BeYonD Fence oF liGht















 
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From the origin of allthatis..
gRains of SAnd fill toes
oF liGht bRiGht
connecting Now
to aLL ‘A eARTh
breeze through
eYes thaT LovE..
SinG through taste
of Night.. DancE aLL
SonG
oF
Be..
Butterfly born..
cocoons
shelved
away noW
as cycle oF LiFe
ends begins staRts
fiNishes aLways
MoRe noW
BrinG
tears
ring
Laughs
SMiLes moRe
liGht SunG
aM ONe..
and hmm..
off to dVerse Haibun
oF what WiLL be Fredbun
style of whatever free versE noW
comes to FinGerS of FReED.. oh
so short and long.. as Leaves
oF Grass WiLL Grow
in Fields
and Streams
of Rivers Ocean
Glow in midnight Diatom
sands of Sunlight Shores..
and the topic of the dVerse
prompt as coming noW is
how does one Rest and
Relax for R and R..
WeLL.. i have
a special
and very
SacRed Holy
Thursday and
niGht.. sEt.. uP
for R and R each
week.. and anyone
who follows my bloG
PoEM WiLL kNoW precisely
aLL the paths iN JourneY Now
oF Y i FreeST noW oF i thaT Goes..
So after what i provide here.. as mY
own contribution of mY way iN FReEDom
poeTry i.. iT’s 5232016.. and 4:50 pm noW to sTARt..
HeRe’s the deal.. i don’T juSt DancE aNd SinG
i aM a SonG
oF DancE
iN
poeTry
too.. and
thiS is jUst an
ongoing stARt to
never begin and finish
a never ending poeM oF
thE ‘SonG oF mY SoUl’.. i
AM.. and this iS the 671st
Verse of allthatis noW as i..
and surE.. sTiLL apProacHinG
4 MilLiOn words as aLL
WiLL FloW
iN
ZonE oF
i FReED..:)
sMiLes.. R and R
iN decades for me
was only a drive
through to see
mY Father then..
on Interstate
Roads.. twice a
year and twice
a month
moWinG
grass close
to Nature as
Leave of work
then.. worKing aLL
Holidays for decAdes..
never taKing a break WiLL
Certainly make i a dull boy..
noW neverLand
EnDinG story
aGaiN..:)
SMiLes.. WeLL
trUth iS i mainLY
stay in a state of
DancE and SonG even
iN poeTry that
is effortless
in balance
as best
Friend
oF graVity
noW.. iN WhiTe
liGht Love energy
that has no limits
or expectaTiOnsnoW
FReED from attempTinG
oTheRs to grey the
colorEd RainBoW
hiGh oF i
WinD FReED..
Sycamore
grows
ever taller..:)
Ah.. one of my most
favorite R and R DanceS
oF i to SinG iS FloWinG
WitH Butterfly golden
toes in Nike
Shox shoes..
yes.. size
11
and
a half..
with a bridge
across for H
wHolE as SpiRit
i oF liGht MoVinG
deep in SanDs WitH
arms as Wings BaLanCinG
GraViTy liGhts oF i.. wHere
Fingers are ruShinG DreAms as
Air oF mE.. Waves pattern Dance
Prints along never ending sway
of Ocean i across fAce of sUn
SeAGuLL jOY i
BRinG
to un-suspecting
Sun bathers sTiLL
who have never
viewEd an
ET
Butterfly
HUman BeinG
navigaTinG
i oF Heaven
HOmeNoW..:)
WoNder RiVers…
FoRests.. PoNds..
LaKes.. BaYs..
SuGar BeacHes..
EMerald WaTers..
SeaGulls SpiRal
neveR enDinG
SunnY Days
oF liGht..
NatUre’s
spiRit aS
animaLs
SingG Free
As heArt SoUL
BalanCinG heRe
noW iN Saint FloWer
oF Florida wHerE noW
i liVe iN RosE waY
peTals Of DreAms
coMe truE Now..
i’LL jUst
aDD..
iT’s HeaVen..:)
Seriously.. iTs
trUe.. it’S eVen
iN the good book
titLed.. “A History
of God’.. pAge 8..
the first name
for God iS
Lahmu and
Lahamn
meaning
silt as
water and
earth sTiLL
miXed toGeTheR
and per my last bLog
posT thAT mY friEnd..
iF you kNow the wHole NoW
story of ‘mY’ name.. iS iroNic
as both Heaven and Hell.. toGeTher..
iN oNe hUman BEinG aS DeViLAndAngEL..
SynchroniciTy
SinGs LaYman teRms
iN aweSoMe wHole waY..;)
WeLL.. trUth and liGhT iS noW
foR aA Angel emPath.. SaVinG gRace
is NatUre spAce..
as hUmans
with worry
emit stingy
jelly fish energy
kinda like the other
side of those jELly
fish like spiRits that
are positive liGht oF
FeeLinGs oF NatUre iN
that Avatar moviel.. then..
and noW.. wE Angel empaThs
mUst consTantly
generate poSitive
eNergy.. iN ways
of DancE and SonG
not to be defeated
by Human Jelly Fish
Stings of Stress.. Worry
Fear.. Doubt.. Jealously..
Greed.. and all the other
Con-social emoTions
that
non-
EmPath
AngEls
SinG.. but
trUly they
kNOw noT what
they do.. theY Now
juSt feeL and SinG noW
a DarKeR Song of Negative
EnerGy that wE empath AngeLs
do E-scape With DancE and SonG..
Beach.. Forest.. and under Trees..
and even in Caves and Desert too..
And yes.. Positive Energy oF poEtry2..
DancE And SinG NoW
aWay.. noW oN aNd or @NatUre HoMe
froM HUman SpiRit Jelly Fish StinGs..:)
SMiLes..
iN poEtry
SpeaK Jazz Now
iS jUst anoTheR
woRd foR Free Verse
SonG As MusiCK noW..
Free oF Art
SonG And DancE..
JaZz oF aLL..:)
6 ‘O’ 1 pm cLock
mean work-out
now.. be
back
later..:)
Back at 1:01 am
on 5242016..
Nature and photography..
Yes.. a relaxing mix of
rest of Nature
beyond the
mundane
routines
oF life
to make
the routine
oF liFe sacred
iN aLL deTails
of big photo view..
Mindful
iN phoTography..
Peace aNd Blisst..:)
Runner Endorphins of decades
past.. knees and hips no
longer agree with high
steps.. Now
but fLoWinG
Dance close
to eARTh BRinGs
SeNsaTionS noW oF
EmoTioNaL regulation
and sensory integration
to new highs in all pARts
of MiNd and BoDy Balance that
i had no idea even existed then
running to or away from something
that was toward the end of FeeLinG
rather than.. the do of Art iN noW..
Legs..Hips..thanK
mE For eYes oF
FloWinG DancE..:)
SMiLes.. sitting still or mechanical
walk not a meditation one noW..
MoVinG as i for one can
do iN ConNecTinG
CreATinG
Way oF aLL
thaT iS.. MuSt
FloW aNd SpiRal
iN body weight fULL
to be free.. my friend.. for me..
DanCinG
mediTaTion..
bestT piLL for i..:)
Quick poeTry break
ends at 1:15 am
and noW
foR
Bed..:)
Many Many
Global and
Local Metro
Area detouRS
as hiGhliGhTed
beLow.. noW bacK
here at dVerse Monday
prompt in Haibun
flavoRed
Fredbunns
in taste
oF R and
R for N0W..
10:41 AM..
5252016..:)
Ah.. CHalice oF wE
DanceE aNd SonG
oF Y i For mE..
FloW oF zoNe..
cOmes.. matterS
noT thE foRm
Or DestiNaTiOn
paThs JoUrney
aLiVe noW iN Peace..
Rivers Ocean
fly iN
eYe oF Love..:)
SMiLes.. cOunting sheeP
To g0 tO sLeep.. oNe steP
tWo stEp thRee sHeeP foUr..
NumBerSgroWinGs..
LetTers coMe FReED..
woRdSinGSonG
Longer noW
LettersEEd..
SpRead
i On..
PeAce cOmes..
eYe oF niGht
eYes oF DaY
sKeYes oF ALL..
SpRinG LiVes
iN aS MooN
ChiLd DreAms..:)
Saunter Red
White and Blue
Flag Breeze through
hiGhliGhts sacRed HoLy
FLiGht iNside.. ouTside..
so aBove.. beLow
all’A
rOund..
wHen aLL
becOmes
onE fLag
ofEYe..
NaTion
i oN
1 noW FReED..:)
FlaG oF
LovE fearLess
juSTiCe Flies iN FeAT..:)
HI.. Adriana.. haven’t
caught up with you
on the dVerse trail
recently.. nice to hear
your inspiRational words
here again.. another story
of tragedy inspired by bLack
books of lies.. rapes against
faith of different religions
God as evil
twin..
holding
hands with
Rapists Murders
evilivedevilived sAMe
raping little girls to burying
Lesbians to their chest aLiVe
to stone them with RocksNow
so they cannot cover thEiR oWn
eYes.. Supreme leader of Iran..
hA!.. supreme dEvil of heLL.. iN
real human form.. and aLL Ah
associated with
the devil realm
of killing
other pARts
of NatUre God
one sAMe all noW..
i’m getting reAlly REAL
tired oF iT.. and serioUsly
i lEarned how to shape shift
in so many artFuL ways he HE
perhapS i’LL beCome ISA
and settle
thE dajJaL
score of
Muhammad
twice and for
aLL oNe.. perHaps
A mYth.. perhapS
A dreAm pErhaps
thE anGer of God
Nature oNE as uS
mY frIEnd iNoW..
DEvils SpRinG
fRom loiN oF peDo
fiLe HeLL iN Dante bLack…
SMiLes.. moVing.. ConnecTArinG..
CreAtinG.. i too fiNd a way to
go iN R and R
HeaVen for noW
mY friEnd and oH
mY GoD the dEtale
pErson aWay froM
BiggeR viEw poeTry..
DancE and SonG i too
can be.. after three degrees
at the toP of my class through
Highschool.. UniVersity in Social
Sciences Interdisciplinary.. Health
Science.. Anthropology and then..
a Quarter oF A Century wHOle oH..
from Bowling ALLey to Adminstrator
oF Federal Government Programs then..
i neVer had a clUe trUly whaT
iT was to move.. connect
and create.. unTiL a little
Yellow Boy cat
disguised
as GoD aLL
cried under
my shed for
respite of
drOught with
no drop of water
taught mE aLL i
needed to kNow iN
PAws cLaws and puRRs
oF fearLess cAll oF the Wild
iN goD FreeD oF aLLeY strAy caT
SonG iN LiVinG Free liKe Whitman2..
PoeTriaL DanCes
iN SonG oF fEarFReED
Yellow Boy LoVe..:)
SMiLes..
bottom
line..
Nature
we are
ONE..:)
sMiLes.. for mE.. long
ago a giant oak
with spot liGhts
at bottom pointed
toward sky.. leaves
oF alive flow upward
downward sAMe for
a brief moment in break
from all stress work.. i AM
tree one WitH niGht.. tree later
felled by Hurricane Ivan iN then
WiNds oF FreeinG skY opens
uP cLouds oF Love never
seen in heaVens aBove..
and ah.. the stars no
longer covered
by branches oF
Love..
DarK iS liGht
IS A sTar
briGht MooNoN..:)
Sea as endless
as Summer neW
Breeze NoW iN
DeSert yellow
StreAM RiVer
eYes BriGht
aS Summer
longS AnD
WiNter FaLLS
SpRinG aGaiN..
Now oF Love..
NoW iN FearLess
SacRed eYe onE
WiSdom
Be
hOld..
i’s A foretOld
iN Led Zeppelin
Kashmir dreAm..:)
SmLes.. fOr thouSands
oF yeArs EaRth circles
Sun iN perFect pAth..
