
we explore new areas
by the power of the word.. eTc..
that we might have never traveled
around the globe without this great phone
of communication and pen pal same.. wHerE this
web IS A web of not only discontent.. malcontent..
and generalized fear and hate.. too.. yes.. hope and love
warm and fuzzy
that rules
in so
many
webbed
pockets
around the
globe that
holds hands too..
it’s a trail my friend..
the whole thing with
many friendly and lovely hands too.. Thanks.. aGaiN..
for hOlding my webbed hand when i reAlly needed a good friEnd..
And yeah.. i kNow.. i’ve used
‘That SonG’ with you beFore
but it isn’t getting
old
for
me.. my FriEnd..
i sensE..
i FeeL..
Now..:)
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Memory from a year ago at the
Saint Rose of Lima Catholic
Church Annual Christmas
Party on the Festival
Grounds at the
Church.. ‘here i am’
with the Monsignor Mike
who was also a member of
the Beta Club in school.. and
a Tennis Buddy back in the decade
span or so i spent at the City Park
sometimes all day long in Indian
Summers as this Indian Summer
is coming to a rather chill this
weekend for the coming
Festival Church party
of Christmas on
my Mother’s
Birthday.. of
82 years.. December
10th too.. thing is.. the church
folks scheduled the Hard Rock
Casino trip on the tour bus for that
day too.. and sure.. the Hard Rock Casino is
my church too along with the rest of all that is
so.. looks like the festival will not come after the
Biloxi Beach and Casino Dance i WiLL Free and
Public do all day too.. as the visit for the birthday
of my Mother and that will rule over the Christmas
pArty this year.. but hey.. with Facebook Memories
it can still be a Christmas Party from a year ago
with your Monsignor Mike online.. hehe.. ain’t
technology great when it means the human
connection all free and warm and fuzzy as
such.. and while i don’t always agree with
Monsignor Mike in what he says in church..
overall.. i do more than any other pastor
or priest i have come across in this
Red State New Jerusalem so far
in the Good old New Israel that
is the U.S. of A.. now for freedom
sTiLL iSREaL now too.. hey
but what
prophet
gets along
with the local
rule.. in church and
state as in my case the
state gets God better overall
in the U.S. of A.. in providing laws
that enforce the inalienable right
to liFE.. Liberty And the Pursuit
of Happiness and Justice for
all to be free this way too..
so sure.. in that way
here at least..
most ironicAlly
the state can be
a church that works
for a prophet now.. of
course without any concerns
iN maKing Caesar’s coins.. as that
jusT FucKs up who yA serve.. yA kNow
yA FeeL
yA SeNsE
A BLack Green
Back DollAR BiLL..
or the GoD oF Nature
aLL thAT iS now.. yes.. the wHole
F In EnChiLdA.. not an only man
or last or first man of any kind now..
allone
baby
iS wHeRe
GoD’S aT..
and if tHeRe is any
Savior for me.. it WiLL
surELy noW be more
feMale liKe a moThER than
any male iN thiS country aT leASt for sure..
not to say ‘they’ never hELp.. bUt sUre.. juST saYin..;)
2277
After a much needed respite from
close to a two month drought with
a somewhat deluge of rain for a couple
of days with cloud cover before then.. the
Sun is shining again.. and the move from clouds
to sun makes infinite shades of grey and hues
of colors in my back yard.. hehe..
also known as my personal
version of a Garden
of Eden all innocent
and stuff with zero sin
as just another Animal
of God being Nature sAMe
as such.. yeah.. how deep is yoUr
Love and tHere IS A SonG for thAT
too.. in how we can be reborn to the
Ocean of Nature as waves that flow from
Rivers and streAMs thE sAMe as alWays
different as shores change from now to now
as tides go in and out and all over again from
A cycle of dARk to liGht to those ‘tween sHades
of Grey and Rain Bow Colors of expanding consciousness
in what some folks might call oneness with God and the UniVerse
aS SaMe.. or perhaps with substance out of Nature additives.. yeah..
Mushrooms.. DMT from Native South American Plants for whaT ‘they’ name
as the psychedelic experience wHeRe we truly fiNd thaT we create our
realiTies iN miNd and Body BaLanCinG Force or not in what can trULy
be up to Hell on Earth aWay from the poTentiaL oF Heaven noW.. hmm..
anyWay..  no external substances needed for me.. for most every now i go
in the ZoNE of dance tHeRE is at least one person wondering what
i’M oN and someone else that would love to have some oF it for
even a second as such.. as sure.. some of we humans can FeeL
iT through mirror neurons and other greater Quantum miNd
and BoDy poTenTiAls unLeashed and reLeased that
science per empirical study of repeatable observable
phenomenon thaT is the hUman liFE experience
ain’t got a clue on much more over than the
Observer effect in smaLLest levels in
the study of Quantum Physics that
hasn’t improved much over
decades for any poTEnTial
larger experiments that could
be empirically measured and
repeated as this stuff involves
a complex neuro-chemical and
neuro-hormone interplay from head
to toe of human and beYond thaT includes
subatomic stuff at levels that the aided eye
of sciEnce cannot even see.. anyWay.. through
the trance enhancing art of free dance wHeRE
mechanical cognition goes dArk and the social
empathic miNd and BoDy iN BaLAnCinG Force
liGhts uP with the actual Force of EmotioNal and
SenSoRy MuSiC and SonG exPaNDinG power..
sure.. we become more than just a FeeLinG that
we have experienced beFore for those who dare
to explore the inNer UniVerse that changes and
actuAlly impacts the outer UniVerse of our ReaLITies
too.. often picked up in perception ways through the
phenomenon of Synchronicity that operates in a collective
consciousness in more than just verbal thiNking miNd going
well beYond what we term as abstract symbols we create as words..
wHeRe our entire BeinG from Head to toe and BeYond becomes a liGht
with a spectrum oF RAinBow+ coloREd experiEnce never fELt and seNsEd
beForE.. anyWay.. it’s impossible to fully understand this until one travels
further than they have so-called ‘normal’ gone before in this meat
body suit named flesh and blood.. tHeRe IS A place wHeRe even
someone like me at 233LBS leg pressing what may have been
40 times last niGht at 1020LBS FeeLs aS liGht as a Feather
BEFoRE they do iT as they beCoME that feATher iN
mediTative moVinG Tai Chi liKe dance wHere tHeRe
iS no one iN control buT the FoRCE and poWer oF
BaLanCinG oF miNd and BoDy NoW.. the
mastery of Now beCoMes the i beloW
the I.. aNd exclamation POiNT! spiRiT iN
A place so far beYOnd what one
miGht consider the ‘normal’
hUman experience that iF
i could make a pill for thiS
experience no one would ever
worry about accumulating material
goods ever aGaIn with a freedom oF miNd
and BoDy BaLAnCinG soUL so GreAT wiTh A spiRit
noW oF heARt that WiLL Do anything and everything to
Now give and share over take and control.. anyway.. tHeRE
were days beForE noW.. yes.. months.. 66.. to be acCurate
wHEre aLL iS was a scar of pain and numb to me.. and my
FiRst steps out included a post on my Birthday yes.. June
6th.. 2013.. on my 53rd one wHere i spent close to 24 hours strAight
constructing a prose poem titled “Garden oF Band-aid” to uplift
and upload the soUL of gratitude for all the positive interactions
i could remember i had with people in my liFe.. and thaT is what
in large pARt hELped A journey to reGain BoTh EmoTioNs and
appreciation of Beauty sAMe.. whaT once looked like a colorful
desert of fiLLinG none now.. iS purELy an amusement paRk oF
color to sHades of Grey and whAT are beYond RainBoW FeeLinGS
and seNses to mE noW.. as i continue the ladder up wHeRe Love only
Flies in Force of GoD oNE noW as aLL NaTure and BeyOnd alToGeTher
sAMe as
different too..
anyWay i kNow
and FeeL about the
scars of liFE all too WeLL
and i also eXplore a never ending
depth of WeLL thaT iS Ocean eXpanSe
more continuing LoVE noW as puRE liGht
thaT iS more colorful in Emotions and SeNses
that i KneW or fELt or SeNSed even existed BeFore
iN Hell
aWay
from
wHaT iS trULy..
iNside.. thing iS.. iT
ain’t something you can
buy at Walmart or get from
a Book alone.. it muST bE
experienced and lEArned FiRSt
Hand and practiced over the course
of an entire liFE in SeeKinG and FiNDinG
way to even exist aT all for those lost iN a
Material External world with a zillion contingencies..
anxieties and stresses the same.. anyWay2.. dVerse has
a Monday Quadrille link for 44 words based on the theme
of scars and as one can imagine considering how melancholy
the poEtry world can geT as thAT surElY IS A place i stARted out
too.. to search for liGht on a Wrong Planet wHere emoTions were as
taboo as naked iS in some countries in the middle east sTiLL.. and
reciprocal communication that actuAlly touched a heARt was about
as common as snow in the Panhandle of Florida these days.. anyWay3
tHere were exceptions and one was a woman with a great deal of iMaGiNation
and creaTiVitY in creating hEr liFE.. sHe was sad when her flowers died in the
Winter and the colors were lost as she really appreciated and could FeeL and
SenSe those colors oF liFE wHole.. and she imagined herself to be a male
british rock star too.. and no matter how crazy the really ‘rational’ folks
without heARts.. spiRit or SoUL tHeir iN play thought she was then..
i would’ve given anything jusT to feel and sense one of her days then..
as tHeRe was a faint cardboard memory of a place like that in my
past too.. where the world was magical over a homeless
cardboard place of SpiRit of heARt and soUL the sAme..
home comes from within.. alWays does.. alWays WiLL..
to lose iT after trUly FeeLinG and SeNSinG iT IS A Hell
worth never going.. too.. but to be tHeiR.. iT don’t hUrt
to tale oTheR folks aLL about iT.. so maybe theY
Can avoid going to the pain and numb
of hell one day too.. anyway i wRite
on in a continuing Garden of Band-Aid
appreciating and respecting All hUman
experience from dARk to liGht aS iT
aLL makes the human condition
what it sTiLL is now.. and
poEtry must wait
longer to
visit
dVerse as
a call out into
the flesh and blood
world of human conNecTion..
iN moVing CreAtinG ways takes
precedence for now.. but hey
whY not make an introduction
for the scars that DancE and SinG
neXt as juST moRE of a Garden
of Band-Aid now.. along with
that original post from
my actual oldest
Blogger Blog
too.. yeah..
all the way
from June 6th.. 2013..
but nah.. back in them
days the videos quit working
for now.. anYway.. it’s easy to
open up and that’s a plus from
Google Blogs as such.. foR noW..
wHere by the way.. viewership for that
particular archive blog has moved from 93K
views to 190,619 as of last check just noW in
just a year.. amazingly as such after dVerse complained
about the length of my stuff.. and i really went released and
unleashed after i stopped appeasing tHeir rules and left from
liNking there that is when my viewership of my blogs really skyrocketed
over on the Google Blogger sites.. Word Press is still hard for many folks
to open up.. but hey that’s where my palette of comments section works
best along with Facebook here of course.. juSt to write free without
worrying about any fancy dancy platforms for drafts.. i do it ’cause
i CaN/WiLL.. as i don’t follow any so-called cultural norms that sLow
mE down
for
now
@lEAst
as this creativity
thingie IS A gifT
that doesn’t alWays
viSit iN liFE.. make the
best oF it while it’s here
and like Mark Twain says
wRite the shiT dOwn beForE iT geTs cOld..
and no.. hell no.. no settling for luke warm here foR noW..;)
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Great Celtic Song and
FAiry air liGht
Dance to
Go along
with it
iN Forest
Nymph noW
innocent view..
hmm.. reminds me Now
of dance niGht too.. heHeRs..
anyWay back to the Quotes now
and Pearls as sAMe.. gigoid..:)
“Very often, meaning lies in the spaces
between the words, not in the words themselves.”
