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Beyond Birth and Death what all living
things share is thE WiLL to live and as my son
proved that in his 51 days of life with multiple congenital
anomalies.. My mother at age 82.. with multiple cancers from
head to toe at 8 days now with no food or drink surely proves this out too..
and so many
otHeRs of
course..
including
miracle stories to relate…
i am sort of an expert on Happiness by
now but moreover before that i was more an
an expert on the much daRker side of life.. namELy
heLL on earth in the Kingdom of living within as opposed
to other much nicer place of the Kingdom of Heaven living
within.. inside.. outside.. above.. so beloW.. and all around on eARTh..
the much nicer place wHeRe tHeRe is no tiME but forevermore now..
wHeRe the otHeR place
mostly consists
of cLocks
with hands
so big they
crowd out NoW wiTh
numb and pain.. and if i didn’t
go tHeRe substantiAlly.. at lEast
temporarily through this.. the story would
be even daRker as i could no longer define myself
as fully human to enter both thE LIGht and dARk places
oF Life that lead back to LiGhT as Nature AKA God is on whole
merciful for those who seek and find tHeiR way back with WiLL
over Love.. not all do… sAdly.. not all do.. some bounce back as Nature
iN hUMan WiLL do.. given the opportunity with move.. connect.. and create..
but pushed back
too soon
as a
mechanical cog
in a machine means a more
likely longer priSon stay in the numb
and pain that has not been processed
with emotional regulation and sensory integration
of a dance and song of liFe with others free verse as liGht
goeS oN for more.. Death IS A merciful end NoW for the WiLL to
LIVe as LoVe as liGht when the WiLL is left that DanceS on without
a SonG.. so.. i continue that SonG as DancE can go.. longer noW as i StiLL
hOld the chalice of Love thAT has no bounds of wAlls to hold love inside.. and
the Sun is coming out by dark cloud by dArk cLoud removed… and clouds come back
and clouds removed aGain for liGht.. as mentioned earlier while school doesn’t teach
one how to come back and sadly church does little other than the social connection to
bring one back.. the Kingdom of Heaven within IS A Dance and SonG of art for me in
fully MoVinG ConNecTinG and Co-CreaTinG with the GoD of Nature allone never
separate in how i see and feeL and SeNSE the world now wHOle when this
BALanCinG ForCe oF LiGht over dARk rains a reign for me..
as the Gravity of DArk liGhts uP to a float
of liFe and after a pick-up
out of dArk
through
a Kundalini
DAncE and SonG
of MoVinG meditation liGht..
the sAMe SonG we listened to..
‘i believe i can fly’ is the SonG i DancED
to that brought me out of dARk sAMe as when
i listened to it back in ’97 when our child was dying then..
And when my Grandmother died back in ’87.. thE LiGht i remember
most is my Mother’s will to go on in liGht oF Love.. as it is those who
liVe wHo muSt continue to spread thE LIGht of Love the best they can and WiLL..:)
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Blogger Poet Friend Xenia Tran
iN kind wishes of Love Sings..
Thinking of you at this time and wishing your mother well on her new journey of light. Blessings to you all and know that all will be well. You are surrounded by love and light xxx
And i return the sAMe WiTh..
Hello.. Xenia Tran..
tHeRe arE LiGhts iN
the world that WiLL
never
be
extinguished.. NoW..
namELy liGhts oF Love..
thank you for surrounding me..
mY
FriEnd..
aS LiGht liVes Love FlyInG hiGher..
And my MoThEr
goeS oN
as LoVe and liGht FliGht evEn HiGhER..:)
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WeLL.. been awhile gigoid..
and anyWheRe IS A good
place to stART
and what
better
place than
now and an occupation
as a cat hammock is also
a best place to be in the now..
as connection is what makes life
worth living most even for a feral territorial
animal who comes to suck the mother’s milk of love again…
sUre.. with kitty biscuits too..
yes.. that touchy
feely warm
and fuzzy
stuff that
science names
as the cure of the
social bonding neurohormone
as oxytocin that kills the pain of the
human soUL of HeARt as SpiRit reLease
in comfort of life the most for those not addicted
to adrenaline
alone.. i
suppose
of course from
thE Lit place iN dArk
and liGht within.. anyWay..
liFe goeS oN my friEnd best
with a Loving hUman tOuch/FeeL/seNse thaT
reFuses to be put out by A dArk of LiFe oF ‘Fore..cE…
GOLden
tOuch feeL
to reLatE..:)
“I’m Nobody! Who are you?
Are you- Nobody- Too?
Then there’s a pair of us?
Don’t tell! they’d advertise-you know!
How dreary-to be- Somebody!
How public-like a Frog-
To tell one’s name-the livelong June-
To an admiring Bog!”