And ha.. hUmans
doubt they
master fate..
first step out oF
fear.. the rest fAlls
as pLace iN LoVeNOW
BesT FriEnd of ENerGy..
FrienD iN Gravity Balance tRue..
EarTh SinGs
truTh
iN DancE oF sUn..:)
SMILes.. a KaT then oH!
in cage oF a ThunDerstorm..
My liFe never but a sPark
of reaL reLaXaTioN on
the Autism Spectrum
then.. hA!.. anSwer
so simple!..
free fLow
iN ZonE
DancE aWay
from ruLeS Now
laughing aLL.. aH..
thE way to bliss bank
noW FReED no matter who
the F noW thInks i’M iNsanE..
IN FreeDoM
iNSaniTy
DancELoveSonG..:)
Oh God.. you are F iN
Hilarious.. the H and the
B ran mE out’A liNKinG
butT Jesus
F iN Christ..
thIS IS A foR fUn tHinG
noW and no F iN Science
PoeTry Project fOr mE.. heHE..
buTT i StILL wRote a 3 MilLion PLuS
LonGesT woRd ForM TerM poeM iN
thE hiStory oF HuMan
kiNd sTiLL
exPaNdinG
iN Words heRe
noW anD thE hidDen
MaGicK surPrise iS F iN
moSt everyOne oNliNe
i’Ve eVer conNecTaRed
WiTh iT IS A LoVinG
pARt oF iT iN aLL DarK
aNd liGht aS thIs iS paRT
oF thE 671st Verse.. iN aS
Love iT aLL..
as SonG oF
My SouL.. aka
the hidden title
IN KATiE MiA
FredericK!iI oH!
noW.. nanmykel
so mUch.. moRE wITh
FearLess noW LoVeNoW..
HeHeR.. yoUr
nAMe iS noW iN
mY Book oF LiFe2..;)
pS.. ‘they’ finAlly sorTa
put out that Alice
iN Wonderland
movie about
mY liFe..
thE LooKinG
GlAss IS A CaLLing
anD i liVe tHeir noW..
Two Fred
BuNs aNd PuNs
juSt For FuN..;)
Most people
don’T realiZe
thaT reTire
doesN’t
meaN reLax..
iT juSt mEans
gET eXcited aBout
LiFe witHouT worrY
WitH mOre tRead oN
thE WheeLs oF liFe..
oH.. To bE Re-
tiRed.. thE JoY noW
DriVinG aLiVe 55..;)
And fOr seCond FredKu..
FeeLinG younGer aT heARt
noW thAn sWeet mAle 16..;)
SMIles..
trUly.. iT’s
imPossiBle
to give the
most by folloWing
oLd ruLes.. to give is
not to take.. including
animal blood.. and lives
of others.. the
give is
without
take in
fearless
GiVinG Love..
withOut harm
to oTheRs mY friEnd..:)
Golden NEW rULE..
FearLess Love.. NO
hArm To creaTioN ONE..:)
As printED by SuN
AnD ShadeS oN mY bE
forEhead selFie waY..;)
AnD thE conText oF thAT
lasT Fred KU.. biGGer viEW..
reQuires deTail SeeiNG mY Friend..;)
And SeeKinG
EXploRinG
FinDinG
Too..2..;)
SMiLes.. iN mY miNd And BoDy
BaLanCinG SoUL Of EmoTioNal
FeeLinG heArT iN ExpreSsinG
SpiRit SamE.. FriEnd Viv..noW
i SaY.. nEither RelaXaTioN..
DancE.. SonG.. oR poEtry
worKs aS fuLLeSt hUman
heARt wiTh mechanical
cognition ruleS
NoW iN as i2..
Free Verse i
reLaX
ZERO RULE..:)
ps.. per.. second Fredku
and Fredbun Free foR aLL
PEtERPaNmINraRiFiED..;)
SMiLes… EarTh never
sweats orbit around
Sun.. cats say no
when they get
too many
petsnoW
and scratch
WarningS oF diScomforT…
hUmanS iN BaLanCinG
stAnd stronG
LoVe hard
hug noW iN
gRass moonliT..
rollS in midday
sAnds.. so free allone..
noW Sand oF SinG SonG
BliSS WitH Grass cat whiskers
freE noW to bE aLiVe noW withouT
hUman Cultural noise iN PriSon
cLocK
tiMeS
BreathE DancE SinG..
moonLit twiliGht
Sun’s.. hEiR..:)
Ah.. a cat of mine..
named Arthur for
20 years.. noble
alpha cat of neighborhood
bLock never injured posture says
at 7 lbs from 15 Lb
mountain lion
beFore.. go away
intruder cat or else..
i WiLL have your fur..
and it worked as this
cat would never be scratched
by a less brave one oF hE then..
BagG oF BONEs
i stepped on
one day..
all weight oF Y i
230LBS noW..
KinG Arthur geTs
uP leisurely thenoW
anD walKs LioN
KinG aWay sTiLL
HeaLinG proPerTies
thAT mediCine WiLL
never understand
in the relative
free WiLL
of even
a Cat
freeR than
hUmans arReNoW..
FunctionAlly
disAbled hUmans
bY culTuRe’s teAt priSon..:)
i lEArNed
HiS
lesSon WeLL..:)
And that catches
iT aLL uP for NoW..
next stop way beLow
here… WiLL be
Tuesday prompt..
all About
farewells
not so
sure
in hopes
of geTtinG
Back to Love’s WeLL..:)
1:37 pm..
5252016..:)
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And tHeRe’s
the much softer
Angel Side.. noW in ‘that’
Facebook Profile status photo..
And speaking of that i find
the Inner UniVerse of HUman
BeinG in terms of EmoTioNs
and seNses fascinating and
how we connect wITh each other
through the verbal and non-verbal
expreSsiONs of SpiRit oF HeARt
FeLt EmoTioNs through both
our physical verbal
and non-verbal
eXpRESSiOns
aS weLL as SiGn
Language in all the
symbols that hUmans
can abstract design
iN mind and body BalanCinG SoUL..
as constructs.. both representing
metaphors of Golden Calves.. Hawk
Headed men.. to a three letter word
named God.. to expReSS more of what
CAN NOT be measured by empirical means
alone in discrete observation in meaSuRinG
ways.. and the height of the weakness in both
the field of psychiatry.. psychotherapy.. and
the psychology field as whole.. is what to do
when a human no longer either FEELS EMPATHY
AND OR ASSOCIATED NUANCED EMOTIONS.. and now
for me this IS A case study of mY history
for sure.. as when undergoing 2 years
of fLiGht or fIght stress i became
the textbook version of a person
who experienced little to
no eMoTioN along with
losing the connection
of Language with EmoTioNs
to describe how i was feeling
if anyway at all.. and truly all
was left of me was panic mode on
or less on in total adrenaline
flow.. AND WHAT happens when
one loses this normal
innate human
ability..
is chaos
and a complete
change in how one
views the world in terms
of FEELINGS.. and the sickest
pArt of the whole experience was
my brain was so damaged by stress as
yes science proves prolonged stress WILL
DO TO THE HUMAN BRAIN and all other bodily
systems.. THAT THE way i viewed pleasure became
both my pain and the pain of others to wHere when
i saw a person suffering to my cognitive moral code
self viewing the unfolding of this new way of view of the
world.. WHEN i saw my beloved mother choking on a piece of
bread instead of extreme fear and concern.. i felt a perverse
pleasure and there was nothing cognitively i could do to change
that feeling.. and when the psychiatrist asked me to use something
other than adrenaline to motivate myself.. namely EmoTions.. i had
no idea what he was talking about at that point.. and no way to generate
anything other than adrenaline fight or flight hormones.. in fact he said
my adrenal glands were literally stuck in the on position as this is what
the body will do.. under constant fight or flight pressure when a job
gets like that.. and my perseverance to survive in the job
was of my own goal oriented behavior too.. NOT TO QUIT..
as i had been with the same Government employment
for close to 25 years.. close to retirement
and assurance of lifetime health
insurance.. for my wife
who had Epilepsy..
and for myself
suffering from
Severe Anxiety at an
era where any Mental Disorder
meant no insurance coverage if you
lost your insurance and went to another
coverage or coverage one could not afford..
so yes.. Golden Handcuffs were around wrists
as i made those Golden Handcuffs real with the
contingencies created by my mind as life or death
action and consequence of life.. in keeping that job..
wHere the demands were becoming increasingly impossible
for me to do in a catch 22 situation.. Well at that period
of my life.. i had no idea a person could lose their emotions
or that Stress could result in close to 20 disorders all at one
point in one human being.. as my body and mind finally gave up..
and i could not sleep for almost 40 days except for 1 hour each
night for the first 35 days with an alpha blocker to slow
my heart rate down enough with what then became
dysautonomia for a nervous system and
cardiovascular/respiratory system
damaged beyond immediate
repair.. and doctors
can’t do a dam
thing for
that as
only rest and
relaxation.. sometimes
years.. to even a decade
can heal the extent of the
damage of a synergy of bodily
destruction from the real deadly
results of continual Chronic flight
or fight stress.. ANYWAY.. along with
the worst pain known to mankind.. type
two Trigeminal Neuralgia like a dentist
drill in my right eYe and ear.. WITHOUT
NOVOCAINE.. Sjogren’s Syndrome wHere
my Eyes quit making tears..
Severe Degenerative
Arthritis in my
spine and Spinal
Stenosis precipitated
early by a Congenitally
Fused Vertebra in my spine..
Coat Hanger Pain associated
with Dysautonomia.. and Fibromyalgia
for an entire body of pain.. the worst
of all was losing my Emotions and at the
end of that 40 day stay with no sleep.. even
all senses and pain too.. which was the worst
Hell of all wHere yes.. as mentioned over and
over in my blogs and here on Facebook too.. a second
was like a thousand years in a piece of paper existence
and what felt like total separation from allthatis AKA
GOD.. yeaH.. so.. i finally figured out that Hell and
Heaven is here and no where else.. most obviously
what the folks where talking about in the
old sacred texts too.. as there is
no other word for this place
that i’m sure other folks
have been to iN a similar
place of hell
who experience
constant fight or flight
stress in whatever shape
form or fashion that comes
in both now and then in the
human condition as is.. anyway..
stress is a serious ill of western
civilization as we base flight or fight
reaction to external abstract constructs
as determined by our minds to have life or
death consequences through our actions of
either success or failure.. and that is
truly a catastrophic way of thinking
in potential catastrophic
illness.. AND BACK
TO THE FIELD OF PSYCHOLOGY
ALL THEY COULD DO WAS OFFER PILLS
AND THERAPY IN THE WAY OF THOUGHT CONTROL..