~~ Callan Williams ~~
Amazing iT iS how hUmans
who have an innate propensity
for Language before the written
stuff have moved to scribing feelings
scripted into angles and circles in sand
to digit of one finger at a now to make this
language flow like a keyboard sings.. i suppose
the meaning
iS STiLL
iN the
iNherent
DancE and SonG
oF liFe when text
spRings organic aliVe.. my FriEnd
as effortless as the violin player
in the video in fAiry Air fLiGht
as such for metaphor
‘tween digits
of LiFe..
mY
FriEnd2..
it’s what
makes language
sacred and holy
when it SinGs and
DancEs without much thiNk..
as juSt
anoTheR
Crop Circle
cOmes to LiFe..
and i’m pretty sure
that’s why Jack Kerouac
taped his typewriter pages
toGeThER as he didn’t
wanna break
from
DanCinG
hiS SonG aLiVe..:)
“A friend is one who knows the song in your heart
and can sing it back to you when you have forgotten the words.”
~~ Donna Twitchell Roberts ~~
I FeeL and
SensE that’S
whY Free Verse
FolkS noW DancE
And SinG to share
LoVe A FRiEnD withiN
mY
FriEnd..:)
“Universe: All-purpose poem.”
~~ Ray Hand ~~
@Hand..;)
“Enough is as good as a feast.”
~~ John Heywood — Proverbes, Part i, Chap. xi ~~
Satisfaction
guaranteed
when
wHole
Bread as Flesh
and Blood rises..:)
“Endurance is one of the most difficult disciplines,
but it is to the one who endures that the final victory comes.”
~~ Buddha~~
BEcoMe iNvisible
to both capture prey
and escape predator
effortless
as the
feather
waits for A
Breeze of BaLanCinG
one foot two foot sAMe
two hands clapping iN A
FoRest
aS oNe..:)
“Dear friend, all theory is gray,
And green the golden tree of life.”
~~ Johann Wolfgang von Goethe, Faust~~
A deal
wiTh A
DeviL
yA
FeeL
BesT iS kNoW..:)
And i was reading
all about Faust
today after
a deal
with the
devil in a game
named “Hello Neighbor”..
while Tim Tebow talked on the ‘Harry’ show as my wife alerted me from the computer room..
about Denver losing their last 3 games.. finishing 8-8 (16) leading up to the 3:16 game.. And after the game media sources noting Tebow’s passing yards (316) and yards per completion (31.6) per the Bible’s.. John 3:16.. where the only interception of the game was thrown by Ben Roethlisberger on 3rd down and 16.. with Denver’s time of possession at 31 minutes 6 seconds.. with the Nielsen ratings for the game also peaking at 31.6 three years to date on January 8th 2012 as
recorded in Wiki too..
since 2009 when
Tim Tebow
wore
3:16
below
his eyes
before
the
Tebow
rule went into effect
in 2010.. looking for
a Grinch Shirt to wear
tonight while
Jordan
Smith
from
‘The Voice’
came on next
and sang the
Grinch Song
with more of an
Angelic Voice than the original song..
aS Synchronicity is totally an A-Causal
connecting principle wHeRE liGht shines
or dArk and the ‘tween oF thaT wiTh
poTenTiAlly BeyOnd rainBow
colors too..
jusT
for tHe
HeLL oF iT
iT SinGs now
aS iT DanceS
a psychological
meaningful SonG
for oNly the perSoN
or FolkS who heARt thE DAncE..;)
“It is impossible to design a system
so perfect that no one needs to be good.”
~~ T. S. Eliot~~
Naughty
or Nice
noW as the
Grinch miGht say..
the mounTain iS hiGh
And sLed is easy on the way doWn..
mY
FriEnd..;)
To stay young requires unceasing cultivation of the ability to unlearn old falsehoods.”
~~ Lazarus Long, from Robert A. Heinlein’s “Time Enough For Love”~~
And to
remember
what’s TrUth..
aLL iNnatELy
iNstinctuAlly
noW anD
iNtuitivELy
And sTuff..;)
“Love not what you are, but what you may become.”
~~ Miguel de Cervantes ~~
For me @lEast
i love me now
alWays
born
now
new
and that’s
enough for mENeWNoW..:)
“Always go to the bathroom when you have a chance.”
~~ King George V ~~
Better yet.. FucK the
rules and pee
behind
a big
truck..
insane
how we
hOld our
piss in priSons..
but remember.. do
no harm..
do not
pee
on
tires..
asphalt don’t care..
And thank God for Trucks..
King George V.. and King David
did not have that ‘red neck’ treaSure..;)
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WeLL.. long day of Nature.. some writing.. and even more dance
through the niGht at Super-Walmart.. as the Grinch comes to
town with a heARt of DancE and SonG over any deadzone
days upon a cold mountain top of dead heARt.. SpiRit
and SoUL.. Dance does the trick to gRow a heARt
and spiRiT iN BaLanCinG miNd and BoDy soUL
to the strength of 10 Grinches
before.. well at least
a half a Ton
for sure
in leg
press way..
and still approaching
6666 miles of dance
at the 40 month point at
the end of the year 2016..
as aLL the numbers coMe
toGethER iN SynchroniCity too..
anyWay as aLways.. the Facebook
Video Slide Presenter Assistant is wRite
oN ToP oF scribing all of this iN Automation too..:)
Hmm.. Secret LIFe oF Pets.. more on that in the neXt
Facebook Profile Status Pic.. but anyWay.. a Grinch
who has a heARt can be comfortable iN any place..
even in red state Lower Alabama Florida Panhandle
way as the Grinch WiTh a SoUL and SpiRit too.. then..
received a
heARty
welcome
by the video
voyeur southern
folk Dance Audience
theRe for sUre.. as the Fiddle
Dancing Celtic music rose the
Dance oF Y i.. hiGHer.. and HiGheR even.. all niGht..;)
And yes.. in the secret life of our
pet Yellow Boy.. as mentioned a few
times all ready on Facebook.. this Yellow
Boy and Katrina too are both studious
KATS.. yes.. very study prone cats when
it comes to study of the bible..
yes.. even Old Testament stuff
too.. and Yellow Boy clearly
provides non-verbal language
that he is so disgusted at the
human treatment of women
vs men in Judges 19:24 that
says in New Living Translation..
“Here, take my virgin daughter and this
man’s concubine. I will bring them out to you,
and you can abuse them and do whatever you like.
But don’t do such a shameful thing to this man.”
Yeah.. not much value to women back in them days
when a stranger IS A guest at your home and you offer
up your virgin daughters for rape.. instead of letting the
Stranger Defend himself.. himself as A Frigging man if he
even was one in the first place too.. Lord.. coward of the
county these men were back then.. Kenny Rogers would
surely be ashamed of these yellow men back then.. wait!..
disrespecting Yellow Boy by even elevating them to Yellow
men.. who would offer up their wives and daughters to rape
instead of defending their angry old asses themselves.. so
Yellow Boy immediately after he turns the page to this most
disgusting of many pARts of the old T rules.. turns away
and buries his head deeper in the shame of
weak humanoid men.. as he would fucking
bite the nuts off of another cat
before he let the other cat
have his female
as he would
fight
to the
death to uphold
his honor as such
as any truly wild and free
cat will do.. not to say he wouldn’t
have any sort of natural rough sex.. though..
but hey.. at least he ain’t a wimp like these Old T men..
so anyway.. the moral of the
story is… there are parts
of the Old Testament
that don’t treat women
any better than the Koran
does in doing whatever ya
want to.. to what the right
hand in terms of slave women
you can do to.. too.. hmm.. yeah..
Baby.. women have come along way
over here in the USA.. to escape that
kinda Old T disgusted perverted harmful shit..;)
AnyWay.. bottom bottom lines are.. toGeThER We
RiSe and stand in Difference Stronger than ever before..
iN separation
wE fall
as
same..
we fail
to GroW..
We stagnate
and fall to veils
of ignorance over
lifting that ignorance to
an original Greek Definition that
says jusT that iN liFTinG ignorance
of separation and celebrating differences
thaT lead to even greater MoVinG.. ConNecTinG
And creAtinG achievements of humankind to come..