~~ Emily Dickinson ~~
Communion with
Nature..
never
a cost butt toAlly Free..:)
“Cats, no less liquid than their shadows, offer no angles to the wind.”
~~ from ‘Cats’ by Arthur Seymour John Tessimond ~~
“My Cat is a Tai Chi Master”..
it must be True.. one
can Google
iT
and see It
has no skyscraper
LabELs thaT tRump Free cLouds
oF FliGht
Float..:)
“Words are, in my not so humble opinion, our most inexhaustible source of magic,
capable of both inflicting injury, and remedying it.”
~~ Albus Dumbledore ~~
heHe..
if no
thing
else.. i for
one am proof words don’t run out
and even proof that yes.. they run on..
and words surELy hELped cure me at lEast..
and the best thing oF aLL is an infinite number
of new
symbols
can be
created
to relate more
than what one does before..
and as far as any poTenTial
harm or butt hurt..
online
has
a switch
for off.. haha..;)
“Never play a thing the same way twice.”
~~ Louis Armstrong ~~
For me aT
leASt2..
Free verse essence over
staGnate
form..:)
“A mistake is a lesson on its way to be learned!”
~~ Milton Berle ~~
i ofTen find
thE GreaTest
art in mistakes
as they are mostly free
oF Form and full of essence more..:)
“If it takes a lot of words to say what you have in mind,
give it more thought.”
~~ Dennis Roth ~~
Truth is..
dARk or liGht..
some minds are bigger
than others and have more to say
in short
and
long..
and the
smallest ones
often say the most
in
no
words
aT aLL..
Like ants
who are relatively
speaKing much stronger
than humans butt the greatest
feat oF aLL is how they work together
with common objective Eusocial purpose to get
the job
done
for survival..
mostly importantly..
BaLanCing wiTh the
rest of Nature too..
humans
fAiL oN
all counts now…
iN big picture view
oF survive foR All..
sure.. i’M
dancing
singing
to
the choir..
butt the Truth is as
far as bigger picture view..
heAR.. Ants are probably
God of Nature’s favorite
pArts here for all.. as whole..;)
“One cannot make an omelette without breaking eggs
— but it is amazing how many eggs one can break
without making a decent omelette.”
~~ Professor Charles P. Issawi ~~
Ugh.. yeah
that thing cAlled
the hUman coNdition
all environmental aS Such..
otherwise known as Modern Human Cultures..
the curRent
greaTEst
virUs on eARTh..
at lEast from Space view
of Stars checking dOwn on
StAR DuST SenTienT
plUS..
sTuFF uS..;)
Why is the universe the way we see it?
If it had been any different, we would not be here!”
~~ Stephen Hawking ~~
Save A
MiRAcle..
why not..:)
“It did not matter, after all.
He was only one man.
One man’s fate is not important.
If it is not, what is?
He could not endure those remembered words.”
~~ Ursula K. Le Guin, spoken by Gaverel Rocannon, Rocannon’s World ~~
ButterFly
WinGs
count iN
total effect
and affect of Beauty..
no different
reAlly
than
A sMiLe oN
A Down’s Child Face..:)
“You don’t get to choose how you’re going to die, or when.
You can only decide how you’re going to live now.”
~~ Joan Baez ~~
i saT sTill
LiVinG deATh liFe
quiet..
i dance
i live
i sing
liFe Lives..
Dance sings Dance..:)
“Professor! Is this all real?
Or, is it just happening inside my head?”
“Of course it’s happening inside your head, Harry!
Why should that mean that it’s not real?”
~~ Albus Dumbledore, Harry Potter ~~
So let it be
written
and
Sung
so leT iT Dance aS SonG..:)
Nice to see you again
gigoid.. alWays
a pleaSure
to come
bacK
aGaiN as promised..:)
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i suppose my Mother
was waiting for two things..
For me to get back to the Hospital..
and for the Dogwood to bloom on February
22nd for the first time ever in recorded history
in the Panhandle of Florida
by older timers
like me
and my
sister
now.. haha..
in anecdotal retrospect..
so.. yes.. my mother passes
away tonight at 8:10 pm.. Peacefully
in her sleep.. born on December 10th
1934.. making it ’till her 82nd year of life..
now on 02.22.2017.. first eternal spring here..
and before when the Hospice Nurse asked what my
mother’s wish would be.. all we could say is.. she
would wish to go home.. and she loved Flowers as
nothing material other than books meant anything to her..
she leaves a lot
of published
poetry
of her
soul with
that as well..
in written book
covered form.. anyway.. now..
the Dog Wood Tree is not coming
down for the new Septic Tank Drain Field..
the folks who install it.. will just have to
bypass the roots for now2 and who knows..
perhaps we will have to replace it again
but hey.. life counts.. even a Dog
Wood Tree that blooms
in Florida for the
first
time
ever
in recorded history
or herstory or eTcstory too..