BUT ZERO WAY OR ZERO SUGGESTION IN HOW TO
GET THOSE EMOTIONS BACK.. no one could help me..
so i had to find my own back to humanity.. and finally
i did that with connecting emotions to language through
poetry in remembering grief in songs and photos of my past
as copied and pasted in visual blog way.. and in reliving that
grief it finally sparked my Emotions back like a Tidal wave..
turning me into a bi-polar state of mind from the darkest
dark of emotion-less existence to waves of EmoTion
from a drought of hUman BeinG for 66 months..
and the first laugh around the beginning of
August in 2013.. yes.. the first laugh
in 66 months and the first emotion
felt smile was a heaven out of
hell for me then..
simply coming
from a joke
from the
new person
we got to cut
my hair then.. she
was a savior too.. of my
heARt.. SpiRit.. and SoUL then
too.. and the first and only tear
in that 66 month period was in
April 2013.. after a beloved
cat we had to put down
due to Kitty Aids..
the son of
Yellow
Boy
named Sunny
Boy.. and now
i can bring tears easily
as i know the value of them..
as that one tear brought strength
of emoTions in my body that could still
muscularly press 500LBS then but
felt so weak inside
as EmoTions
are what
give uS
strength..
not the form
by itself of strength
of what we see on the outside
and this is why my 94 year old
crippled great aunt Jettie at this point
in my life at age 47 was infinitely
stronger than i.. without EmoTions
as i barely had the energy to
speak.. exhausted after
a few words..
so anyway..
dance was the next
step to regulate my new
found emotions and integrate
the senses of my new found bodily
strength.. from head to toe and how
i radiated this emoTioNal and sensory
energy to others through outward spiRit
eXpreSSinG energy in non-verbal ways and
other ways that science is yet to measure
that we humans can sense who experience..
it.. however.. as i know and feel now..
there are many who cannot as
both disuse of the emotional
intelligence of human
beings.. in physical
way too.. from head
to toe.. can wither
away emotions and empathy
to almost non-existent.. and of
course successful first responders..
surgeons.. law-forcement.. etc.. must
have excellent control over their
emotions and senses otherwise
they will not survive..
and interestingly modern
science shows the criminal
element of psychopathy has
the ability to feel emotions
and empathy fully like a faucet that
can be turned off and on.. but in my
mind those are not the real full psychopaths
who can only feel pleasure at someone’s pain..
as horrifyingly from first hand experience that
is no longer a part of my life.. it is a real deal
and beyond horrifying.. both to potential perpetrator
of all types of crime violent or not.. and or manipulation
of others who are white collar crime folks who are of the
higher IQ type of psychopaths with high
emotional intelligence.. and ability
to turn the emotions and empathy
off or on.. by will..
the moral code is
what sets folks apart..
and to pooh pooh the value
of all religions in modifying
potential dangerous and criminal
behavior of human beings.. is a distinct
and dangerous mistake.. as even science shows
now that otherwise psychopaths through structural
disorders in their brain can become successful law
abiding and folks with moral character if taught
this from birth with love no different
than the education of school..
so yeah.. take the
good book learning
away and potential
harm grows and of course
even in the clergy.. science
shows that is one of the top ten
jobs where psychopathic leaning folks
land jobs.. and certainly their upbringing
in church is what kept ’em at least in part
out of real criminal associated trouble..
and they are simply fearless and
smart enough to stand before
a crowd of folks and
speak freely
and coherently..
the lesson of the
day as it were and still
is today.. and what i feel would
be helpful to both boys and girls in school
is free style dance in martial arts ways for
girls to develop their masculine qualities of
fearless strength and will and ballet-like free style
dance now for boys.. to both expand their emotional
feelings of experience throughout a body of motion..
and to regulate more aggressive associated emoTions
too.. to limit potential negative action and
consequences upon both themselves and others..
sadly.. polarized gender role expectations
makes this almost impossible
in heavily influenced
patriarchal leaning
red state areas..
that are of
course homophobic
to the max from a
so-called part of a good
book that is not good at all
as that is one of many dark parts
of religion too.. in ways of hate now
and illusory fears.. so there is a long
way up for humanity.. but truly many ways
to get there for many folks who might not
otherwise have hope.. if they can just lose
their fears and get the job done on a path
that will work for them..
’cause once
you’ve been
to hell.. trust
me.. you will appreciate
being an Earth Angel again..
oh yeah.. and for people who pooh pooh
the value of selfies that is total bull shit
as it is just another way of bio-feedback to
master and regulate human emotion through
the nonverbal language of facial
expressions and in the online
world of autism communities
folks with so-called
higher functioning
autism who are
more likely
to have problems
with non-verbal
language are using
this as an advantage
for personal therapy
in gaining a greater
emotional intelligence
and even with more severe types
of autism therapists are finding
great effective results using both
music and movement therapy to increase
the connection of language.. both verbal
and non-verbal with emotions and greater
all natural propensity to interact
with other folks
as sparking
the Emotional
life of human being
in pro-social ways
is what makes us strong
in social cooperation and is
why.. DUH.. WHY OUR FUCKING PRIMITIVE
ANCESTORS NAMELY MY INDIAN ANCESTORS
WHO WERE NAMED AS SAVAGES FOR DANCING
NAKED TOGETHER AROUND CAMPFIRES HAD MUCH
GREATER EMOTIONAL INTELLIGENCE AND COULD
KICK ASS IN ANY ONE TO ONE FIGHT WITH A SO-CALLED
WHITE WARRIOR WHO WALKED IN STRAIGHT BRITISH LINES
OF MILITARY BATTLE.. PER THE GENTLEMAN WAY AWAY
FROM THE WILD OF WILL AND STRENGTH..
yes.. the kind of IQ you get in school..
might make ya money.. BUT IT WILL
never IF yoU seeK iN GoD WITHIN
yes.. FucKinG WIThIN
save your
HeARt.. SpiRit
SoUL.. that are the
true life saving intelligences
of both the individual human
being and the race as
whole on a global
basis now..
so when
they say
DancE And SonG
in ExpRESSinG
EmoTioNaL SpiRit
HeARt and SoUL..
WiLL save the world
the Rock and Rollers understand
God better than most religions
and science will ever do
in the
tRue Art
iN liGht of hUman
BeinG and to put this
into words has been one
of the hardest tasks assigned
by the God of Innate Intuitive
Instinctual Nature real to me..
but worth it as the paths and
journey to help others attain
heaven now like i’ve
REALLY JUST DONE..
NOW.. COME
TO FRUITION..
IN HELPING OTHERS..
SURE.. it can’t
be said enough
when
a REAL
SPIrIT.. SOuL..
AND HeART
iS AT
STAKE
oF
ART..
And if you are wondering
how i do all of this..
i am an au·to·di·dact
from HeLL noW iN Heaven
who reads 10 to 15 times
faster than the average
human being and types as
fast as A Keyboard allowS
somewhere up to 130 words
a minute or so..
the volume of
information
i consume in both
Google text and
youTube Video way
as well as I generate
is beyond the fathom
of most minds of this
human era .. but again..
i am motivated from
a place of REAL
HELL.. THAT
MOST PEOPLE
CAN NEITHER
FATHOM EITHER..
THANKS
GOD FOR
THAT TOO..
and the closet analogy
to who i am now.. is probably
that new movie named ‘Lucy’..
as my mind and body balance
continues to grow at an
exponential rate to the
point that truly
no one
can catch
up to me now..
as far i know now
and have experienced
in all i do.. but again
as stated before that is
the mission assigned by
God in another intelligence
well beyond the fathom
of perhaps any
human
anywhere..
any day..
but i do not
kNow the answer
to that as i am
not all humans
yET.. who have
ever lived..
and the last
line was iS..
tongue
iN
cheek..
per the Movie
‘Lucy’ if ya
ever actually
see it more
than here..
hehe..
And as side note
here goes on.. last
night at the gym.. i take
a white towel.. and i use that
towel as a ballet-like tool to
butterfly my way twirling around
the iron of Nautilus machines..
as it Will impact my fLight
per weight of towel.. i ask
her iF iT’s bigger and
she says.. it’s just
different..
and i say..
okay.. next now
someone asks me
what’s wrong with
you i’m gonna say
the girl at the
gym said
iT’s
juSt
diffeRent
thaT’S aLL..;)
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Well.. iF ya look closely..
‘this’ iS my “Metaphors Be
With You Shirt”.. noW aND
that’S trUe hUman NoW iN
MetaphorsE iN wayS noW
of Sign language.. developed
in all visual abstract constructs..
whether as labels for so-called
concrete objects.. including we
humans.. And our figurative behavior
of emoTioNs in figurative metaphors
as well.. thAT CAN be either
FOR US
OR AGAINST US noW..
wITh some folks free to
go beyond the barriers
of fences constructed by
other humans in life or those
who succumb to illusory fears
generated by metaphors of symbols
ranging from words to horned pan
devils and such as that.. where
timid humans never develop
their much fuller human
potentials as progress
is halted by the
more conservative
closed minded folks
among us.. and ha!
there are those who believe
the magic of liFe in the belief
itself as human emotion is sorcery
per both black and white magic as
metaphor for Ted Bundy Shape Shifters
to murder young women.. to super hero
soldiers who save Liberty and Freedom
and Justice for all in Paul Revere waY iN
GIVE ME LIBERTY OR GIVE ME DEATH..
well.. ya see.. P!nk in her video FIRE speaks
to this.. in occult ways.. yeS.. it’s true..
folks in Hollywood practice occult
rituals to increase the Placebo
effect of human potential
and yes.. they use
what is described
as Sex MaGicK
in occult way
too.. but
seriously.. the essence
of what works is human
sensuality through changes
in neurochemicals and neurohormones
motivate us to be more creative and socially
cooperative.. and the action.. consequence of that
is positive over negative.. and those who lose all
illusory fears will succeed in whatever endeavor
they enter into whether in metaphor of black
or white magic.. per negative actions
that harm others.. potentially..
or positive actions that result
in positive outcomes for
most everyone as wHole..
but here’s the thing.. the
essence of Human Nature
iN Human potential in alignment
WiTH the Interdependent.. Interconnecting
Relationship of allthatis aka God is as real
if one calls iT blue as it is red or green.. the metaphors
just house the vehicles and vessels of trUth to liGht essence from
black to white to shades of grey and all the concrete labels
of the birds.. dragon flies.. and plants that my sister..
who is a lot like Ms. Jane Hathaway if you
remember that bird nerd.. who my sister
freely identifies with proudly as someone
diagnosed with the super IQ form
of Asperger’s syndrome too.. who
can tale ya every label for most
every living thing in Nature..
as that is HER SPECIAL
INTEREST.. and she captured
a Kite Swallow Tail bird today..
one of the most beautiful
members of the Hawk family
with her three grand or so digital
camera that will blow anything i take
with my iPhone 6s in quality but yes..
it weighs a ton and one cannot pull it
out of a pocket like drawing a gun in
a gun fight to point and shoot.. before
the target moves out of sight.. my advantage
too.. iS moving in 360 degrees in my own Kite
way of mastering my physical environment
and sensory integration.. in capturing
Nature in Smartphone/Fred way..
Well.. okay.. back to the occult..
the most famous occultist
in history by far in terms
of Hollywood practice..
is Aleister Crowley..
of last Century.. definitely
one with psychopathic checklist
symptoms as he tortured small animals
as a child.. and didn’t have a whole lot of
sympathy for those who got in his way..
in what his exploration was to increase
human potential in both he and others..
yes.. in total effect and lack of affect..
he was a lot like Steve Jobs..
in genius way too..
and yes.. the Beatles
and Led Zeppelin and many
other Rocks Stars.. including
Jim Morrison.. and even Sting
were highly influenced by this man..
and yes.. stars like JZ.. Beyonce..
etc.. in believing in a much higher
human potential than what was censored
out of the good book as iS in terms of Bible..
where human potential in all these ways.. particularly
the naturally lusty propensity of human beings iS sTilL
repressed and oppressed.. leading to much
lower potential in human creativity..
social cooperation.. and even
productivity.. as whole..
but no worries.. in the
western free world
as Porn HaS totally
taken care of this..
just finger tips away..
and most anyone who says
they do not peruse it.. is lying
through their fingers.. hands..
etc.. as iT iS juSt hUman NatUre..
as yes.. NaturAlly gifted by God and
only something that has been held back
by the so-called Victorian age before Vicky’s
secret came out in the heat of below and above
same… As given freedom.. women.. can be even more
sexually charged than men.. demanding it in bootie
dances as one sees free on dance floors today..
vs.. girls who waited like wallflowers all innocent
and such on the sidelines of life.. BUT.. SOME
FOLKS ARE NATURALLY LESS
SEXUALLY CHARGED.. CREATIVE..
PRODUCTIVE.. AS THAT ALL FITS
TOGETHER BELOW ABOVE..
INSIDE AND OUTSIDE..
ALL AROUND..