A Globe that rules with hope and love over fear and hate
iN A
world of
Divide and Separate.. Verses
UniTy and ToGeThErness iS for the win
iN Peace and Harmony.. A DancE and SonG thaT Loves..
as
Grinch
heARts
GRoW Ocean
WAves WhOle RiVers
StreAMinG Freedom RinGs..:)
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Scars.. got a few as we all
have crosses in life.. some large
and some seemingly impossible to overcome..
my Aunt Christina who the nurse
suggested was brain
dead and then
could
not
receive
surgery
for a feeding
tube eventually
had her lungs cleared
and will it be hospice or not..
hard to say really as life wants to live..
and if you have ever ever really gone to hell
you will find out just how much the snake brain
to survive will rise.. and per 3:16 synchronicities
as when i finished a 338,630 Macro-Verse responding
to a year long effort for every single F iN prompt and liNk
from the International dVerse Poetry Pub online as pARt of
an Ocean WhoLe poem at the very end of 3/16.. yes then.. March
of 2016.. that was a cross i assigned myself to carry then after they
banned me from their site for their refusal to attempt to understand
how a Desert Isle could be a place for reborn as metaphor as Plato’s
Cave the same as the more literally thinking administrators couldn’t
understand how that related to real change in life.. asking me.. didn’t
i have any change in life to relate.. condescendingly so in their
grey poohpon poEtry brains.. as i return the favor now..
for those with more shallow eYes and eARs that
see and hear now.. anyWay.. as iN all oF
mY liFE.. too.. paths to go as VNV Nation
says too.. as Victory FTW and Vengeance
FTL.. yes for the loss.. vs For the win..
so i went on to do something no human has
ever done by the very muse of the dARk
that i came to feel from the top dogs
at the dVerse site.. yes.. i wrote the
longest long form poem in human history..
in fACt.. befoRE thaT i did it past 1.8 million
words in multi-verse way that went wRite over
tHeir heads as these days when someone else does
a little more.. not likely that those who are competing
for whatever are gonna give ya a hand of applause when you
do something new that they actually helped you do that no one
has ever done before.. anyway.. interestingly enough.. although i’ve
documented this achievement more than once.. the only folks who have
lauded it are the folks OFFLINE now RECOGNIZING just what it means
to do something specifically of this magnitude Now.. i suppose some folks
cannot wrap tHeir brain around the whole dAm thing.. as surely i can.. ’cause
i juSt did it.. hehe.. anyway.. i did it and that’s enough for me.. ain’t looking for green
bLack dollar Bills or fame or fortune.. and already now received legend status iN a
red state metro area for a public dance of ballet and martial arts free verse the
same.. did any doctor or other professional think that was possible back in my
66 months of hell dead zone.. of course not.. as they said i would never
recover and be on high doses of ativan the rest of my life.. well..
they forgot about the story of the mustard seed.. and while
they still document that i am not suited to optimally
perform in what society expects of ‘normal’
people now.. i AM FucKinG thriving
like a vine in a two month
drought reaching up
to the roof
of heaven
and
still
hanging on..
yeah.. like that
little ivy vine on the
shed in my back yard that
i photographed as it reached up
from the anchor of my shed and crawled
it’s way up top with still a few leafs left after
a two month drought and ‘right’ as we were gonna
finally receive a deluge of living water relief.. as the
wife who would not kill a bug inside the house and release
it outside.. had already spoken of her fears of that live vine
taking over our old dam shed.. that dead dam thing that
houses yard tools and such as that to prune the
living paRts of God’s Creation that are plants
and flowers and trees in my own personal
Garden of Eden free.. so after “oven
gate”.. was settled and
she was replacing
the portable
charcoal
grill
in the shed
she yanked that
vine in an act of defiance
and ripped it from a wall that
supported the hope for just a drop
of water to keep striving over that roof
that had become the vine’s home.. i was then
rather disappointed but at the same now i knew
the root of that.. a troubled mother who had mental
illness of her own.. not available to give the love to a child
that she needed so much.. a very poor upbringing where often then
there was no water for her to drink.. no father to stay at home..
and one boyfriend of a mother who stood over her bed with
a knife when young.. another.. who paced the back
yard in a square all day long.. another one
who popped pills.. to keep his life
going on.. and another one
who thought he knew
the queen of
England
that her
mom met in
a mental institution
too.. scars.. scars that are
not healed.. when control of the
dead things in life will motivate someone
to rip the vine of a living thing from its roots
of life.. anyWay.. the root of that vine still exists..
no doubt next year it will take another path away from
the struggle up that roof.. but never the less life lives with
roots of scars that are deep and overcome for continuing survival
now.. and Tim Tebow.. is surely a public example of this.. born with
an invasion of disease from the time of fetus status in the Philippines..
same place of origin as Katrina’s biological father too.. with just enough
placenta left to nourish a child for birth.. and that child grew up.. yes.. Tim..
to play a school football game with a broken femur.. believe it or not Ripley as that
child had already overcome a cross in fetus status to survive from the very start..
all innate.. all instinct.. all intuitive before any words were spoke.. or education
or anything else but the innate gift as God of Nature allows for life.. and
somehow that young man kept his love as strong as the strength
of body that would power him on to do stuff that was hard
for other folks to believe.. so with the 3:16 Football
game with all those coincidences coming
together WHO the concrete book
heads will chalk up
as random
goo.. no
different
noW than the
miracle of life
on this planet Now
as science shows to
be true as beyond any
stat of lottery win.. well.. perhaps
they’ve never been the little autistic
boy who could not speak either.. the
last kid picked on sports teams at schools
that even the ‘high class’ girls called skank
for his oily long blonde hair.. and the boys called
fool and other words that were F for his bright smile
no matter that was not his name Fred either at that
time of life.. anyway that little boy ended up at
number 11 in a class of 381.. even when folks
made fun of his stuttering voice and inability
to put words together in coherent flow
in middle school too.. three college
degrees.. and back to the
cross of starting
all over again
at minimum
wage at
a Military
Bowling Center
trying his best to lEarn
the social skills and emotional
intelligence and even speaKing
and writing skills that school never
taught him through college before..
and then the last kid picked on sports
teams would marry a beautiful young woman
and prove those who said he would never have
a girl friend in his life wrong.. and even getting knocked
out of that humble job then where he would eventually become
manager with Federal Service and move to a lower Administrative
Assistant job for a Captain in Pensacola through a reduction in force..
would return in full strength as a Community Activities Director with a
functional social reciprocal social communication disorder of his own
to deal with.. and without the ability to walk alone in a store with
great discomfort without watching someone walk next
to him to copy.. he would be chosen as Athletic
Director at a Military Installation for his
computer skills described as more
of a valuable commodity than
a good old boy of course..
and then with flight or fight
stress of a round peg in a hole
that was becoming
infinitely square
he broke down
again like he did
in college years but this
time 19 medical disorders came
with the worst paRt.. the type two
Trigeminal Neuralgia described as the
worst pain known to mankind.. like Dentist
Drill in eye and ear without Novocaine or any
other drug attempt that would do anything to
lessen that pain from wake to sleep.. a full 66
months with a pain that medical literature says
is worse than the torture of crucifixion too.. nah..
not three hours.. not three days.. 66 F iN months in hell
with eyes at first eight months not making tears with
Sjogren’s Syndrome.. heart rate and blood
pressure no longer synching with
Dysautonomia.. almost passing
out after eating
a meal
or a simple
walk around the
block then.. with
sleep not coming for
almost an entire 40 days
in the lent period hell of
2008.. only 1 hour each night
for 35 days.. with the assistance
of a powerful alpha blocker iN extremely
shallow card board sleep.. zero sleep for
the last 5 of 40 falling into an internal hell of
existence where all senses and feelings left
in an abyss where one second was a thousand
years of hell that never ended now forevermore now..
as a rough estimation looking back that words will
never come close to describing a hell where
gasoline doused and lit
from head to toe
would have
been
preferable
to nothing
at all in the
abyss of hell
in separation from
All of Nature in perception
way and God the same then..too..
what else.. yeah.. losing a child
at 37 years of age.. the child living
51 days in a medical extension of torture
of life.. congenital anomalies.. no pathways
to breathe.. transposal of the great vessels of
the heart.. heart surgery and that child still survived
as that is what life does.. no matter drought or otHeR
circumstance.. the vine crawls up to live no matter what..
that child died in my arms as his only relief in life was death..
and that child would come to help save my life as i too lEarned
what
FucKinG
Survive means..
at core of Star
dust plus
crucible
of fiRe
liFE..sAMe..
so.. sure.. after i came
out of HeLL and the Fibromyalgia
and the Severe Degenerative Arthritis
iN my spine.. precipitated by a congenitally
fused vertebra also from birth and complications
with the sinus area and associated Trigeminal Nerve
as the CAT scan for that part showed my sinuses
were so blocked from birth.. the ENT
reviewing that CAT scan asked me
how you do breathe.. duh..
through my mouth of
course.. bed
side manners
not really funny
to me then.. and
yeah.. the Coat Hanger
Pain all around my shoulder
and neck as a condition associated
with Dysautonomia too.. the Severe Anxiety..
Severe Depression.. Anhedonia.. Alexithymia..
Mood Lability.. and Autism Spectrum Disorder finally
diagnosed as Asperger’s Syndrome in 2008.. at
age 47 then.. and other stuff too in a soup and
synergy of life threatening disorders whole..
but those were the worse of those..
YES.. i came back to life
on or about July 22nd
of 2013.. a real miracle
as assessed by the attending
Psychotherapist who happens to
be Catholic too.. as before that i could
not even go into a Whataburger for the goal
of the Doctors then for 15 minutes.. and soon
was public dancing every where i went with leg
strength eventually coming back above and beyond
Elite Marines.. at my military gym.. leg pressing 1020
Lbs 33 times with arms raised to sky now like a ballerina
on a very difficult parallel free weight leg press machine..
this my friends is what A vine does.. iT reaches out aCross
the greatest challenges of life.. adapts.. survives and gRows
even more in oTheR paths that work.. iN Hell my sister told me
it is time for another chapter of your life.. of course.. she couldn’t
see the dentist drill in my eye and ear then.. with the only thing stopping
me then from hanging myself with a metal chain on a tree somewhere riding
my bicycle cooling my head enough not to faint to the ground where no one
would find me and the last chapter of my life would mean something as at least
the Vultures would have a little more to eat that day.. yes.. the only thing stopping me
was memories of the past that had lost their feelings and were drifting away.. after that
i spent my afternoons on my patio looking out iF iT wasn’t too hot to pass out then.. with
out the abiliTy to use my eyes and ears for anything for 33 months.. no reading.. no looking
at pictures.. no listening to music.. just nothing at all.. but rearranging letters in my head like
live spells evil and devil lived where words and letters became my only friends that i could
relate to then.. and sooner or later to survive i would start that first word on ThanksGiving
day of 2010.. a mountain of pain it was with computer screen brightness turned all
the way down.. one word led to a list then a paragraph and in March
of 2013.. on the 10th after the end of that February when
my words of lists and facts starting gaining
organic poetry
legs..
deep
deep
within
a spark..
a ROOT
a flAMe and
now a FucKinG
Forest Fire of words..
and this my friends is
what John 14:12 means..noW..
the original John 3:16 as originAlly
defined by the Greeks who wrote the
new testament means A son of God not
the F iN only begotten son of God.. the Romans
and others twisted the words around through mistake
and intent as well to expand the Roman Empire and others
the same for coins of material and power and status success..