Make it all Holy and Sacred.. FuLL
of Meaning and Purpose.. make it the
Kingdom of Heaven now like a Mother who
only wants to love her children in life and that’s it…
i suppose that’s how God FeelS and senses within in FAcT
i sing it.. i dance it FreeLY without any restraint at all with all that is GOD
FReED
iN mE..
as a loving
Child with eYes
of God that will not go away..
eternal spring of Flowers with my
last words to my Mother.. i love you mama..
then her breathing eased to forevernow mY
heART.. spiRit and soUl allone..GOD..NoW..
WiTh a Red Tailed Hawk Harbinger oF LIGht..
SpirRAling in the Clouds around thE Legendary
Dog Wood Flowers of WiNter SpRing..LIGht..LoVE..:)
Old friend Amy.. wife of much longer term friend Greg all
the way from catechism in the grade school years of Catholic
Church.. his mother and still his sister one of the leaders
of the church.. with both my mother supporting me very much
and his mother supporting him very much through the more troubled
waters of life to eventual great success as far as individual human
happiness and peace of mind grows into older age.. i suppose i was a wine
that took a little more time to ripen into fresh but haha.. Maverick.. i remain..
anyway.. she drops by with the following kind words finding my alias on Facebook
in form of my wife’s name of Katie Mia and i really appreciate her doing this..
As she says..
So sorry for the loss of your Mom Fred. I know she supported and loved you.
Moms are just someone so special.
And i return with..
Hi.. Amy.. thanks so much for stopping by and bringing these
kind thoughts for the loss of my mother.. surely 8 of the
longest days i have ever lived.. losing her..
but eternity having her always
now both in life
and passing
living as divine
love and grace in my
heART.. SpiRit and SoUL..
i remember how difficult too it was
for both you and Greg to lose your parents..
and surELy a best part is when that love lives on in our
eYes of Love as LiGht
to give and share iN
all the essence and
form that
comes
next as LiGht.. Hope
and wish and pray that you
and Greg are doing great now as well
and your children and all of your family as well..:)
Facebook Friend Benny and friend from college age also says in kind regard..
So sorry to hear about your mom passing away.
My condolences to you and your family.
If there’s anything I can do please let me know.
And i say in kind returns.. too..
Thanks so much Benny for the kind condolences.. we are hanging
in there.. friend.. and doing well..all
things considered.. and hope you
are doing well.. my friend.. too..:)
And now i say.. when my Father passed away back on May 22nd
of 2014.. almost but not quite making his 82nd birthday as my
mother achieved.. the gift he left to me was fearless strength/
WiLL.. although i had to find that more innately within as
a mirror of him in me.. my mother’s gift as
different was life long from ages
0 continuing through now
as divine love and grace
as the fearless strength/WiLL
and graceful love make up the
divine of my heaRt SpiRit and sOUL
and surely my mother lived the divine
strength and will even in her last days
of surviving with not even a drop of water
as per her wishes not to be kept alive by medical
devices for 8 full days.. in what the Doctor’s suggested
would likely be around 2 days and every day with her was a gift..
and the greatest gift she ever gives me is divine love and grace.. the
strength and fearless is more of spiRit WiLL too than just brute muscular strength
and that pARt.. particularly the fearless part eliminating all anxiety from life
has been the most challenging
part of my life..
particularly
in the
last
8 days
as i surely
felt like i was
traveling the River
Styx across a valley of death
and entering Peace of Love as well..
just another cross we all eventually share
in life if we live long enough to achieve all life
has to offer both in liGht and dARk as greATest tests that
come to us for freedom as liGht living life more than ever before..
i believe it is all for us as children
to learn the lessons of both
parents
and
God as whole..
and for me i go many
steps further in human potential
to thank God most for this gift of life
i share as liGht with others now.. thing is..
i have that intellect of decades of school and other
rational analysis mixed with the mystical parts of life that
are often swept under the rug as tradition becomes not only binding
for social cooperative support as religion but also choking the parts
of freedom that can be sought and found when outcast from the herd of common
that does bind together with ritual and tradition where symbols become holy and
sacred along with ways of life as meaning and purpose where the parts that
do not mesh with common binds and bounds of walls
become outcast
parts
of life..