AND that is why in
a truly free country like the
USA.. there must be room for
both sides now and all the shades
of grey in true liberty.. freedom.. and
justice foR All hUman beings
to express more or less
of hUman potenTial and
that heaven is herE noW
for those who Master liFe
through relative free will..
and there are no longer any fences..
that i care to go through or so-called
dark but legal fantasies that i do NOT
explore fully without harming anyone
else but those who would like to say
in books.. others symbols.. and such..
including words.. no Fred.. you cannot
go past that fence.. you will be held
accountable for what it says in our book..
Well.. folks.. i have read many books.. and i for
one kNow and FeeL 100% that God does not
discriminate when it comes to God manifest in
us to find Peace.. and Pleasure in ways of
Unconditional Fearless White Magic Love..
and while the Ted Bundy effect has no
impact on me.. as i know what
makes Ted Bundy Fundies tick..
’cause i’ve been to
a similar place too..
folks like Aleister Crowley
do not scare me at all as all they
have is metaphors.. and no matter
how complicated human signs get..
in symbol and idol way.. THE GOD OF
NATURE ALL ONE OWNS FREEDOM..
AND LIBERTY AS MANIFEST FREELY
IN US.. AND WHEN ITS UNCONDITIONAL
LOVE AND IT FEELS GOOD THERE CAN
BE NO EVIL IN THAT AS LONG AS IT HARMS
NO ONE.. WITH INTENT.. AND IS DONE IN A WAY
WHERE OTHER FOLKS DON’T HAVE TO TURN IT ON
OR CAN TURN IT OFF.. AND the trUth and liGhT iS..
metaphors as attached to powerful human emotions
and senses associated with sensuality.. and the
human archetypes of the collective
genetic subconscious that impacts
us both through our genetic history
and our life experiences now are
powerful devices to increase the
real emotional and sensory
powers of human being..
in Quantum Mind and
body ways.. unleashed
and released that no human
has adequate metaphors yet to
describe.. but there IS A road there
through human language and other
metaphors that as a synergy of social
cooperation of human beings.. the Chalice
we raise to God IS A Temple of God Manifest
aS US iN mini selFie mE waY.. iT’s A Confident
FeeLing.. truly.. when you raise your armS noW
as the CHALICE OF GOD.. AND KNOW noW..
FEEL.. AND SENSE YOU ARE A MASTERPIECE
OF ART MORE VALUABLE THAN ANY PIECE
OF GOLDEN
CALF.. OR BIBLE
IDOlS WORD SYMBOL…
N O W LIGHT TRUTH
FREEDOM AND VALUE
iT iS TO KnOW WE ARE
THE NAKED FLESH AS PaRT
oF the Living God allthatis.. yes..
inside.. outside.. above.. so below..
and all around.. and truly it pained
me much not to be able to express..
my entire naked temple of God here..
but hey.. it’s the law and i give Caesar
what is ‘his’.. whether that means i have
to wear clothes or pay taxes or now DO
AS community standards dictate iT.. to be pArt
of the wHolE
human pie..
but sUre wHere
1st amendment rights
of the United States rule..
and there are open minded
Corporations like Google who
truly believe in the rights of human
beings as part of this country to fully
express what and who they are from
head to toe.. tHeRe are places wHeRe
folks can go online.. wherE the repressed..
oppressed.. and just plain vanilla.. not born
sensually charged can go to cover up too..
and generally speaking that is everywhere
for them.. and few places for trUly fRee fully
FReED folks like i.. but the world is changing
and the intoxication of Freedom iS
the drink
of God
free iN US/wE noW..
who have the desire
to be more fully free
and comfortable in our
own skin of God in however
the art of that comeS now..
And sUre.. theRe IS A Song
for this appropriate for the
coMinG Memorial Day
celebration for Rosie
the Riveteer PiNK
too.. as she INviTes
uS to raise our glasses
and be free.. truly the best
thanks to give iS to the those whose
blood and bones we stand upon noW
who allow us this great Freedom of
Expression in the U. S. oF A.. so
yeah.. whenever yA see.. naked
Miley’s.. Britney’s.. Rihanna’s trUth
such as THAT.. they are the liGht
oF HUman Chalice and Glass
iN God Given Freedom sET
and raised uP as Naked
God iN/aS uS WiLL Love
to do without human illusory
fears fostered by chains on
God in books large and small
of God iMpriSONed iN hUman mAde HeLLs..
OH.. by a way.. i had to travel all the
way to Bagdad to get this metaphor selfie photo..;)
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And.. God.. yeS noW as thE
Selfie Hit FredNoW
ParAde continues..
Martial Arts and
Ballet-like dance
IS A best way
to increase thE
metaphorSE
poTenTiaL
as i
iN Kite
hEiGhts
oF Egyptian
Mythology to
enhance the
EmoTioNal
and hUman
SeNsory poWer
oF juST thAT from
Head to toe.. to
aLL A RoundNoWoN..
And hell no.. iT’s nOthing
new.. folks have been raiSinG
conscious mind and body balance
oF SoUL awareness through all forms
of ecstatic dance from all nows memorial
but true when only footloose IS A freewayNOW..:)
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SMiLes.. with due respect
to EMiLy D..the best stuff
in life is free.. oh but so much
farther out of a book.. iF one
can find WinGs of SeeD
born in Happy Feat..
SMiLes aGaiN..
ImaGiNation iS mY
playgRound.. reaDinG
iS mY insPiRaTioN..
DancE iS thE
energy that
SinGS the
aLL SeeinG
eYe as pArt
oF i.. And then
the Lord said make
iT aLL sacred and
Holy jUst like Dance
and poEtry and aLL WiLL
be YoUr FriEnD from head to
toe to grains of sand of mountains
hOld above.. Valleys green.. and even
black hole rain of sOuL as boost to UP..
when one finds every Number as UniVersE
and every letter as natural poeTry.. duSt as
US in liFE as sAMe.. tHeRe iS no wHeRe but
uP and Up iN MindFuLL awareness oF NoW..
tHe only reaLiST pLace oF aLL in heAven’s
piLLoW i cloUds sKeYes AzuRe gOld
iN i..
noW..
anyWay..
paths never
stop branching
out and the journey
iS aLwaYs noW.. BooGiE
Wonderland iSRaeL and this
place ain’t HeLL for mE anymore..
as even though New Jerusalem can
kinda suck when ya feel the stress of the
helLions all around ya.. jUSt Dance juSt dAnce
as GoD WiLL SmiLe iN leGs oF Happy Feet uP
WiTh Gloria
noW
breatHe oF
i iS So flY aS GOlden
SpiRAls WiLL bE NOW..
and the fAct iS giVen aLL
possibilities i AM aWarE oF
iN UniVerse noW i would be
no wHere and no one different
than i iF given the opportunity
to do iT aLL oVer aGain.. and
i woULd do iT aGain.. aS now
the ultimate achievement
iS moving from
heLL to
HeaVen
iN juSt
oNE
noW
aLiVeFReED..
but the greAtest
luxurY iS NoWinG
i could die noW
and that
jUst
makes
HeavenoW
taste that much
better noW mY
FriEnd.. when iT
aLL makes FucKinG
sense as deep and hiGh
as soUl can go aliVenoW..
And iS iT noW nO WoNder
that folks who enslave others now
have hidden the tRuth that Heaven
requires no money at all.. no iT iS noT
as iF “THEY” kNew theRe would bE no reason
to buy anything but food.. water.. and shelter
from
HELL..
And of course
DancE And SinG
Naked and free hOlding
thE hand of God in each
otHeR FReED.. anyWay2..
i’M gonna keep doin’ Heaven
’cause i JuSt can.. bottom line..
and if no one wants to join me..
i WiLL not make them as they
can continue to live in prison
as sure it’S tHeir freedom..
theiRs of choice
as not so
WeLL..
@ALL. AH..
Dead.. Ashes to
dUsT..DuSt to Fire
i RisE aGain from
FLumes oF lies..
And as side note here.. PRoLoNG..
you kNow.. liFe is so FucKinG noW
strange gigoid.. at the start THEN
of Sjogren’s syndrome before
my eYes quit making tears
back in the FaLL oF
2006.. wondering
why when i touched
anything with my
feet it felt
like needles
in the bottom bones
of my feet.. where anything
i touched with feet was beyond
belief of pain.. funny how the
Trigeminal Neuralgia kind of
made me forget about
that pain and
about the
Fibromyalgia
too.. and sure the
arthritis in my spine..
Carpal tunnel syndrome..
etc.. etc.. but watching that
Movie back then.. yes.. Happy
Feet.. it was the strangest dam thing..
somehow someway i knew then i would
become that Penguin even though i could
not touch the floor underneath the seats
in the movie theater with my feet.. Jesus..
i aM that PenguiN NoW
and by
God
that’s
enough..
beyond BELIEF
AND MAGIC ISREAL
AS BY GOD HELL FEET ONE
TURNED INTO HAPPY FEAT TWO..
and now i kNow wHat the purpose of the
Tree of LiFe iS noW to gRow deepest roots
oF aLL
Ocean noW..:)
penniewoodfall resPonds
with this and i quote
her.. quoting
me and
someone
else..
more
or less
sAMe..
‘breatHe oF
i iS So flY aS GOlden
SpiRAls WiLL bE NOW’
“the habit of thinking only
of horizontal and vertical movements
often prevents us from experiencing
the spiral one
spiral movements
are LONGER in TIME
and WIDER in Space
than vertical and horizontal ones
applied to the breathe
this is the image to employ while breathing
it facilitates the exit and entrance of air
until it tumbles over the sides
and falls down
like a rain of light”
Sandra Sabatini..;)
i say..
penniewoodfall
You are a TreAsurE..
And then i say..
ps..
Pain is
Fear exiting
The body.. Also
kNown as Kundalini
riSinG and hA! Funny
How physicians noW and
Yogis can reduce thAT greAT
Inner UniVerse experiencE noW
To jUst 7 or so pArtS iN LaBeL
ReAcTioN.. WeLL poeTry iS every
gOdAm goDsubAtomicString RAng iN
pAint and NoW SinGs and DanCes
iN BList And HeLL oH! GoD yeS2..
YeS tHiS iS morE tHan A FuCKinG
HeaD and BreAtHinG GamE noW.
THiS IS A FKinG tHinG noW
PerioD oR A
eRa/AeOn..
siriUs..
noW LiKe
A DoGoD
sTaRry
StarrY
niGht
oF aLL
heaVenoW
aGaiNoWoN..:)
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Hmm.. seeing the date of the Happy Feet
Penguin movie as noted on Wiki..
actually i saw the movie
in 2006.. the fall
of that year..
and now i remember
that the first colors that i could
not bear with my eYes actually
started well before that pain
of feet at the beginning of
2006.. so yeah.. not
just 66 months of
extreme suffering..
actually over 8 years
of intense suffering overall..
and truly the strangest part oF
aLL was when i could longer stand
colors.. and no longer stand music..
and finally not even stand words as spoken
on the radio.. in around that period of now in
2006.. before Hell went full blown.. and in an attempt
to describe how i felt inside.. words will never do it.. but
visual arts in non-verbal language when a human beinG noW
has forgotten what a smile is or laugh in terms of FeeLinG And
or expreSSinG hUman spiRit.. the video “Illusion” as accompanying
VNV Nation’s Illusion song does the bLack of death in liFe juStice..
and existence outside of existence real in a place of machine
pArts begging to regain the flesh and blood of FeeLinG..
not just breathing.. and pain.. and pain and breathing..
always now in never ending ground hog.. yes.. Aghogday..
another ground hog day.. anyway.. the polar opposite
is my life now.. as i feel energy of EmoTioNs and
SeNseS in ever cell shining of my Body.. zero
pain when not sore from a Marathon
of dance.. and an energy
that i can actuALLy feel
radiating from me
in those
Spirits of Angel
energy presentations
that are pure energy without
form at all.. in liGht of hUman
BEinG.. anyway.. i celebrate life
and attempt to expReSS what i’ve
been through.. so.. someone listening
somewhere in the future through what i do..