thing iS.. i AM A Vine WHO refuses to give up.. no different than
the one on the shed that my wife ripped off.. and truth be tOld
we are both vines.. me and her.. we both carry incredible crosses
from the past and i forgive her transgressions that i do not fully
share as cross as she’s forgives mine.. and if you don’t thiNk
our marriage was made ‘in heaven’.. perHaps you’ve never felt
the MaGiC oF A REAL ISREaL GOD more FORcE noW thaN NoW.. ‘you’
Horatio’s will even understand/FEEL/SENSE as long you don’t
believe in anything other than what you’ve read someone
else other write to this point.. anything..
is possible in this life for
those who do not give
up and fight for life..
and even when
your intent
is to give
up..now..
something
deep inside.. the
snake that lives to
survive will not give up
either.. as that FOrCe is the
crucible oF star inside that
still lives as flAMe as torch
that carries on way
ward Suns..
as sons
and daughters
and child of God
oF aLL the sAMe NoW..
this is heaVen for those
who seek and find it.. this
can be hell for those who do
not believe in more than what
they’ve read before.. the thing iS.. iF
you believe in MaGiC there are no liMits
or expecTaTions as long as you just do it
and never give up.. if you do not DancE and
SinG liFe as MaGiC.. you don’t get iT.. iT’s as
simple and complex as that and i haven’t
got iT alL figured out and i’LL alWays
appreciate the so-called
occult mysteries
of liFE the
most
as all of that is
that is God is what
has led me to this point
of forevermore heaven now..
and you can scoff at T-Bow
miracle crosses like this
all ya like but
that doesn’t
take away
the reaLitY
oF Folks.. like our
Happy Heavens now
with a mustard seed and
vine that never ends in groWth..
tear me down and i WiLL Rise aGain..
so let it be written.. it’s already been done
so many dAM times for those with eYes and
eaRs to see
and
hEar now..
okay.. for the next
trick.. and treat and
or whatever off to dVerse
for the Scar Quadrille now..
i FeeL i’m prepped enough now..
and if these words only cross my
ears been tHeRe dONe iT BeFore..;)
And.. OH yeah.. of course i could not participate
sTiLL in the DVerse 44 word limit now to describe
my scars.. but here’s the thing.. folks who do the
John
14:12
thingies
DO NOT FiT
iN.. iT’S TRULY
AS SIMPLE AS THaT..
IF THEY FiT iN THEY DIDN’T
GET THE JESUS/JOHN PROPHECY DONE
AND THAT’S AS COMPLEX AS THIS..;)
AND THAT WAS MY FREDKU
AT THE END OF THAT
FRED BUN TOO..
WITH THIS
TOO..
reference
Haibun and
Haiku too..
Jesus F iN Christ StylE NoW..;)
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Truly.. it’s
A wonderful
FeeLinG to
Art Free.. take
Money out and
Almost anything
WiLL coMe..
A World
Needs A
UniVersal
InCome for
Art with
Neither
LiMits
Or ExpecTaTions
For buy.. money
Doesn’t exist
iN
FReEd..;)
i like ‘the photo’
With the Pink
Flowers best
As
LiFe iS
When Free
My friEnd..
Thanks for sharing..:)
Two responses to two poems..
one by Dean J Baker first and
the other by Talkaholicme.. both describing
issues with deficiencies of money and stuff like
that.. sure.. my response is easy.. for i am Financially
Independent at 47.. iN pArt.. for saving enough money
for that over 7 years and so as Federal Employment in the
U.S. has both a thrift savings plan that i added into from ’93
to ’09 as such.. yeah even after i was sick for a year and a half
as i actually had that much leave on the books to keep the pay
coming into.. until both the legal system and the medical profession
assessed me as permanently disabled while recovering into remission
of most of the original issues.. both Asperger’s and Bi-Polar are considered
life long disabilities that some how or another the FucK i stayed employed
actively from ’76 to 09 for around 33 years or so.. even during the first
year and a half of sickness on the active role then.. i was fortunate of
course as i got hooked up into the Golden Handcuffs of Government
work as how can ya say no to anything ‘they want’.. when you are
approaching 25 years of service and even the potential at early
retiring at 49 years of age.. anyway.. as i started the whole
Government Service in ’84 directly out of college at age
24 then.. i was going to graduate school after three (BA..
BS.. BS..) degrees and what can i say.. all the money
ran out and i had to get a job as
even the part time jobs with
the Books Store and
Archaeology Research
Associate went away and
so did the Janitor Job in total
of three part time jobs too.. Bowling
Center next as just another Beatle
in a Desert sand looking for the
next resource for subsistence
while yes.. i spent another
two years or so at my
Mother’s home until
i rented my own
place.. hmm..
iF you wanna
ever escape
the requirement
for earning money in
this society.. it ain’t gonna be
easy and next to impossible the
way the system is increasingly falling
to part time service jobs with no benefits
now.. and even the full time ones.. any real
retirement benefits.. ya gotta be kitten me as
all humans are tools of the machine to make
money for greater automation efficiencies
these days as humans no longer need
apply for benefit career lifelong jobs..
the jobs are there but sure.. more
than likely if you are lucky you
will find a job you half way
like that doesn’t
seem like
slave work
the rest of the
way until you pick
up your Social Security
check at 70 or whatever the
age will be with finally some
affordable Medicare Insurance that
might still be 500 to a thousand dollars
then of your 2K A month income.. per say..
or so.. if you are lucky enough to make enough
money in a lifetime to get up that high.. anyWay
my recommendation to get up to any chance of
financial freedom from the all mighty God of Green
blAck back Earning Dollars is to simply NOT SPEND
WHATEVER YOU CAN.. it’s what i still practice and
without dedication to that for both wife and husband..
all the money i have saved could be gone sooner than
i think now.. as Lord nows even with retirement benefits..
the wife and i pay over 800 dollars for our insurance benefits
but no sweat as our modest 60K dollar home with mortgage
back from ’93 is paid off now and so is our car.. helped a little
bit by the modest inheritance my father left as Lord knows his
goal all his life was to get rich quick.. Law Enforcement steady
job for 46 years but between getting married four times.. two
times to the same wife too was the hit on the pocket book
moreover with having two kids and a measly one hundred
bucks he paid to help me and the sister then per month..
never the less and not more it took him to over 50 years
of age to get his first house that would stay a home
of his in two more moves where he still left a
mortgage to pay off at age 82 then.. and all
the lottery tickets he purchased as he
left relatively little money in any
savings account never made
him rich but sure at least
it gave him something
to look forward to
each scratch off
that came..
anyway.. key is.. only
get married once.. if at all
and surely better to get married
for assistance if you can get along
with someone in give and take style
and swallowing your pride and taking
endless nagging for every little thing
if that is what staying together takes
too.. hehe.. and nah.. don’t have children..
it’s just impossible almost to save any money
with children as naturally they do come first when
you have them IF you are a naturally healthy nurturing
human being.. and perHaps not wise at all to try to have
children and/or even accidentally have them if you are not so
predisposed for that huge responsibility tHeRe that more folks
are forgoing now.. for both ME ME reasons and economic reality
ones same aS it’s impossible for a stay at home mom to stay
at home now.. for the majority of folks.. oh yeah.. other thing..
keep the same dam modest home.. and by all means get
one in a neighborhood that don’t tale Ya how to mow yA
yard and all that stuff.. a house lasts a lifetime when
purchased new and modest.. keep it a lifetime
and pay it off as soon as possible if yA
wanna escape the grips
of the green bLack back
dollar bill.. and remember
don’t spend for the stuff yA
don’t need iF aT all possible as
verily all that stuff will end up in
your garage and spare bedrooms
if and when that space becomes available
when there is no one sleeping in there.. oh yeah..
and for me.. sure.. keep a car at least 10 years as these
days modest new cars will last that long too.. i went a little
high and stupid and bought a Sports Utiliity Vehicle before
the price of gas sky rocketed as such.. back down to a Civic
now.. gonna take care oF it and keep it for at least 10 years too
as my Camaro i kept for 14 years and the Honda Passport made
it all the way to sweet 16.. before selling it with it still looking brand
new but never the less a gas hog it was.. with the Civic only sipping
somewhat cheaper gas now below the four bucks or so it got
close to back in the Passport days.. yeah.. at an average of
25K for a Vehicle this year.. keep one 15 years instead
of 5 years and you just banked 50K in a safe
account if you are smart.. stock market
never for me.. got a 4 percent guaranteed
savings through a Whole Life Insurance account
and the savings was always guaranteed through
the Government Thrift Savings account too.. and
now in these troubled times.. those accounts are
earning in interest free money.. almost as much
as i made back in ’85 in an entire year then..
and in a Whole Life Insurance policy there are
no penalties for withdrawal after the
15 year surrender period is over..
but nah.. ain’t no more 4 percent
savings account interest as guaranteed
now.. hmm.. yeah.. less than two percent
or so now.. but could be none in twenty
years or so.. just saving the money
and not spending it is the common
sense thing to do.. to escape the grips
of the Green BLack Dollar that can take
almost all your freedoms away.. slave to a job
you hate or one that is both killing you slowly and
or with stress too same.. and meanwhile ..Facebook
Friend Ashe says she has run out of favors and is drained
of human altruism too.. as surely that is what chronic and
severe stress of never saying no to unreasonable demands
on all your time and efforts and kindness will surely do if it
don’t kill
you first
as science
shows now
it ain’t just no
wife’s tale.. stress
of the chronic severe
kind will shorten your life
and make it a living hell
if you don’t die first
where life’s
a bitch..
so.. i say
back to Ashe
on her Facebook page..
No can be a difficult
word butt on the other
Foot it can
Save yoUr
LiFe..;)
And finAlly i say..
as i still haven’t got
back to the dVerse
prompt on scars and in
avoiding them.. take care of your
health.. umm.. eat pretty healthy.. yeah..
now move.. connect.. and create everyday
to recreate as much as you possibly can..