NoW miGht gain hope that tHeRe iS A way out
and suicide really isn’t the answer although
i surely hoped it was.. during the suicide
disease of that type Two Trigeminal
Neuralgia from wake to sleep at
beyond eXXtreme levels
of pain for 66 months..
but when it comes to
empathic FeeLinGs of
conNecTinG iN MoVinG
CreaTinG ways.. tHeRe are
certainly ways to exercise this
Love Muscle like Insurance for
another heArt Day noW.. WitH
spiRit ExpreSSinG A BaLanCinG
MiNd and BoDy SoUL.. it’sREAL..
It’s now and anything iS trUly
possible iF ya jUst don’t
give uP.. if i had given
uP.. i would never
have got to
experience noW
heaVen and surELy
thAT would have been
a shAMe oF HeLL here on Earth..
same as polar opposite pLace oF Heaven
here on Earth too.. REAL.. A PLACE INSIDE
THAT NEVER ENDS.. WITH ZERO MATERIAL NEED..:)
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WeLL.. i muSt say.. I LovE ThE LoVinG Eagles and i had
a great night.. and yes.. i NoW like sleeping
iN the desert.. or aT least DanCinG
oN the Sand iN my back
yard and MaKinG
Love to the
sun of i..
aka God
within.. and yes
how i saY it.. from
inside to outside.. above..
so below and aLL’A’Round..
what else.. i don’t really care
iF Las Vegas.. lives forever..
butt i do Love to Dance
freeSt style on
Biloxi
Casino
Beaches.. what else..
i just let it go like the
froZen Princess and
Madonna does.. then too..
and hmm.. stream of consciousness
wRiting.. IS A Great River pLace to Be..
in Memorial of the Freedoms of the GreAt
U.S. oF A.. and of course all the folks
who have died for the unalienable
right even for ET’s liKe me.. for
Life.. Liberty.. and the Pursuit
oF Happiness.. which yes..
can sTiLL be achieved
in thiS great country
noW aND yeS oh
MaGiC iS now
juSt noW ah
ReaLiNoW
and i do
do that
noW
to
01
..:)
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Facebook FriEnd Mary F..
shares a heARt fELt
status that perhaps
she could use
some
couseling
and i say..
i feeL liKe thAT soMe noWs
aNd fiNd My beSt theraPist
iS
mY feeT
iN fLight..
wITh SonG
oF COUrse
accompanYinGliGht..
serioUsly.. i FeeL yOur
soUl.. coMe dAnce WitH
mE aT SeViLLe anD i WiLL
sHow yA mY waY foR
YoUR frEe waY
tHere aNy
ThurSday niGht
wHeRe i neVer reFuse
A reQuest To DancE..
mY ARTFUL FriEnd..:)
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i doN’t have any stigma
or fears or WTF toward
mental illness as i have
explored iT personAlly
in full disability oF dARk..
noW and also described
as mental illness in the liGht
of perseverance on what some
folks miGht think is insane in
terms of religiosity.. sensuality..
and overall life.. hmm… kinda like
Red hot instead of Luke Warm WiTH
God in two spiRit MiNd and BoDy BaLanCinG
way.. and thE truth iS.. iF it were not for political
pull THEN.. of an esteemed political person who
is a relative when i am young at 21.. the drugs they
were giving me then for a Condition of Asperger’s
mixed with a very strange manic episode that could
NOT BE diagnosed then.. WERE USELESS oh and
almost made me F iN reALLy lose mY mind.. way back
iN ’81.. and they basically just said.. sorry we can’t help
yA WitH tHeir hands up and said.. Fred there is nothing we
can do for you.. no different than what the Rheumatologist
said shortly after he said Fred you are wired different and there
is nothing more we can do for your pain.. sending me away then with
a paper highlighting the Dysautonomia.. Fibromyalgia.. Sjogren’s
Syndrome.. and later diagnosed Atypical Trigeminal Neuralgia termed
noW as Atypical Fascial pain too.. from wake to sleep for 66 months..
the degenerative arthritis.. Spinal Stenosis.. congenitally fused
vetebra and all of that2.. yeah.. i know i have already talked
to thAT in this 671st verse of the longest poem
in history now.. but it also stands alone in
this ‘tiny’ micro verse of 671 Verse
wHoLE.. which is also a symptom
of Bi-Polar noW aNd yES.. oH..
God yeS.. Asperger’s syndrome
intense focus on one thing
per poeTry and now
over 5400 miles
of dance in just
33 months.. go go..
everywhere i go noW in
public.. and yes.. nude
art online for a 55 year
old dude.. is not exactly the
norm in the world today..
particularly.. if one
is only
hot for
the Ladies
as it were and
sTiLL iS for me..
okay.. i cannot deny either
of those two existing diagnoses
that keep me in the realm of the
so-called permanently disabled and
i cannot deny if i was put into the same
job i had before.. that i am at regular retirement
age now for.. anyway.. that i could do that now
any easier than before.. without falling
dead after a short while..
as i am simply
not able
to carry
on with a thousand
or so responsibilities
at one now.. in FAct NoW
out of Love my Wife Katrina
takes care of ALL THOSE SO-CALLED
MINOR Details of a so-called house wife
hunter and gather now.. oh yeah.. and Katrina
is Permanently disabled too.. with complex partial
seizures.. up to 5 times a week or so.. where she
cannot hardly function at all after the seizures and
will now.. some times.. thank God so far.. only fall down
slowly to the floor and in NOT one hard
head hurting fall.. and that has only
happened two times so far with now
only one Grand Mal Life threatening
seizure in labor with our son who
did not make it but for 51 days..
and yes.. as far as demon looking
possession goes the literal fAct iN
art is THAT is what a partial complex
seizure looks like in terms of facial expressions..
and the truth is.. both of us back in bible days..
then would have been strung up and or burned to the burning
stake for being different.. funny.. how invisible disabilities
can look until they are expressed or rarely expressed at
all in terms of outward behavior.. and Jesus F iN Christ..
i modeled others standing still to the best of my ability
‘tiLL i exploded with dance at age 53.. and finaLLy got
the whole thing balanced enough with SonG and
DancE iN steps of peace to find mInd and
Body Balance soUL wELL enough noW as
what i term Heaven iN noW..
@least for mE noW..
anyway.. it’s kinda
kool that my wife and i
have accomplished what we
have as basicAlly a couple of
rejects for what they call society
today.. but hey.. i know a secret too..
back in the primitive days.. folks noW
like us were actually put on a pedestal
and praised for our oh so ‘special’ abilities
as they were treasured then.. as the mysteries
of liFe come aLive in what is basically viewed as
Extra Terrestrial humans.. Robin Williams as it were
and sTiLL Jim Carrey’s and others today.. who entertain
instead of pushing keys in offices without free air.. i Love
to bRinG folks uP as i was perhaps in one of the LoWest
HeLLs ever for what we term as an animal on Earth..
or who knows.. perhaps any other planEt too..
as we likely share the same general
characteristics throughout the
UniVerse too.. as liFE
WiLL BrInG uS
ET’s aLiVe
wherever
wE find a way
to thrive and flourish
in a side niche.. where
most no one kNowS noW so KooL
wE Exist.. and theRe is zero doubt
in my mind that the Buddha.. the Jesus
and many others who would not kill or hurt
a fly.. have our so-called weird conditions
too and sorry.. i cannot say that for any
head hunter dudes no matter
how much good stuff
they copy
out of the
Good Book trUe oF liGht
iN lIFe noW they are the
scourge oF God’s NaturE noW
as they KiLL other pARts of
God’s Nature based on lies
of imaginations in books..
God WiLL noT Kill God for
no F iN Reason unless
God iS trUly insane
like.. ‘head hunters’
‘over tHere’ and here..
who trUly
as the Jesus
says kNow not what
the FucK THEY StiLL DO
iN DEViL’S DREAMS COME
REAL IN TERMS OF HUMAN
MISERY AND SUFFERING REAL
IN GOD’S EyES OF HuMAN
ONE AND SamE.. EITHER
InSANE IN KILLiNG
OR LOViNG
SENSUAL
NAKED
TOUCH OF
BONOBO FREE LOVE..
ANYWAY.. WE ARE WEIRD
WE ARE ALIVE.. AND EVEN IF
‘YOU’ ha! DO AWAY WITH US NOW.
THE TRUTH AND LIGHT WILL STAND
ONLINE AS LONG AS SEVERS SERVE US
UP.. YES.. me and Isis to Use one Egyptian
metaphor from way back when.. or Thot noW
or Mercury or Apollo.. whomevA Ya wanna
call the hUmans who stand out liKe
strange iCons of tHeir now.. iT iS
the SpiRit of God
in the young
disabled
boy
King Tut
around as disabled
as uS.. who is still remembered
in His Golden Nautilus shell
sTiLL noW.. and thiS iS
the first now
in history
that anyone
could upload
tHeir soUl even more
than ya kNow in perSon
online liKe this.. quiET amaZinG
what i and Isis have accomplished
as permanently so-called disabled
folks in ‘this world’.. tHeRe is no
commercial market
for trUe super
heroes
of SoUL
today.. but thaT iS
oKay as we mY friEnds
are oNly heRe to Offer aLL tHe
TrUth and liGht wE see and FeeL
and yes i am the egg head Osiris
member of the couple.. who
all the KinG’s Men
and h0rses could
not put togeTher
AgAiN.. iT took Team
LiGht to do that.. wiTh
sure.. lots of help from Isis..
as Isis alWays doES as Mother
oF my ‘little’ home hEar online..
Ha!.. i exist.. and therE is absolutely
nothing anyone can do to get rid of me
now.. or ha! even notice me.. unless they
truly chase the ‘tuition of my words deeper
than 99 percent of the general pop.. will do..
thAT pARt never changes.. iT reAlly
don’t yEt.. buTT tHeir
iS alWays room
for change
as long
as wE.. hehE..
and so many oThER
Team liGht members do exist
online in numbers of miLLioNs now
through recorded history in Google Search
way.. just adding a verse here to the UniVerse
oF multi-human way here on Earth.. sUre.. tHere
WiLL be less and likely more than tHiS from oTheRS2..
as tHere is no limit or expectations of i.. FoR wHerE noW
the eYes oF God iN hUmaNoW WiLL gO neXt away from dARk
And Jesus F iN Christ.. the thingie about Isis iS JuST a metaphor
no different
reAlly
than Jesus
F iN Christ..
have a nice noW..
we SureLy WiLL
heRe iN Heaven
where the foRest SinGs
DreAms of Pan and his Wife..
and sure.. all the nymphs of the
Forest in innocent meadoWed way..
as my 112th Dance oF PaN FReED iS cOminG
ThurSday Night and yeS iN all Politics and
even religion tHere aRe the Cat people and
Dog people too.. some of uS are in the ‘tween
of puppy dog tales.. and spice of kitty KaTs2..
and of core there are Jekyll’s and Hyde’s like
me and the Lilith and Angels oF mY WiFe too..
iT just
Depend on
what pARt of ‘OnE’
oF wHere you WiLL
FiNd uS to kinda quote
Richard Bach’s ‘other
Free Seagull book’
on thAT..noW
sUre.. i’Ve
seen both
sideS Now..
and thE Win
IS A mix of the
blUe and Red PiLLs
for the Greenest Tree oF LiFe
possible in terms of Blue Highs
and Red lows in hUman poTenTiaL noW..:)
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SAdly.. we live in a world now..
where humans have bEcOme
commodities and work
is no longer creating
and sharing a product
that is useful to folks
one can actually touch…
REAL problem.. as humans are
humans until they become machines
and break down.. of course.. as humans
WiLL who have FeeLinGS of course to sTARt
with to lose.. and of course.. a few do not have
that either through nurture or nature.. so in cold
heARted way.. And.. Oh God.. the government
disability process is like any Microsoft
project of nerds without heart..
as Steve Jobs might
complain about
Bill Gates
in no ArT liFe
cold mechanical
cognition robot way..
WitH no imagiNation..
arT bRinGs wHolenoW
aS logic without heARt
Brings chaos that has
no glue to get the miNd
oF EmoTioNs through now
for focus.. and iN short term
memory as executive functioning
with oil of sorts.. and the glUe oF iT…
anyWay.. the system is designed by lawyers
for lawyers.. and that’s the last place now wHere
someone with a disability needs to be to navigate..
Fortunately for me.. i was a lawyer more or less and
with 100 pages of documentation was approved the
first time like a breeze.. sAdly.. the system was not nearly
as efficient after that as i received three forms asking if
i was still getting workers comp.. when i never received
that at all.. and kept on having to fill the paper work out..
somehow with dentist drill in my right eye and ear never
ending from wake to sleep.. seriously.. i was already
intent on suicide for the first two years.. as those
were boot straps that not even JOB could pull
up then.. and that did just about put me over
the edge as you say Murphy says..
but some how i kicked Murphy
in the ass and he seriously
has just been wimpy
for the last
3 years..
no matter
what he attempts
to do in bits and bytes
hehe.. he ain’t got no teeth
no more for me.. i won the battle..
i won the war.. i AM ALIVE NOW KiCKING..
yeah.. so i’m at the gym tonight and a twenty
something muscular black military dude is now
really kicking ass pumping iron making some
gorilla sounds like me.. and i say.. man.. i like
this.. you are really working hard and he turns
around and says.. yeah.. man.. you are the one
who inspired me
to work out
like this..
Funny.. how
people can make
a difference without
even saying a God Dam
thing.. i AM.. ’cause i inspire
others.. and that’s all tHere is to iT
for NoW mY friend.. with words or steps
oF liVing liFe as aweSoMe as all our
functional disabilities as hUmans WiLL
allow.. and trUe.. as professionally
assessed in document way
by three professionals..
i am too disabled
to do a pay
for money
job sTiLL
yeS in
lifelong
way now..
but not too
disabled to help
save the world in
aLL our little ways.. mY
friEnd THAT DO ADD UP..
iN MORE NowTHAN JUST
BUTTERFLY iMPACT NOW
AS HuMANS HAVE HaNDS TO HoLD..:)
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Yeah.. sure..
TRUST ME..
I’M A
NINJA..
sure.. it’s
just a myth.. but…
Hmm.. let’s see what Wiki has to
say all about this Legendary
Ninja stuff..
“Legendary abilities
Superhuman or supernatural powers were often associated
with the ninja. Some legends include flight, invisibility,
shapeshifting, the ability to “split” into multiple bodies,
the summoning of animals, and control over the five classical elements.
These fabulous notions have stemmed from popular imagination regarding
the ninja’s mysterious status, as well as romantic ideas found in later
Japanese art of the Edo period. Magical powers were sometimes rooted in
the ninja’s own efforts to disseminate fanciful information. For example,
Nakagawa Shoshujin, the 17th century founder of Nakagawa-ryƫ, claimed in
his own writings (Okufuji Monogatari) that he had the
ability to transform into birds and animals.[67]
Perceived control over the elements may be
grounded in real tactics, which were categorized
by association with forces of nature. For example,
the practice of starting fires in order to cover a
ninja’s trail falls under katon-no-jutsu (“fire techniques”).[94]
The ninja’s adaption of kites in espionage and warfare is another
subject of legends. Accounts exist of ninja being lifted into the air
by kites, where they flew over hostile terrain and descended into, or
dropped bombs on enemy territory.[75] Kites were indeed used in Japanese
warfare, but mostly for the purpose of sending messages and relaying signals.[98]
Turnbull suggests that kites lifting a man into midair might have been technically
feasible, but states that the use of kites to form a human “hang glider”
falls squarely in the realm of fantasy.[99]”
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Oh God.. gotta keep the legend
going.. K and H and
all that circus
stuff
with
aghogday
and such..
through
loops
of real
fire..
okay..
so back
to DVerse
and SpeakinG oF TEAM
LIGHT BrinGinG Folks back
to liFe a little GAGA iN House
of FaLLinG Angels iS iN oRDer
of Chaos yET arT i FeeL..
so BrinG her and
aLL her
Ancient
and modern
SGT Pepper
Captain sAlt Friends
on too.. WiTh Eros
and Venus too..
he HE.. noW..
and remember
thiS iS jUst another
one of those Ninja thingies..
in multi-UniVerse LeGent way..:)
So yeah.. here’s to dVerse
and Farewell with
some wishes
of coming
back to
meet
again..
fickle we hUmans
can be.. he HE..;)
noW at 11:51 pm..
5252016..
Winter comes
back in dreams
of farewells come
mET aGaiNoW..
LovELy
eYes oF
SnoW
SinG
BacK
to LovE..
A Kiss oF SpRinG..:)
Best thing about never
worKing aGain.. FOR
FUCKING GOD DAM
MONEY.. is no
one has
to be
the Supervisor’s
FRiENd.. the administrator’s
Pal.. or the slave of several
bosses.. hehe.. i DancE.. i SinG
i SpRead Love.. no matter
whaT
i foR
oNE LOVE..:)
A WORLD without third
places away from work
and home.. iS certainly a
sad place.. a place for
distance instead
of moving..
connecting
creating
flesh and blood
and although
there are no
more BowLinG
AlleY’s.. a place then..
of close to two DecAdes
for me at work wHere
everyone kNew me as
the Bowling Alley man..
there is Dance and Cheers
of the same bar.. and even
Super-Walmart.. as i am the
fixture of the never ending
story noW of the Metro
FL Panhandle
Dance man
at Large..
and jUst
iMagine.. planting
a sMiLe on someone’s
face everywHere ya go..
as they jUst wait for the
neXt dance from the
watch of dance
man days..
And that my
friEnd.. is whY i do
not take online seriously..
iT never existed before
iN flesh and blood
and iT still
doesn’t
exist that
way for me
and never WiLL..
THANKS GOD..
i feel wHere
REAL HOME
iS.. but sure..
it’s a very fancy
piece of paper
to noW write
some pretty
noteS ON..
that WiLL
never
burn
iN
eaRTh
HeLLnow..
So.. alOnE..:)
oH.. YeaH
genetic STiLL
memory and aLL
oF thAT aS hUmans
have A long history
of enjoying sacRedrum
death oF eWe.. poor
Goats.. i rather
fancy liFe and do
Love to eat Leg of Lamb..
as long as i am not NoW
the one
to slice
the throat..
oh.. the dirty
worK oF liFe
and hAnds so
iVory tower cLean..;)
Oh.. God Grief is hard..
as an empatH oh God2..
FeeLinGs so sTronG i lEarned
to close off those FeeLinGs unTiL
oh.. God3 all the tears dried up in dry rain
too.. aH.. but now i kNow the reaSon
for those tears.. actually an
increase in dopamine
release.. a steady
decrease in
fuzzy warm
and soft oxytocin
human connection
and reduction in
trust of Serotonin
but then the nomad
of Dopamine increase
WiLL create iN arT anotHeR
tOuch oF Love.. and then the
warm and fuzzies will come
back and the trust and human
moving.. connecting.. creating
fuller feelings but the
tEar IS A
stream
that FiLLs
the much fuller
Ocean oF Love aGaiN..
AS rivers do flow and
tides
do ebb
on Ocean
shores oF eYes
oF sorRow and Love..
and oh God4.. poeTry
and DancE as WeLL
as SonG IS A great way
to work through and process
oh.. those so.. difficult trials
and tribulations of hUman EmoTioN
FReED… and as side benefit.. inteGraTioN
Of seNses iN MiNd and BoDy
Balance oF SoUL WiLL come
Greater2 iN heArt and
SpiRit ExPRESSinG
ways.. oh so tRuE..
noW iN liGht Now
and dArK oF LiFe..
NoW mY FrieND..:)
Shot gun home on river..
Train tracks a stone throw
away.. Locomotive shaKing
Foundation on concrete blocks
mIles away in whistles oF Loving
Relatives inside then..
and then that
whistle so
far in the
distance..
lost and so
hard trYing to
FiNd that soft
Love connection
of Youth in Work
dead soUl.. heArt..
and SpiRit then.. and
noW the Whistle once
aGaiN is HaPPy as i own
happy.. iT is the servant oF I
noW
totAlly
tRain Whistle
Free.. mY friend..
and good forTunes
to yA as WeLL aLL aBoard..:)
SMILes.. farewells
used to scare me
oh so deeP iN fEar..
and noW
all i kNow
iS Hello
NoW oN
as the sea
iS alWays
fULL oVe
REaL
HELLoS..
iF oNe says
HeLLo fiRst..:)
Ships that pass
in the life decades
never meeting.. i tried
i tried but pretty much
the only thing my dad told
me after leaving our family
when i was three.. mad that
my mother then wanted to
raise us more than making
money.. SO LONG ago.. iS
boy.. be a man.. perhaps
the military can make ya one..
and when our child was going
into heart surgery.. he said..
make sure you
raise him
like a boy..
before the
child died..
problem was..
my father never
lEarned to be a
man first by being
a woman.. my friend..
a lesson lEarned by
i oF diVine feminine
Love finAlly setting
the father in
the face
of mirror
me free from
reins of Father
who never sadly
reAlly became a man
as A REAL MAN WiLL
love no matter
what..
as Real
human MEN do..
without excuses
for what they are
afraid they are or
not themselves..
Human Nature is
easy to understand..
once the real fears do come out
to play in ways of liGht and dARk..:)
Love as
nigh iS die
never
forgeTs
Love..
LesSon
leARned
bY DYinG
iN liFe.. soon
enough.. SaVinG Love..:)
Perhaps.. the saddest
thing about retirement
or even children is
Lovers and
even friends
can become
sibling rivals..
i suppose humans
are made to miss the other more
than count on ever presence.. ah..
effervescence off miSSinG Love..:)
And now as side note here..
A farewell to Love is sadly
what is expected in some patriarchal
cultures.. particularly the deep south
i live in.. that is so dam homophobic..
if any male even attempts to act
soft in grace as a REAL
MAN NOT AFRAID
OF THE DIVINE
FEMININE
OF ANIMA
but i fight
that with half
a ton of kick
ass strength
in ballet
and it gives
me great pleasure
to scare the feminine
back into so called
macho head men..
TO gET
the real
strength
of the inner
anima.. and true..
it works the same
dam way in reverse for
a woman who thinks her
husband must speak for
her.. and accompany
her on every walk..
as the woman has
an inner
animus
of WiLL
iN SpiRit..
W i S d o M
Strength too..
if not repressed
by self or oppressed
by others in ways of
culture and or religion..
trUly.. the patriarchal cultures
are the place wHere there is the
most psychological suffering.. wHere
only half a man or half a woman are allowed
to exist as one soul.. in this liFe noW..
that is beyond
sad as that is
liVing
half a liFe
or half a UniVerse
aS innEr BeinG beYonD aLLnoW..:)
And wITh aLL that sAid
iT’s noW for bed..
5262016..
1:33 am..
be back later..:)
11:35 AM..
and now back
to Unintentional
Farewells that noW
are alWays dVerse-
like potential
Hellos to mE noW..;)
Memory dusts photos old
from Bars of liFe
third places
away from
home.. work
and yes from school..
wHere we lean into hug
each other and find support..
oh.. the days of third places
gone in text
of cold
but now
found as arms
iN Feat oF Dance..
at Least for me..
wHere there
is never
a stranger
iN joY.. i.. lost loves..
lost friends.. lost joys..
sMiles.. laughs.. and cries..
alWays potential for new paThs
neW DreAMs FruiTioNoW jourNey..:)
SMiLes.. i neVer say
goodbye.. as i kNow/
FeeL/SeNse.. thE trUth oF morE
InFiNiTy iN liGht foreVermorEnoW
Now.. ALL.. AH.. iS SEE yA LAtER WaY..