’cause thing is.. without that the rest oF iT iT’s
all a
car
wasH
anD
dry rot
iN hell..;)
Amazing isn’t it how
a small Lady Bug
in the desert
like sands
of my yard..
can inspire
me like this..
all those tiny
intricate quartz
like grains holding hands
iN keeping mountains of love
upright with a friend of leave with
veins of love that surELy has a pretty
good
hold
on
Financial
Management
too as remember i started
off with minimum wage and stayed
there from ’84 to ’93 when my non-appropriated
fund job was kindly transferred over to Clinton
executive order sponsored GS-5 pay grade
appropriated funds.. service staying
and transferred since ’84 too..
ending up on a fast track
to higher salaries in the
last few years of
my total career
reaching pay grade
GS-9 to GS-11 in
what they eventually
named NF-4 as i moved
back to non-appropriated
funds to keep my full time job
at the end with the same Civil
Service benefits then.. i was truly
fortunate to actually save overall with
assets close to half a million dollars then
albeit when i was sick the wife went on somewhat
of a spending spree that the other side of the executive
branch would have never approved if well.. but still there
is enough money to last for the rest of my life no matter
what as i gotta handle back on the financial reins now
both to our satisfaction as the wife’s dream to
buy Kohl’s has disappeared now.. tongue
in cheek as she truly is low maintenance
as any woman’s taste in stuff i’ve
even heard of to this point now
hehe.. as verily women are
the natural gatherers
and storers as
men
are
the short
spurt hunt
folks who get
in for the ‘kill’ of the
high fat content meats
and get out quick and
kick back with a Newspaper
still or the NFL.. NBL.. AFC..
Video Game or whatever replaces
the tribal male instinct for war after that..
and that’s where folks like Tim Tebow come
in now.. to naturally fill the wHole of wars of death..
sure as he makes the Grade iN Major League of Baseball too..:)
Okay.. does that solve all your financial problems
and ensure happiness too.. weLL true.. don’t forget
my trUe religion @lEAst.. to Dance and Sing and
for the rest of the first world problem globe..
this global expanding Brexit thingie that
has come in Orange Trump form
iN the Good Old U.S. of A
iS the heartburn of
thE cost of stuff
(except for
insurance
of course)
going way way
down as what once
paid for employee
benefits as such is now
cost saved out by robots
of automation and cheap
other global labor too..
as the wealth
gets spread
around the
world
a little more
to the extreme chagrin
of folks in rust-belt like
places who wore the blue
collar hands on UniForms
as such putting stuff toGeTher
and all of that by actual sweat
of the brow and things like that..
when scarcity arises folks wanna hold on
to the grain in the silos.. no longer as generous..
no longer as empathic and giving and sharing.. they
just plain get scared when there don’t seem to be enough
to make subsistence in all the ways that comes over what
truly isn’t core survival necessary of wants that feel just as
real as needs for want want want.. the answers are always the
same in smaller homogenous cultures of humans to share and give
and love without restraint.. but heY in a mixing pot of cultural complexity
like this with the jobs of the past gone away with realistically almost no
change of substantially bringing them back in this new world now..
sure.. it’s common sense.. conservative ways increasingly rule..
only way to stop it is if the rich give up more of their grain
and we take care of folks overall holding hands the
best we can.. honestly.. overall that’s not how
life works in the big cities of human
populations now.. laws
will have to made
more for a social
net if give and
share.. less
anarchy and
chaos eventually
cuts the population of everything
on this planet in World War III.. and after
several thousand years the beatle roams free
in lush forests away from desert sands again..
in other words enjoy it while you can.. ‘that
Beatle’ dAm sure ain’t worried about any
world
war
III..
no pesticides
or even fertilizer
in my yard as remember
this is the Garden of Eden out of
the current Ball of Confusion and purgatory too..
on
EArth
as humans
chagrin another
day in the Super-Walmart
check out stuff lanes that never rise
to
a
Happy
Dance and
Song unless you
just do it and say
no i’LL
Fuck
the
rest
of this shit now..
yes i know.. easier said
and done by an ISREaL Peter Pan..
never the less i lived in purgatory and hell
too
been
tHEre
dOne it
eScaped nOw FReED..:)
Jesus F. iN Christ
this sHit iS Long..
and sTiLL
have yet
to
make
it to the
scar prompt yet..;)
But perHaps all i needed
was one word from dVerse
as often happens now..
hehe
haha
Free rules now..:)
And hey.. iF noThing
else iT’s
MY
pARTy..;)
If you made
iT this far
sure..
you’re
sTiLL invited..;)
WiTH..
Fearless SmARt
Unconditional
loVe
and
aLL oF
thaT iS2..;)
Hmm.. miGht as WeLL finish
up shAring the Facebook Memories
of the day which there are a few to
do as nows
go by.. STiLL Now..;)
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Fun Fred Santa photo
with two of my
customer
service
friends
2 years
ago then..
from the FUN
Hard Rock Cafe
in Church group tour
bus way.. and oh yeah..
best advice oF aLL.. PLAY
and make
every
FucKinG
experience
C A L LeD
liFE ranging
from dARk to
liGht and RainBoW
BeYond colors holy
and sacred and even
arrive alive in the bliss
and the heaven and
the nirvana oF
alWays
Forevernow
as imAginaTioN
and creAtivity
moVes
and
conNecTS
with all that iS
aka God aS WeLL
as any hUman TsUnAmi
oF loVe WiLL continue to jusT DO..
SmArt FeArLESs NOW and FREE..:)
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Molly WOLVES AND GEMINI FULL Moon.. hmm.. two year ago memory
for a Gemini Full Moon and the best parts over the only 740 words
in this one. . are the overall Beach photos from Biloxi..
including Christmas Boat show on the
Biloxi Bay.. as well as
many fun
dance
photos
too
with one
of my first
favorite artful
all pg rated underwear
ones too.. stuck in the middle
hehe
as
such
back then..
oh yeah.. i didn’t
mention it before
in that other pARt
but don’t forget physical
and emotional intelligence
practiced does most definitely
mean use it or lose iT aS onE
grows older too.. so many ways
to do that in moderation these days
and even legally and somewhat socially
appropriately shaRinG as art and perHaps
stimulating more of the human experience
iN
Heaven
on EARth2..
thing is.. like
the Ice Princess
said.. let it go.. just be FuN
build your ice castles hEar
in spRinG.. SummEr fALL
and
WintEr
too wHere
the warm
stuff
alWays liveS noW..
And by the way.. Olivia
Newton John said the
same thing in SonG and
DancE iN thAT old movie Grease
that is surely applicable in lubricating the
wheels
of life
Fresh
today wHere
you are only
as young as
you can FeeL
and SenSE aLL oF liFE noW..
tHEre are so many easy solutions
i could give the church in Mass on
Sunday for heaven now.. but nah..
that’s not appropriate ..and why A thief
in the
night
must
come online..
as jUST anotHeR
KinG David prophecy
comeS oNline aS WeLL too..
Like
‘they’ say2..
drive
thru
and come aGAin 2..;)
666 Months of LiGht.. from a year ago.. on December 6th as
i celebrate 666 months of liFE on the Planet Earth..
also my Grandfather.. the XCatholic Priest’s
120 anniversary of his birth date
too as Synchronicities
come in
all symbols
and forms
and essence
of purpose and
meaning in liFE for
those who FeeL
and SeNSE and
kNow essence
of all that is
aka
God
as all that is
in how God communicates
with those with totAlly open
eYes and ears that see and hear
more than books alone of yesternows..:)
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OtHEr than that i show ya how long and
strong my tongue iS in the Christmas
story not getting stuck
on and
Indian
Summer
Tree on
the River
wHeRE i was
raised allone wiTh God
of Nature wHole before
i could.. speak at age 3 as such..
the human tongue IS A strongest
muscle of the human orgaNism
oh what
that thing
can
do when
fully unleashed
and released too hEhe..
as ‘some women’ who have
fELt and kNown me more could surEly
tale ya too.. as sure.. i ‘talk too much’..
heHe
and
stuff
like that
as i don’t
need to drink
liquor.. instead as such..;)
(remember.. i was voted
the wittiest boy in
second
grade
private
Catholic
School in
Tallahassee.. *FL…;)
*The state FL that’s shaped
like a gun that means floWer state..;)
MIRROR times MIRROR.. a somewhat
enigma of a Palindrome that weighs in at
1644 words where the original founder of
dVerse.. nice guy.. Brian.. also known as Mr.
X.. didn’t think i was for real when i sAid
i would do one that would be over 1000
words long.. thing is..
remember
John
14:12..
this is one
of those
going down
for iSReaL things..
no myths here.. cut
straight to the heARt.. the
SpiRit and the SoUL of the entire matter..
and this cAMe iN from June of 2015.. i muSt
have just been flexing my form muscles of
poetry too.. sure.. i can do iT probably as
well as anyone else but
it’s just so
cold
and
restricted
no matter how
well it fits the guidelines
of complexity and structure
beFore uPside dOwn in rEverse
and all aRound as such.. iT serves
a purpose like all other prison walls
aS
conserving
yesternows do..
and this just shows
i can it do it too if
i wanted to
sTick
iN priSon too..
nah.. i’ll stick my
tongue(s) OUT
inStead..
aLL ‘A
FReED..
sorry iF iT
offends but i’M Free
botTom FucKinG liNe oF liFE noW..;)
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And finally a photo shared on Facebook
of Katrina celebrating my 666 month of
existence on planet earth last December
noting with cartwheel that the bridge iS opening
to the year 2016 wHere a GodsUniVerse Novel would
come first on Christmas of 2015.. nah.. not January first..
the first day the Sun stArts iTs travel back to SpRinG and SuMmER
more past Spring Equinox to Summer Solstice too.. right after the Winter
Solstice ends.. too.. and to be clear i love the mythical story of the baby Jesus
and the three wise men.. and even the virgin birth and all that stuff.. it’s not the
first or last time that myth has been told to support essence of trUth and liGht to
spread a story in vehicles and vessels houSing trUth and liGht and deep deep down
in our human
archetypes
as all life
that depends
on Sun for life at
very crucible as stars
burst for poTenTial sentient
Star duST plus liFe.. sure.. i worship
all of what that is that creates this wonderful
gift of star life now.. and sure of course that includes
the Sun.. and all this else.. even myths that carry the essence
to now
within
as human
archetypes same
stored in our genetic
memory in DNA way for
all our ancestors who struggle
to make this gift oF liFE now.. i sEE/
FeeL/SeNsE this ‘world’ and appreciate iT all for this
giFt of life provided to me iN all that is that comes BefoRe..