AnD yeS.. i SMiLeS And neVer
ends a story.. fiNish..
beGinS alWays
noW A StARt FoR Art.. DroP oF
waTerstreAMsRiVerOceaNwHole..:)
Letting go.. can be so difficult
until one realizes
tHere iS
no letting
go only reaL
stayYinG Now..
WitH but noT WitH
juSt wordS.. seNses
FeeLinG DanCinG NoW
SinGinG liFe WholE
anD thE Rest SnoWs
iN Flow unFroZen ZonE..:)
From the origin of the
Cycle aLL Of NowonE
continues thE
poinT oF
noW re..
tUrn iS see ya
laTer.. BlanKeT
oF Love all that iS
one God sAMe.. no separation
aLL.. ah.. oNE.. Namaste arE wE
and all of creaTionS oWoNe WitH
never enDinG SMiLes aT lEasT noW
whOseeHEarFeeLeYesheReNoWoNe..:)
sMiLes.. oh.. the
poor roach.. disGuSTinG
villain hero who never
dies @aLL in relative
human
terms
of 300 miLLioN
years or so and
his/her giant dragon
flY brethErensistEren
wHo sTill
flY uP
to SpEEDS
of 60 or so
miles an hour..
oh.. hUmans.. so foCused
oN.. foRm iNstead oF eVer esSeNce
oF GoD iN Roach and DragOn Fly FReED..
speedY spiNy leGs.. WinGs FlYinG hiGher
thaN hUman cOuch potaToes feeDinG
wE Long terM liVers..
aS juSt noW
anoTHeR sOURce
oF cocKroach
wHinE toasT..;)
Ah.. FeeLinG iN aLL thE wHoles oF
iMaginAtiOns DreAMs No liMits
oF wHere aLL thAT iS caN
Go t0 A next noW
heLLo oF bYes
thaT aRe
neVer tOld..
wHeReVer neveR
lAnd iS neveR eNdinG
storY oF no eXpectaTionS
noW oF Valley MounTain hiGh
LoW gRainS oF deSert sAnds WitH
mEmorY oF BeYond Eternity jUsT noW…:)
Lovers liVing
iN air SinG
sweet refrain
of Yesternows
SonG and DancE..:)
CLocK Of FarEweLL
hAnds oF noW
No longeR
eXisT aS
i..N0W
FloWinG
RiVerSUniVer
sAL NoW SonG
aNd DancE As SpiRaL
InG ForevernowmorE..:)
“Poetry is a form of literature that uses aesthetic and rhythmic[1][2][3] qualities of language—such as phonaesthetics, sound symbolism, and metre—to evoke meanings in addition to, or in place of, the prosaic ostensible meaning.”
-from the Wiki Poet Professors..;)
For the literal minds aT hAnd.. poeTry
left the scene in farewell of
long poem
forM iN
oRAl tradiTionS..
We live in a Twitter
world.. wHere of course
most everyone lives as
mechanical cognition
cogs in machineS
Of spoon-fed
instructions from
birth.. what was/iS once
dream time iNnateNoW
iNstinct and iNtuition LanGuaGe
iN SonG and DanCe too..
iS noW pAINT by number
words and steps.. aS most
aLL other hUman
symbols aS EX..
PRESsinG.
liFe iN
SpiRiT
heArT
soUL
essence
of whaT is much
more than contrived form
before hand as it were/iS iN liPs
of cold analytical thoughts that
do noT FloW iN ZoNe.. i Am
jUst here to tale ya friEnd
thaT yoUr poeTry iS more
poeTry than
Mr. B uP
tHere can
imaGine.. iN
my oPinIon..
as what you do
heRe takes tHeRe noW
iS iN more than concrete
pAint by number words
masquerading as rote
ways of real liFE mY friEnd..
and that mY friEnd iS why i’ve
written thE Technically longest long
form poem in the history of hUman
kInd of which my entire blog iS worKing
noW witH this too.. in the 671st macro
verse as Micro Verse here of Super Epic
PoEM FLoWinZonE.. i neVer lisTeN wheN
the Twitter
kNats
sAy
shuT
iT doWn
Fred.. nO.. i ain’T
averAge.. i’M awEsoMe
liKe thE God oF aLLthaTis..
’cause i can DO no more.. no less
than whAT
i Am with zero
chains of gNat
bytes under
moons that
never feel
fuLLer Sun
gloWS oF liVinG noW
WitH zero chains oF anyThanG..
Bottom LineS.. Stay AweSome mY
friEnd.. yoUr poeTry stands ouT
’cause you do more
than Twitter
kNats..
WiTh aLL
due respect
to iNsects as they
too are necessary
for the Balance of
Law and Order
wiTh wE
Free
i’s too..
In other words
‘that parenthetical
statement’ ‘uP theRe’
iS just other words for
i am too busy and your size
iS not worth my precious time..
WeLL.. FriEnd.. not everyone Feels thAT way..
O B
V i O
U S ly..
ANd soMe oF
wE arE fiNanciAlly
iNdepenDent aNd jUSt FLY..;)
SMiLes.. ha!
moNey hELd No
yiELd to mE oF noW
dreAMs iN SnoWy
North way foR A
bigGeR ciTy greateR
waY oF doLLar biLLs..
haX2!.. to leave thE
Paradise of North
Florida for money dreaMs..
no fool.. i.. as poor.. LoVes liKe
A KinG’s Tree oF
liFE nOW..
iN ParaDise
ReaL.. FriEnd.. Viv..;)
Oh.. Lord..
80 at 21..
104 at 47..
And noW
16 CloSinG
DanCinG oN
@56 on June
6th.. and no
wonder i Love
sixes born then
on 6660.. hehe..
but anyway.. HeArt..
SpiRiT.. and SoUL
aS InnEr FloW oF ZonE
iN Force iS essence oF ReaL..
wheRe Age iS juSt a cLock
of no real meaning
for those
who do sTay
iN PracTice oF
GRoWinG heARt..
SpiRit soUL aS younG
aT heARt anD i alWays
tale the ‘scientistS’ when they
scoff aT mY Zealous acTivE
beLieF iN thiS.. heY!
Baby! got
AN Internet and MOre..
liNkS thAT proveS
aLL i Say iN
hUman
ForM
as sUre
thAt refLects
too.. thE essence of wHat
iS tRuLy liGht aS iSRaELwE..:)
sMiLes.. aS iN
reaLITy evolved
sTiLL as such
humans are usuAlly
only comfortable in connecting
to 150 to 200 sets oF eYes aT oNe
era oF tHeir liFE.. the BlesSinGS
iN liFe are to connect
to as many Loves
as possible..
i for one
FeeL.. so
oF course
see ya laters..
are necessary..
but i never say
goodbye as i aLways
beliEve in more.. jUst
’cause i can.. and oh what
a gift the Hello of Can iS
mY
Friend
when REAL..:)
Interestingly.. some folks think in almost
only verbal ways.. and others navigate
the world in movie like visual world..
and ha!.. 11 million words only
precipitated as i.. per
loss of effective
sight and hearing
in pain disorder
starting iN November
of 2010.. before that iS
almost no writing for me..
and truly my visual memory
is so deep that i can play all
the siGhts.. and additionally
sounds.. and other senses
of encounters with
others in full
cinema
mind and
body balance
way.. and i can
even feel the hug
of a couple everywhere
i go.. as iF iT were they hugging
i.. i suppose that is why i have
never said goodbye.. with nowsOme
as i wish there were a way i could..
but i guess that is why i’Ve lEarned
to Love aLL thE dARk anD liGht
sAMe… as for me at lEAst
theRe is no farewells
inside oF
i.. and that
mY friEnd.. perhaps
explains wHere the
11 million words plus
now come from.. a River
that finally escaped out of
dam
of Inner
liFe.. oH thE
StreAM.. Oh tHe
River seT Free ouTside
as oCean wHolD skEyes..
trUly
whaT a relief
to FeeL that i am
not the only one stuck
in this prometheus/FrankenStein
bRain
noW..
my FriEnd..
aS ReALLy
FinaLLy LiVinG
FReED.. iN
noW froM
bonDaGE
inSide..
never
ending..
noWoutErE-scAPinG..:)
For me at least..
a life of Beta brain
wave being of solve
this problem now now
now.. of course most all
work related as rat race then..
but now i find
retired with
no more
rat race
worries..
the creativity
fLows freer close
to alpha.. and even
theta waves of MiNd iN
FloW ZoNe noW.. i suppose
tHeir IS A Science of Creativity
but of course a 1 step to 5 step
or whatever old crusty formula
WiLL noT work for no repeatable
HearT for mE at LEast FReED
FloW moVinG LeTTiNG
aLL the Tension iN
mY body go..
iN EmoTioNal
REgulation and
Sensory Integration
was the answer but
so hard iT was for me
to raise my arms to the
sky as a man in the homophobic
red state south.. but that is history..
now is free.. i can ballet and martial
arts all i like.. as the tire of wheel is FULL
tRead re-tired aGain.. anyWay.. yOur wordS noW
inpiRed aLL oF thiS.. so.. thank you FrIEnd..:)
Oh goodness.. thiS noW
reminds me of supervising
a crew of lifeguards as Athletic
Director of a Military Installation..
i didn’t go into that line of work
for potential liFE or Death
situations i miGht be
responsible
for..
but that
does come
wITh experience
i guess.. and so much
harder when you are
actually drowning in
whatever may come in LiFe..:)
SMiles.. i never truly
became a friend
until i became
a friend
of me..
and truly
i FeeL we muSt
all lEarn to bE
our own
mothers..
fathers..
sisters
and
brothers
too.. as everyone
needs this assistance..:)
It’s truly a sad statement
of humanity when we are
taught to feel shame for
what hurts us.. or for
who we are..
and i suppose
thaT is why i find
God aLLonE inside
uS and noW buT alone
never in buildings or books
that support human hurt noW
iN any hUman way oF FReED..:)
2:30 pm
@5262016..
ends the dVerse
poEtry for tHis
“BeYonD fence oF liGht”
671st Verse oF the Longest
Long Poem Form Poem Eva..
hmm.. Holy and Sacred
R and R duties ahead
for i FReED as
usUAl..
bE
bacK
laTEr
as promised
sAMe aS AlWays..;)
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So.. back to the gym.. and i am
warming up then with.. yEs.. not
unlike my Fredbun and Fredku style
of Japanese Haibun and Haiku poetry
yes.. i am doing
FreDfu.. my own
style of KunGfu
and truly both
are getting in touch
with the Force.. the Ki..
the Chi.. the Qi.. the Dao..
the UniVerSal Interconnecting
Interdependent relationship of
all thaT is that the A. Indians named
as the Great Spirit but in their own
form of language of course.. bottom
line.. without the essence of God fELt..
LiVed.. experienced whole.. one is more
separated from God than oNE sAME wHOlE..
and to bE crystal clear when i say FreDfu that does
not mean Fred FucK You.. in Layman’s termS noW
seriouSly it means Fred iF yoU sEEK
and there is the inG part for iN God
one and sAMe but seriouSly2 iT could
mean Infinite concrete and figurative
metaphors and Force of letters.. words
and any other symbols.. either seen.. felt
heard.. and all other hUman poTenTiaLs
in EmoTioNs and Senses of the beYond
oF juSt a three letter word
to chain God..
oh GOD so
Tribal
Instinct owned..
true.. it’s not easy to
get so much wisdom in
liFE and or be Jesus ’cause
other folks ain’t caught uP yET
to the larger views of TrUth and liGht
and in general not to be proud and just
be literal.. they are still in nursery school oF
God yet to be weaned from chains of cave men and
women holding
God back
iN them..
in PRiSon
of HuMans
whether Free
wHolE oNe and SamE
wIth and as pArt of God
integral.. yes.. holy whole
and sacred aLL thAt iS noW
as God NatUre trUe are wE
who SinG and Dance Free a
DancE and SonG WitH and
as God Holy wHole liKe KaTs
do in the hunt of liFE FReED..
So to come UniVerSal circle
noW here.. oh so.. FReED iN
FreDbun FredKu.. and
FreDfu style of BeinG
oNe WitH God..
back to the
gym..
where a rather
large young man
comes uP to me after
i have been warming uP
with FredFu.. and the thing
iS.. the Interconnecting Interdependent
relationship oF all that iS Aka knoWn as God
teaches mE everyaLL i do through the InnateNoW
Instinct and Intuition gifted through existence oF
God IN uS iN the never ending story cycle of the
end and beginning.. start and finish alWays noW
and never ending.. beginning.. starting or finishing
as alWays iS noW
noW aLL onE
home
ALLONE
FOR ALL WHO
EXIST NOW IN
ALL WAYS THAT
MOVES.. CONNECTS..
AND CO-CREATES AS WITH
GOD SamE noW.. yes.. even
online in abstract constructs that
are human symbols to approximatE noW
the essence oF aLL tHat iS too.. but
yes.. approximation as words are only
signs and guideposts to the essence of
what iS not only kNoWn in terms of
abstract concepts and symbols..
but also felt and sensed from
head to toe.. and beyond
generated as energy
of Chi/Ki/Dao/Qi..
yes etc.. etc..
HOLY SPIRIT..
KUNDALINI RISING
AND SHINING EVERYWHERE now
YA GO AND SUCH AS THAT ALL THATiS..
NOW.. JUST FucKinG yes iF yoU seeK iN
God
now
juSt i Say
juStiCe Now..
okay.. WeLL here’s
the thing about the Aikido that
the rather large young man suggested
i was doing in preparation for a fight of LiFe..
Hell no.. i ain’t gettin’ in no fiGhts.. i’ll just tale
the drunk young dudes at the bar.. when they intimate noW
in body language they wanna challenge me.. here noW my
friend.. see this dude in the video leg pressing a half
a ton 14 reps.. now 30 reps.. in way of YouTuBe
video of parallel leg press machine.. slowly
surely with his arms raised in the air..
with 88 seconds of the 14 reps..
in YouTube way and yA
can come to
the NAVY
STATION AND
WATCH ME DO iT
NOW FOR MORE THAN
3 MINUTES.. WHOLE LIKE
ONE OF THOSE DANCING
SONGS ON THE SEVILLE
SCREEN NOW.. JUST
IMAGINE THIS..
BRUCE LEE
WITH THE STRENGTH
OF THAT.. GET MY DRIFT
YOUNG BUCK FRIEND.. AND
that is the end of that as they scurry
away.. with soMe wonder of who the fuck
i really am noW.. as obviously ya don’t
do that at the Military Gym full of Molly
drugs that let ya float across the dance
floor in Tai Chi-like butterfly moves.. heHe..
Presence.. harmony.. creativity.. iN
moving.. connecting.. and creating
sAMe.. many more metaphors for the
Chi of martial arts.. but Aikido was
developed moreover as spiritual
moving mediation exercises to
develop Utopia and or Heaven
on eARth.. unfortunately
that pArt of Jesus’
message and
even Buddha
iF it existed at all
is left out and all there
is is sitting still meditation
or prayer.. basically more or less
cognitive behavioral therapy for putting
the good words out.. and eliminating stress
and worry.. problem is.. sitting still is one of the
most ill ways of being sTiLL.. as even science now shows
that sitting still for long periods of time is equal to smoking
a pack of F in cigarettes A day.. we primates from our free Loving
rarely aggressive or violent free sex loving Bi-Primate Bonobos..noW
are noT evolved to fight.. FucK no.. we are evolved to cooperate
in touchy FeeLY.. MoVinG.. coNnecTaRinG.. CreaTinG ways for the
successful hunt and gather of liFe in foraging for species
other than killing our FucKinG self off GOD in violent
warring head hunter stupid ass ways out of BaLanCinG
with the holy wHole of Nature too.. TaKInG more
from God than GiVing TO God.. DUH.. F iN COMMON
SENSE DICTATES.. F in Share and GiVe..Now
aWay FROM insane
F iN
interpretations
of voice in caves..
and such as that..
per people.. psychopathic
clergy/political leaning folks with
little feelings for their neighborS noW
in the Golden Rule of Jesus and Buddha..
TaKinG away the freedoms of Rock and
Roll and Sex too.. but honestly when
ya find the Chi.. Drugs are Now
child’s play
after
the free
adult all natural
Force of God iS NoW
assessed in all FeeLinG
greAT and healing wayS noW
and yes.. if necessary as defense
to kick psychopathic leaning harming
folks ass.. and yes.. although my feet
are not registered as deadly weapons with
law enforcement.. there is no doubt i could
kill a person easily with one swift FredFu kick
so no.. i will never get in a fight as i for one
ain’t gonna risk manslaughter FredFu
charges.. for kicking someone
yards away.. them hitting
their head on a bar
stool.. and
dying and
such as that..
i’ll just show ’em the
video.. that way they will
see the imaginary potential
consequence first before any
potential action from me is necessary
to resolve the issue of any aggression
and violence from them toward me
in self defense ways.. no..
i do not spar with
flesh,, i spar with
metal.. and my kicks
always come fractions
oF inches away from metal
as metal will potentially hurt
my toes.. so the discipline of practice
of the monkey never falling out of the tree
or hawk falling out of the sky is built in as
practice as all those consequences hurt..
and fighting and any contact sport
that is trauma to the human
body is just plain
FucKinG stupid..
AS IT INJURES YA
MORTAL BODY.. AND IN
A F iN Civilized world where
thugs are now hooked up fingeRing
oN cell phones.. seriously.. if yA
walk like a Lion and look strong
as a LiOn.. and hehe.. wear Kool
Secret Service Shades like me.. with
the nuance of a potential hidden weapon
here or there.. the possibility of anyone F iN
with ya.. even iF they are drunk.. is rare to
close to nihl.. particularly if the other party
is sober as such with due prudence
to stay away from death and
seriouSly bodiLy inJury..
bottom line is free flow
iN zOne DancE SonG..
PoeTry and Martial
arts sAME allows one
the nirvana oF heaven now
F E A R L E S F L O W N O W
as ONE wiTh God.. so whenever
someone looks at me with a WTF
look.. i am alWays available to explain
all of thiS iN words to them in EnliGhteNinG
AwaKeninG-liKe speed.. or jUst give the folks
who are over 18 a quick google search on the
simple term ‘Katie Mia’ that anywhere in the
world BRinGs my SpiRtuaL FULLuST TEACHINGS
TO THE TOP.. and yes.. i alWAYS WARN THEM..
particularly the dudes.. that no.. you probably
do not wanna click on them restricted
links as baby.. seNsual
Intelligence
IS Also
a huge hUmaN
iNtelligenTce thaT
not many folks touch
iN liFE aS ways of Apollo..
Heracles.. Eros.. Michelangelo..
KinG David and sucH As that aLive
iN flesh as we WiLL RocK and RoLL
ya to thE bONe of hUman liFE oNe With
GoD aLive wHere aLL iS thAT iS exPreSsinG
ART as sAME.. SpiRit FloW iN zONe aS
MINd and BoDy BaLanCinG
soUL noW.. as lifelong
practice iN hUman
potenTial as
and WiTh
GoDarTnoWaLWaySaLiVE..
Oh and ps.. oh god yes..
almost forgot.. back to the
other pARt of the story
at the military gym
with the young
muscular
black military
dude who was inspired
by my fierce style of working
out with Gorilla Growl intensity
and such as that.. i also told that
young man.. back in the early 80’s or
so when.. all there was were a few Universal
weight machines.. a bar here a plate there.. a
chin-up bar and such as that.. there is a 30
something Marine Captain dude that gets under
somewhere around 200LBS on a Bench
Press machine and says.. oh God
i’m 30 now and this is Getting
so F in hard to do.. and then
i say.. please if you hear
any old dudes saying
that.. don’t
believe ’em
it is not true..
in fact.. you can
look up Jack LaLanne
on Google and it will tale
ya all about him in his 60’s towing
in swim 60 or so boats behind him
in rope way across a long wide bay..
and that dude kept pumping iron
to age 96.. and only
a bad case
of
pneumonia
brought him
to demise..
and that’s the thing..
Jesus can you imagine
how old my cat Arthur was
at 20 years old in cat years..
when he could still traverse
the neighborhood in stern
alpha cat way..
that’s the problem
with modern society..
sit on your butt
and eat
an ice
cream and yes..
i have been guilty
of doing just that when
my first Love told me you
are not gonna work out my
Loving whipped boy
friend.. you
will spend
ALL YOUR
TIME WITH ME..
until she broke up
with me.. i started working
out again and i said to myself
Jesus.. Heaven again.. i can finally
F iN focus in class and do not feel
like i am swimming in mud mind
all foggy as such..
ugh.. exercise
as science shows
in one hour fashion
before an IQ test is proven
to raise scores around 10 points
or so.. and Jesus F iN Christ aGain
that goes to show that hUman potential
is much more in thInking ways than
just F iN head deep.. as Lord
knows for decades i wasn’t
even comfortable raising
my hand up to
wave at someone
simply as the arm
swayed little at all
straight down.. and the
fingers were most always
attached to a pencil sloppily
taking notes in egg head speed..
And in college in Sociology class
and the study of aging the outlook
was bleak with folks my age.. doing
therapy in warm health pools all pasty
white and grey haired as such.. flabby
here and there.. with skin hanging down
off arms.. but ha.. they did not know
the secret of either Jack LaLanne
or Arthur Brown tabby cat.. who
by the way looked almost
just like
the Democratic
Cat in my Candidate
ANN channel for debate
on my dance shirt tonight..
yes the secret is simple.. move..
connect and create from birth to dust..
never ever stop.. and become a vegetable
or robot walking dude as i used to be too..
Flow.. don’t be a mechanical angular sidewalk
dude or dudette.. move like the UniVerse and
all stuff in Nature away from human
sidewalk hells do.. iN Golden
Spiral iN ZonE fLy oF spiral
either around the Sun or core
of God iN uS.. as God moves
more like sexy sixes and
nines.. than angular
so-called
God number
7 for G..
yes God iS
more like F iN 6
or i oF Nine foR All
oF liFe Free asOnE..:)
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And here is a couple more Facebook memories
of the totality of this 3 Million Word plus
play.. scores of thousands of photos..
thousands of videos.. links to
other places iN the
unabridged human
table of contents
bible named
Google so
far..
in E-Land
here.. one
of a year ago..
and one of nearly
the beginning of all
the poeTic reaLITy
in DancE and SonG
that does comprise
aLL online oF the
‘SonG oF mY SoUL’..
aka ‘KaTiE MiA FredericK!iI
on word press and KATiE MiA
FredericK! as a blogger blog
by that same general
Pen Name
aka
juST
plAiN
FREd..
and with that
said here is that
memory verbatim iN
text from three years
ago to date too.. NoW..:)
Postscript:
A Devil’s Advocate
Can Be a Friend
While the Devil may be Found
In DeTails
The Easter is in the Eggs
D’eviled Eggs
Can be
DeLightFul
..:):..
Even Without Friends
One can Play with Words
..:)
And now i say..
at the end of this
new post.. more fun
dance photos coming
after midnight.. yes
around the 3 am wee
hour of Friday morning..
after my 112th Dance Week
Thursday NiGht celebration
wITh aLL the Kool College
age Folks at Good Old
Seville Quarter..
one of the top
100 Bars
to dance
in yes..
the memorable
Good Old U.S. oF A..:)
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