Sure it’s
worth celebrating
with 12 million words
since ThanksGiving of
2010 through Hell through
Heaven through all that is i experience
for Now all that is.. and the 6666 miles of
dance arriving at the end of December of 2016
in 40 months or so.. is just another average of
166.66 miles a month too.. sure all coincidences
Horatio’S huh.. do realize what all of this is.. proof baby
of
more
of
more
of
more
John 14:12 STUFF..
to borrow juST another
Vessel and Vehicle HouSinG
huMan Archetypal TruTh and liGht..
don’t matter who wrote it and i give whoever
that is as much credit as the Jesus baby too..
aS iN numerology this 9 year of 2016 is also
coming to an end..2 plus 0 plus 1 plus 6
yes.. as 9 as such.. 2017.. will
be
number
1.. as
SpRing
coMes aGain
iN PaNaRound..:)
11,777
WeLL.. FRiEnD Fred here.. gigoid..
And Oh Lord ‘that’ was a long
long moment iN getting here
as the time iS juSt
totAlly
esCaPinG
unto now
for now
today
for
now.. sMiLes..
but as Arnold says..
i’M back.. i’m Back AGAiNoW..;)
“When washing your face, can you see your true self?”
Can’t stand a wash cloth on any part of my body..;)
“When walking, can you feel the rotation of heaven?”
Yes.. as aLL walKing Now bEcoMes floating hiGh
DancE iN clouds alWays noW aS butterFly SinG..:)
“When speaking are your words without guile?”
OnLY mileStones floW iN ZonE NoW..:)
“When you shop are you
aware of your needs?”
FucK shopping.. Katrina does that..
i’M jUst tHeir to dance and shoot photos
and bEcoMe the subject of video voyeurs aS weLL..;)
“When you meet the suffering, do you help?”
i DancE and
SinG liKe any
clown will do
now when
enCounTering
misery and suffeRing
to cheer the crowd uP..
not everyone wants that though..
sAdly
enough..;)
“When you meet conflict,
do you work toward harmony?”
Sure.. DancE
And SonG iN
Peace and Harmony
like coke with no drugs..;)
~ Deng Ming-Dao ~~
(‘per quote lines’)
“Metaphysical totalitarianism of any kind stifles the freedom we have as human beings.
It is not acceptable to have a religion where the alternative to faith is punishment
– that’s how you train dogs, not develop people.”
~~ Deng Ming-Dao ~~
Religions with harm
do no
Golden Rule/Dao..:)
For me at lEast.. i skip
all the rules and
regulations..
instructions
and
guideliens
and simply live
forevernoW iN a soft
purr like Yellow Boy2..;)
“When I think back on all the crap I learned in high school…”
~~ Simon and Garfunkel, “Kodachrome”
Yes precisely like
that purr
school..;)
“Look to the essence of a thing,
whether it be a point of doctrine,
of practice, or of interpretation.”
~~ Marcus Aurelius Antoninus, Meditations, viii, 22 ~~
A
FucKinG
A allone..:)
“Were I a nightingale, I would act the part of a nightingale;
were I a swan, the part of a swan.”
~~ Epictetus, Discourses, Book i, Chap. xvi ~~
i’LL do
both..
Y not..;)
“Long years must pass
before the truths we have made for ourselves
become our very flesh.”
~~ Paul Valery ~~
Sure.. some
words can
bEcome organic too..
take Romance Novels
for example and moonlit reads..;)
“Neither fear, nor wish for, your last day.”
~~ Martial (40-102 AD), — Epigram x, 47 ~~
Oh Lord..
the
problem
with religions..
SOLVED here..;)
“Do not try to live forever. You will not succeed.”
~~ George Bernard Shaw ~~
Of course not..
don’t try to do it..
juST dO iT forevermorenow…;)
“Pick up my guitar and play, just like yesterday..”
~~ The Who, “Won’t Get Fooled Again” ~~
With
new
tunes of Course..
aS instruments oF
Nature move.. connect
And create alWays morE noW..;)
Just using a
Little tactile
Sensitivity
For humor
And
A little
Detour
For
The sake
Of Novelty
For in my case
Taking all of life too
Seriously literally
Almost killed
Me.. not gonna
Be too much of a
Habit though
For
Overall
Humor
In yin
And
Yang
As Dao
SmArt
Bee might say..
And surely there
Could be deePer
Meaning iN every
Word that EsCapes
First glance
To even the
Writer
That
Is not
SoMe thing
i have explain to
You as a greaTest
LiGht
Is humor
Although dry
Doesn’t suit
Everyone’s
Taste..;)
All iN
Loving spirit
My friEnd foR noW..:)
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#yearinreview2016 .. Hmm.. we are so lucky to live in
an era where so much is provided to us.. totally free of
charge as Facebook does all the work to provide another
trip around the sun in review of the ‘liked points’ of what
i did in profile pics for the year.. yes.. offering me
the benefit of the doubt to change what
i don’t like but hey this is Facebook..
where i FucKinG liKe almost everything..
hehe.. as surely my 5217 likes of other folks stuff
well exceeds the reciprocation of that but as i say..
i make all stuff holy and sacred in life.. with meaning and
purpose and that is why i dance and sing for joy and am
the happiest ‘boy’ in the entire world perHaps.. as i make
a science out oF art for joy.. and it simply FucKinG works
as that is pARt of Gnosis too.. as if it ain’t happy
what is the point of this whole FucKinG
shooting match that IS NOW Heaven
anyWay.. as God miGht say
through all the laborious
efforts in outer space
rinGinG this isREaL opportunity
for Heaven now that surprisingly all
do not see and hear and feel and sense as
they look forward to something after death that
can be A real heaven that we can create as whole
on Earth if we just FucKinG opened our eYes and
Ears and SenSes and FeeLinGs and left our
countries of frOwny Face far far behind
more appreciating this amazing FucKinG
Gift oF liFe here on EARth.. so you miGht
ask why i dance all naked and sensual in public
in avenues of restricted adult art.. WeLL.. ’cause i
celebrate God no Different than King David would
if you really understood that he was saying Heaven
can be now too for those who set their selves free in
Happy that yeS includes both humor and sensuaLiTy too..
beyond the corsets and stuff of the Old T and New T same
where frOwny face has been the rule of both illusory fears..
and empty promises.. making this earth into hell.. instead of
a potential of heaven at hand now.. ISREAL.. play naked like
a Buddha stripped down to TruTh and liGht all Natural is what i
Just do.. as the Founding Father’s say in the U.S. of A.. the Pursuit
of Happiness is the purpose of liFe toGeThER of course in doing
no harm to others.. wHeRe us freER folkS iN Heaven can do it
all free on restricted adult links if we so care to air out our Vicky
and Herman secrets too..;)
Just another Facebook Memory to date freely
provided by the Algorithm assistant.. A Post from
4 years ago.. yes.. somewhat active on Facebook in
2012.. while i was finishing up my deadzone and
before i hit the poetic streak at the end
of February 2013 moving into
March of that year.. noting
here my Grandfather’s bio on Wiki..
and he also wrote many more books beyond
these two most noted two.. and nah.. he wasn’t
the Catholic Church’s favorite ex-communicated priest
by far by far by far.. as they pretty much determined he
was going to hell for disagreeing with the top dogs there as
such.. these days they are just trying to keep the pews filled up..
a little less hold on the populace than what swords used to make..
burning at the stake.. etc.. iN torture for those who didn’t believe in
what they believed in.. not too much different than modern day ISIS
but you will not hear that reality when the past of the church is
addressed in church as Constantine is considered a Saint
with no attention paid to his adherence to
cold blooded murder.. not much
different than ISIS leaders today..
lots of stuff is sugar coated.. particularly
the facts of science now of biblical study that
no one really knows who of all the real Jesus was
as 40 years of Aramaic illiterate folks making up new
round table stories as they went on desert trails in only
oral tradition.. and the elite Greeks who were literate..
writing down what they thought should be
remembered among many so-called
oral tradition round table
Christian sects.. ranging
from believing in one to twelve
Gods and then the scribes who
copied mistakes and changed it more
from hand to hand for centuries on the whim
of what their so-called holy spirit told ’em should be in there..
before and after the Roman Empire Nicene council in 325 AD..
where Jesus was made in to a Soldier Sun Sword God..
in adherence with the Mithra Flavor of religion of the
region to help expand the Roman Empire
where most folks were singing
off a common choir sheet and of
course a similar virgin birth story around
the Winter Solstice in Egyptian mythology
with the baby Horus and the Virgin birth of him..
with the Egyptian Mother Goddess Isis who surely
looks a whole lot like the modern day Katrina.. hehe..
anyWay.. the trUth and liGht will set ya free only if you
are strong enough to sing OFF the established myths
and actual downright lies used to control folks and
subjugate them through made up illusory fears
and empty promises where yeS.. even
through all those myths enough
liGht and TruTh is carried over
in these vehicles and vessels of myths
that can also house elements of TrUth and liGht too..
like those Victoria’s Secret Models in front of the Mall store
that say if you buy tHeir sexy remnants of clothes.. every
man will salivate when they cross your path..
where women come into control more
so than the covered up women
of the Old T way that went
many centuries over into the
Victorian era of covering up human
skin until Vicky’s Secret got some air..;)
“Leo Herbert (1895-1950) was an Irish author, editor, and director of a Protestant ministry, Christ’s Mission in New York. He was an accomplished priest in the Roman Catholic Church who later in life converted to Protestantism and served as the editor of The Converted Catholic Magazine. He authored magazine articles, books and pamphlets, condemning the programs and activities of the Roman Catholic Church.
Educational background and priesthood
Leo was born in 1895 in Kingstown, County Dublin, Ireland, to Edmund and Emma.[1] He attended Mungret College in Limerick, and All Hallows College in Dublin. He was awarded advanced academic degrees in theology, including a Licentiate of Sacred Theology (STL) and Doctorate of Divinity (DD).[2]
In 1918, Leo entered the University de Propaganda Fide in Rome, Italy, and was ordained a priest of the Roman Catholic Church in St. John Lateran. He served as a Roman Catholic priest in Europe and South Africa. For several years, he served as a negotiator in legal matters at the Vatican. Following his activities at the Vatican, he went to the United States, where he served as a priest in Florida. During his time in the US, he continued his education at New York University, earning a Master’s degree.
Publications
Behind the Dictators, Leo H., (New York: Agora Publishing Co., 1942)
Vatican policy in the second world war, Leo H., (New York: Agora Publishing Co., 1945)”
Facebook Friend Greg and
Fellow Employee from the
Bowling Center for almost
two decades shares a
slide of
a quote
that says..
“IF YOU DON’T
STAND UP FOR
OTHER’S WHEN
THEIR RIGHTS
ARE BEING
TRAMPLED
WHO WILL STAND UP FOR
YOU WHEN IT’S
YOUR RIGHTS
THAT ARE
TRAMPLED”
so of course..
i go ON and
on
to say.. then..
and now 2..
Yep.. and folks
think the Nazi rise
thingy and other
Fascist stuff
was/iS juSt
an historical
anomaly.. nah..
it’s pArt sTiLL of the
dARk side of hUman
natUre that will resort
to all kinds of fresh hell
when life is viewed as less
than a spirit of abundance..
scarcity
kills..
always
has always will..
even if that kill
is ‘only’ a P grab
to be swept under
the gutter oF liFe..
Trump is a very very poor
man when it comes to real
male self-esteem.. it shows
from head to toe in comb over..
and sure that reflects the other segments
of our
society
too.. as when
males lose their
self esteem and social
roles same.. they lose their COOL..
wHeRe Trump is a transparent FOOL..
if he can ‘dance naked’ in front of the world..
he’LL
prove
me wrong..
or at least prove
he’s a COLD ASS HONKY..;)
i’Ve addressed scars enough in this current MacroVerse..
so i’M not going back to dVerse to entertain the
wildly popular dVerse scar’s prompt.. as most
every poet and or other artist
has deep dArk
and scars
to share
no different
than me.. an important
place to visit.. but surely
not a place to wHeRe yoUr weLcome
out in.. as dArkness is most definitely
contagious.. particularly to the more sensitive
empaths among us who have a hard time shutting
off that siNk of sucKing in the EmoTiOns of oTheRs..
so.. anyWay.. i’LL likely end this current MaCroVerse
number 727.. with title sTill soon to arrive.. with a full
quote of a MacroVerse of 1824 words from two
years ago.. as dVerse also has a Tuesday
prompt based on recipes for life..
beyond food per say/feel/sense..
and for me
this is
an
existential
recipe for both
existence and God
oF Nature.. that is worth
sharing in whole.. as i did my
best to share it on a Wrong Planet
two years ago.. with little notice of course
as they take life mostly literal with little right
brain spirit of interpreting more than black and white
of liFe.. truly.. tHeir is so much more to experience when
one opens up that other Hemisphere noW in metaphor for
intelligence.. yes.. emotional.. physical.. spiritual sAMe
with sensory inTeLLiGence too.. perHaps this poTential
mUSt be watered almost from the day of biRth to grow
a Garden of more than bLack and white fActs and iN
that case perHaps i was sadly wasting my time and
space iF folks truly are only chosen by mostly
the love they receive early as food and drink
oF liFE and a fertility of ImaGiNAtiOn and
creatiVity that is fed within more than
an external purple dinosaur named
Barney.. liFe is generated from
within.. alWays has
beeN alWays
WiLL now..
Muted
by the sun outside
or generated by the sun inside..:)
And now to “Angel Devil FRED”..
IN
MY
opinion..
the issue of difficulty
in Understanding GOD..
is in both definition
and
way of thinking
about GOD…
First of all..
GOD
is not
a
noun..
GOD
IS
a
Beneficial
FORCE
OVERALL…
AND GOD WORKS…
And THAT IS WHY GOD IS LOVE
BEYOND THE AFFECTIONATE AND JEALOUS
DEFINITION OF LOVE as it is defined
in western materialistic cultures that seek to own instead of share…
GOD IS THE TRUTH OF NATURE AS IS PER MOTHER NATURE TRUE…
GOD is both the Universe and what may exist beyond the Universe
that Human MAY NOT yet be able to see
AKA
ALL THAT IS..
with the scribe
of GOD also known as Science…
SO GOD IS NEITHER HE NOR THERE…
GOD
IS tHere
otherwise KnowN as ALL…
All these are ARE words AND WITHOUT
the Wisdom that COMES through
the GIFT OF GOD’S DARKNESS
AKA THE Hard Knocks of Life
THE ESSENCE OF WHAT
i am saying here MAY NOT
BE truly HEARD OR SEEN..
by those WITHOUT
THE GIFT OF DARKNESS OF LOVE
THAT CAN bring awakening
aka
ENLIGHTENMENT IN LIFE
through the GIFT OF CHALLENGE AND CHANGE..
which in science talk means epigenetics and neuroplasticity…
So yes.. even through the science of
COGNITIVE
BEHAVIORAL THERAPY
the scribe of science continues
to CATCH UP TO one of the oldest
books of WISDOM
NAMED the I CHING
and the philosophy of ZEN…
GOD IS ZEN…
GOD IS JUST BEING…
GOD IS HOW THIS WHOLE DAM THING WORKS
AS TAPESTRY INSTEAD OF JUST THE DEVIL OF DETAILS…
AND TO LET ALL THE LIES OF CULTURAL ILLUSIONS GO..
YES.. LET IT GO.. Like THAT young PRINCESS
and eventually Queen of the dark of ICE
DID SAY AS THE DARK OF COLD
NEVER BOTHERED HER ANYWAY…
AND THEN i SAY NOW
as well as a MILLION AND MORE
other Awakened ENLIGHTENED folks
through the Power of the LOVE
OF GOD’S DARKNESS THIS..
GO! WITH GOD’S GRAVITY
OF JUST WHAT IS
AKA
TRUE JUSTICE
as
JUSTICE
IS TRULY JUST
FLOWING WITH THE RIVER
OF GOD AND ACCEPTING IT AS IS…
TO GO AGAINST THE GRAVITY OF GOD..
AS STEPHEN Hawking now identifies god literally
AS THE FORCE OF GRAVITY
and not metaphorically like THIS
PER THE OVERALL FORCE
OF NATURE AKA
GOD IS NoT BEING FREE…
TRUE JUSTICE IS IN ESCAPING
THE LIES OF CULTURE..
INCLUDING ALL THAT TRIBAL RELIGION CRAP…
i DID THIS JUST by taking off as many of the clothes of culture..
THEN IN MY EARLY 20’s.. AS possible…
WALKING the totAlly desolate pristine SUGAR WHITE SAND
WITH BREEZE INSPIRING SWAYING SEA OATS
BEING allONE WITH THE ENDLESS RHYTHM
OF THE EMERALD GREEN gulf WAVES
OF This BEACH OF GOD IN KNOWING
AND BEING IN NOW
that THIS IS my home
OF TRUE NATURE
THAT IS GOD
and not
the CAVE OF
CULTURE
ALONE…
i DID IT AGAIN..
STARTING AT AGE 47
THROUGH THE GIFT
OF 19 MEDICALLY documented disorders
through five years.. including type two Trigeminal Neuralgia
that is like someone drilling one’s teeth without Novocaine..
except the pain was in my right eye and ear..
losing effective use of both and being forced
out of the Lies of culture
WHETHER
i WANTED TO
OR NOT…
AND THEN THE GREATEST GIFT..
AS THE GIFT OF GOD OF LOOKING WITHIN
THROUGH INNATE INSTINCT AND INTUITION
AND LEARNING THE GIFT OF GOD AS IS..
to cure myself as the doctor gave me
NO CHANCE OF RECOVERY
AT ALL AND
YES
i still have his words documented to this day…
My other doctor.. my rheumatologist..
who was treating me for Dysautonomia.. Sjogren’s Syndrome.. Fibromyalgia.. Spinal Stenosis.. Severe Degenerative arthritis in my spine.. a congenitally fused T-6 vertebrae as the source of the early onset degenerative arthritis..
TOLD ME TO GO HOME
AS NONE OF HIS PAIN DRUGS
COULD TOUCH THE GIFT OF PAIN
THAT I EXPERIENCED…
AND THE WORST PAIN OF ALL
WAS LOSING ALL EMOTIONS AND YES
i WOULD HAVE RATHER HAD THE WORST PAIN
KNOWN to MANKIND THAN LIVE AS
TOTALLY NUMB AS DEAD IN LIFE…!
SO..
YES..
OVER
THE COURSE OF
THOSE FIVE YEARS..
as i was forced to look within
and eventually through
THE TRUE KNOWING
AND HEALING POWER
OF MASTERY OF
THE HUMAN MIND
OVER THE HUMAN MIND
IN RELATIVE FREE WILL
i healed ALL 19 medical disorders
myself with the HELP OF THE GOD
OF MOTHER NATURE TRUE…
THROUGH INSTINCT.. INTUITION AND FEELING
i learned to REGULATE AND balance EMOTIONS
AND SENSORY INTEGRATION
THROUGH THE GIFT OF GOD
OF THE TRUE HUMAN POTENTIAL of the human mind
THROUGH THE ART OF PHYSICAL INTELLIGENCE
MOVING THROUGH
DISTANCE AND SPACE
WITH THE GOLDEN
SPIRAL MEAN
OF 1.618…
YES..
i
learned
to Move
all body parts
in 360 degrees of movement
AND AS THE SCRIBE OF SCIENCE NOW SHOWS
physical intelligence and
emotional intelligence
work as ONE
FORCE OF
HUMAN BEING TO
REGULATE BOTH EMOTIONS AND
SENSORY INTEGRATION OF HUMAN BEING…
So yes.. I JUST DID IT.. LIKE MY FRIENDS AT NIKE SAY..
and continue to
CURE MYSELF
PER THE INNATE POTENTIAL OF HUMAN POWER
OF SELF HEALING ALL 19 MEDICAL DISORDERS..
INCLUDING
THE reciprocal
social communication functional disability
that at one time did not all allow me AT ALL
to be the ‘SOCIAL BUTTERFLY’
i am in real life now…
SO YEAH.. i FOR ONE SEE GOD
AS ALL GOOD ALL THE TIME NOW..
BUT WITHOUT SEEING THE TRUE TAPESTRY
OF DARK AND LIGHT..
IT IS ONLY A FOGGY NIGHT AND DAY IN NOW OF LIFE…
AND I HOPE.. only hope.. for someone.. anyone.. to catch a SPARK
of the LIGHT i LIVE ALL THE TIME NOW IN THE GOOD OF GOD through these inefficient words of human written symbols of language to EXPRESS THE TAPESTRY OF WHAT IS…
BUT A GOLDEN SPIRAL DANCE OF THE GOD OF MOTHER NATURE TRUE
DOES TELL THE TALE MUCH BETTER THAN WORDS ALONE…
SO.. YES.. i CONTINUE TO TELL THAT TALE
OF NON-VERBAL DANCE..
NOW FOR 2700 MILES..
spanning 15 MONTHS
IN TAI CHI
BALLET LIKE WAY
IN PUBLIC PLACES
ALL OVER MY METRO AREA
AS IT TELLS THE TALE OF GOD
AKA MOTHER NATURE TRUE..
MORE THAN WORDS WILL EVER DO ALONE…
AND YES.. OUR SO-CALLED PRIMITIVE ANCESTORS
CONNECTED THROUGH GOD
IN A SIMILAR WAY
UNDER THE FULL MOON LIGHT
AND WOODED FIRE LIT NIGHTS
GYRATING HIPS AND TORSOS
AND JUST LETTING
LEGS.. ARMS..
FINGERS.. AND TOES GO..
IN THE GOLDEN SPIRAL MEAN OF 1.618
AND FLOWING WITH GOD’S TRUE GRAVITY
INSTEAD OF FLYING ON TERRESTRIAL PLANE
AGAINST IT
WITH THE LIES OF ABSTRACTLY CREATED
SO CALLED INTELLIGENT LANGUAGE AND CULTURE…
YES..
THEY DANCED TOGETHER INSTEAD OF ALONE..
LIKE I DO WHEN i RAVE DANCE WITH
20 SOMETHING YEAR OLDS..
NOW MOVING INTO MY
37TH WEEK OF
JUST
DOING
THAT
SO
NO
THE
FALL
OF THE
MYTHICAL BIBLE
WAS
AND IS
COMPLEX
HUMAN LANGUAGE
AND THE SUBJUGATING
DOMINATING
LIES OF CULTURE..
NOT THE NATURAL APPLE OF GOD
THAT IS FREE FOR THOSE WHO
COME TO TRULY SEE
AND HEAR IT
WITH EYES AND EARS
OF GOD GIVEN
INSTINCT.. INTUITION..
AND MOVEMENT THROUGH
THE EMOTING POWER
OF THE EMOTION OF
SONG AND DANCE OF LIFE..
AS TRUE GOD GIVEN GIFT OF LIGHT
THAT WE ARE BORN WITH INNATELY
JUST WAITING TO COME BACK TO US IN TRUTH..
IF WE CAN LOOK THROUGH THE LENS OF LITTLE CHILDREN
AGAIN AND TRULY SEE THE LIGHT AND DARK OF GOD
AS ONE FORCE
THAT WE
CAN
SHARE
AND IS
ALL THAT IS
INSIDE.. OUTSIDE..
ABOVE AND SO BELOW…
Well
of course TRULY
ON COURSE AS IS
GOD needs not contemplate
AS GOD JUST IS JUSTICE AS IS.
IN FACT.. GOD NEEDS NOT AT ALL..
AS GOD IS ALL…
IT ONLY
‘TAKES
A
ROCKET SCIENTIST’
TO THINK OTHERWISE…
MY
CAT CAN
FIGURE THIS OUT
WITHOUT ANY WORDS
AT
ALL
AS MY CAT
JUST
IS
AND
IS GOD TOO…
SO YEAH..TRULY MY CAT
IS JUST ANOTHER MASTER
OF THE UNIVERSE
IN TRUTH AND
JUSTICE AS IS…
HUMANS CAN THINK
THEIR WAY TO LITERAL HUMAN HELL…
HA-HA! HUMANS THINK THEY DOMINATE THE WORLD..
AND
OVERALL..
THEY CANNOT EVEN
MASTER THEIR OWN MINDS…
MY CAT PURRS AT SILLY HUMANS
AS HE ROLLS IN THE SANDS OF EARTH
AND HUGS THE GRASS
OF MOTHER NATURE TRUE…
MEANWHILE HUMANS
ARE WALKING
LIKE ROBOTS AND OR ZOMBIES
IN THE AISLES OF SUPER
WAL-MART ALL ALONE…
i CHOOSE ALLONE WITH RELATIVE FREE WILL…
AND SO DOES MY CAT WITH NO NEED FOR WORDS AT ALL…
COMPLEX LANGUAGE.. SO-CALLED STANDARD INTELLIGENCE OF IT
MEASURED AS SUCH..
AND COMPLEX CULTURE CAN KILL THE POTENTIAL FOR HUMAN RELATIVE FREE WILL.
i AND MY CAT FOR TWO ARE FREE WITH THE REAL GOD OF MOTHER NATURE TRUE…
But again.. ‘just i Ce’ in only my opinion…
AND MY CAT JUST PURRS IN CONTENT INSTEAD OF CONTEMPT FOR GOD AS MY CAT JUST TOTaLLY LIVES the TRUE SACRED UNCONDITIONAL LOVE OF GOD…
Culture is A ‘Virus’
NOT HUMANS
AND
OR GOD…
and A VIRUS
IS GOD truly2
More simply PUT
THERE IS NO ESCAPE
FROM GOD IN LIFE AND WHO KNOWS
BUT GOD.. POTENTIALLY NOT EVEN IN DEATH..
AS GOD
IS
INFINITE EYES
AND SCIENCE ONLY FINITE EYES
WITH EMPIRICAL MEASURES AS SUCH
so why not Enjoy
WHAT
IS
JUST AS IS JUSTICE AS IS NOW…
THAT’S WHAT i do at least..
as to me anything else
is just wasting
what i KNOW
now at least
AS
A
PRECIOUS
GIFT OF DARK
AND LIGHT IN LIFE…
SO I LIVE ALL I CAN IN NOW
AS NOW IS ALL THAT EXISTS NOW ALWAYS NOW…
AND i for one “AM KILLING IT” EVERY STEP I GO in now..
FOR NOW AT LEAST.. WITHgravity of GOD and NOT AGAINST IT….
‘FEATNOTE’:
When i use CAPS in written PHILOSOPHIC
social communication like this..
i am using CAPS as a literary device
to retain reader attention..
AND TO GENERATE THE HUMAN
EMOTING POWER OF EMOTION..
in the TWITTER WORLD
WE LIVE IN NOW…
NO.. i AM NOT screaming..
i am as peaceful saying these words
in real life as a river FLOWING
to an ocean of love…
AND i AM CLARIFYING THIS
AS i DO NOT WANT
TO GET BANNED
‘HERE’ AGAIN..
AS EVEN WHEN
CLARIFYING
THIS ‘BEFORE’..
FOR JUST TRYING TO HELP
FOLKS SEE my OWN opinion
OF PHILOSOPHY
that has
LITERALLY taken me
OUT
of LITERAL HUMAN HELL…
i DO NOT AIM
to convince anyone
of anything i say or DO..
i just want to share it.. and that is all…
And if someone gains any spark at all from it..
that is great..
AND if not
AND ANNOYING..
please just ignore me if you like…
i TRUST THAT the ‘moderation team here’
has more respect for neurodiversity
in ways of communicating
and thinking now.. TG…
BUT STILL..
i RESPECT IT
ENOUGH
TO
ATTEMPT
TO
CLARIFY WHAT
i DO and SAY IN
COMMUNICATION AS WELL..
continually.. as the reading audience
AND moderation team ‘here’ is always changing…
Thanks in advance.. for ‘yOur’ potential understanding…:)
And now for the rest of Holy and Sacred Thursday R
and R activities.. including the 138th Dance
Week Celebration as the ChristMas SpiRit
of the masses ringS in the present and
presents of now.. as a kitty miGht
purr too.. and dance of course..
WiLd and Free with all the
cool college age folks
at good old
Seville Quarter
with more fun dance
photos added to this
“Pick uP thE bALL DancE
and SinG’.. MacroVerse around
the wee hour of Friday.. the 9th of
December.. yes.. on or about 3 AM.. of 2016..:)
OH yeah.. and Glenn Responds to my latest
Facebook Karmic eYe selfie
with T-Shirt text that says
in logo way.. ‘IT
TAKES a lot of SKILL
TO BE THIS
AWESOME’
hehe.. as
juST an
old gym
work-out
shirt..
Yes.. Glenn says..
More than a 1000 mirror selfies in 100 t-shirts;
heart emoticon
And i say in final
returns for noW iN
this 727th Macro-verse
of longest Ocean whole long
form poem still exceeding 3.3
million words in witness for God
of Nature from the date of 3102013..
in blog
adventure
initial
start
on Google
Blogger plat
form as such..
BiG Winks.. my FriEnd Glenn..
actuAlly more than 20K total
selfies.. including all blogs..
100k+ photo efforts
noW.. and over
500 photographed
T-shirts.. included
as art
DanceS
and SinGs
and records
iT aLL free.. Thanks
for dropping by too.. my FriEnd..
oh yeah2.. and plus 12 Million words recorded online total2..
All juST for the fun for what
liFE
can
BRinG iN
aLL oFDARk
And liGht.. ‘tween
of That and beyOnd
Rainbow Colors too2..:)
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BeforE and After NovEL pARTy
Introductory post to Free Novels
GodsUniVerseNovel
41K words
Free Verse Poetry Novel
GodsUniVerseNovel2
51K words
Free Verse Poetry Novel
GodsUniVerseNovel3
338,630 words
Epic Free Verse Poetry Novel
Approximately 3000+ printed pages…
With Hundreds of Beautiful Beach Photos..:)
KATiE MiA FredericK!iI
3.3 Million plus words
Super Epic Free Verse Poetry Novel
AKA
SonG oF mY SoUL..:)
Approximately 30,000+ printed pages…
just ’cause
i caN
buiLd iT..
FoR Free..:)
And yeS.. FinAlly..
CrediTs FiELd oF DreAMs..
A Thanks YoU oF sORts..
NoW..:)
Love iS
ALLTHaTis..:)
GRains oF SaNd
hOld mounTain
LoVe NoW..:)
GodsUniVerse 42 HiTchHiKinG
Hmm.. more and less..
A Meaning oF liFe..
After Book of Fred
And Purpose
of course too..
@lEast
for mE..:)
6000 Miles of DANCE WALKING! NOW!
Documenting this Public Feat oF Feet in 3 years..:)
After Dance oF Fred
NeverEverLand DoN’T
Stop DanCinG noW..:)
Book oF Ten Sixteen..
9 Macro Verses from
October 2016.. totaling
141,244 words.. all liNked
from that Month like A Great PumPkin..;)
New Testament oF ELeVen iN HeaVen ‘SiXteen
Total of 12 MacroVerses with
final chapter of this New Personal
Testament named as such.. 181,221 words..
as streAMs.. RiVers… OceaN wHOle wAves SinG oN.. FReED..:)
12 MiLioN ThanksGiVinG Words 2016
Documenting 12 Million words written
Since ThanksGiVinG oF 2010 or
A Seventh Book wHOle noW
oR wiTh 16 Macro-Verses
sTarTinG October
2016.. enDinG..
oN ThanksGiving
2016.. iT iS wHAt
iT is..
NoW..
surELy
Longgg..;)
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