the greaTest pArt
of that is.. although i hold
no restricted beliefs of just one
religion to the exclusion of others
that usually brings the most number of supportive
friends in life as birds of the same feathers of religion
do flock together in unison song at least in life.. i go further
as an explorer of God as surely there have alWays been nomads among
human beings
moving
the
greatest
masses as maverick
to greener pastures out
of caves of life.. for Frank
example that is far beyond any core
beliefs of lust hating religions.. science
and me sees the value of human lust in making
the neurochemical and neurohormonal changes that increase
human productivity and creativity.. and as science and the fringe
religions show.. solo tantric so-called sex is the best way to neuro-chemically
and neuro-hormonally achieve this altered state of human conscious being mind..
in other words 3 hour
orgasms
and
such as that
as that relates to
the human potential
all natural as such without
any need for external substance drugs
to achieve that higher potential of human
creativity and productivity whole.. and nah..
my mother never knew about that and if she did it
would have surely been another dark part of life to her..
as western religions tend to dominate and control and subjugate
people with so much repression and oppression about the natural
God given functions of the entire human being through life.. to hold it all
holy and sacred IS A path toward Unity and Peace with God as Temple of God holding
the essence of all that can be holy and sacred full of meaning and purpose if one escapes
what is clearly
now as far as biblical
science goes in scholarly
way the methods always used to
control people through shaming them
for their God of Nature given human Nature..
Frankly through limiting the natural pleasures
of the erotic nature of being human.. controlling
reproduction and using illusory fears to keep folks
like robots in line for the materialistic and power gains
of those in charge.. no different really than the Roman Emperor
Constantine expanding his empire while erecting a Monolithic
Statue of himself to be worshipped like Jesus
as Soldier Sun God too..
these are historical
facts now..
but if
the truth
that we are all
free children of God
by the message of the original
Gnostic teachings of the Jesus who
SEES the kingdom of God within and Heaven NOW
as a place where there would not even be any
ownership papers of marriage where all would be
spiritual brothers and sisters.. that would surely
take away the money changing tables to build 10 million
dollar homes to provide some power of positive thinking that
is an innate instinctual and intuitive human potential when one
takes the
shame
of
treading
on the clothes
of culture naked and comes
free per the Gospel of Thomas
vs 37 attributed to Jesus and not
censored by the so-called Holy Roman
Empire to expand it politically from shore to
shore for expanded resources as humans do in tribal
instinct ways too in areas of scarcity like the middle
eastern deserts for sure.. to understand human nature.. to understand
the true holy and sacred unity of being human with all of life full now
of meaning and purpose is to achieve the potential for unity with God
of Nature now..
and make
the
most
of this great
gift of life on what
surely looks from space
view as a miracle of heaven on
this Rocky orb of beauty blue and
green and beyond rainbow colors of abundance
of love.. thaT’s a miracle and that’s heaven
when fully experienced.. given and shared..
when no member of creation is
any greater
or less
than an
other NoW
when one can find
God in the split
of wood by ax and
in a grain of sand.. below..
above.. inside and outside and
all around eARTh too where that
grain of sand holds up mountains
in example of human love now too..
so i groW on in all inclusive love.. the unconditional
kind that groWs oN even hiGher than what our mother reserved
for my sister and me as loving children.. i see a much larger family
of 7 Billion plUs brothers and sisters.. and the technology of the modern
age web allows me to sow what i have lEarned as seeds on paths of journey
i continue
to travel
now..
fringe is
what i am
but all is who i am
all as pART and whoLe of God ONE..
The Force as essence liGhTs On.. as liFE does DancE and SinG oN..
The Sun is shining NoW and i have some more liGht to sow in Dance and SonG..:)
Four MacroVerse Memories as shared as Facebook
Algorithm Memories provided all for free of course.. hehe..
with “CORE OF creativity” heAR speakinG NoW of the power and
Force aS a BaLanCinG PoWer of HumAN luSt and LoVe To greATest
Heights oF Human CreaTivity.. ProducTiviTy and Overall Social
Cooperation and Human PoTenTiAL coMe to FruiTioN for all ToGeThER
as a MacroVerse Memory from three years ago..
in other words..
the source
of
LIbido
in LIving
and LoVinG
liFE with
a luST
that
never ends
iN all oF liFe Free..
and sure.. it can range from something
as soft as underwear art to full blown consensual porn..
in tantric ways of even solo wHeRE 3 hour orgasms are not uncommon..
thing is.. what comes neXt.. Sky RockEtinG Levels of Creativity and Productivity
with Natural increasing levels of the Social Bonding Neurohormone oxytocin as the
answer
of the
Love drug
to kill human
pain and replace
that pain and numb
with never ending
comfort in
Heaven
now..
sadly.. so sadly..
leave out healthy consensual
levels of lust and lose the love too..
but hey.. even athletic supporters understand this
as science shows that ‘adjusting yourself’ also increases
healthy levels of oxytocin as a social bonding force for sports too..
it’s true.. might not always be easy to hear by what is often seen
as DArk
by the Force
of religions that
oppress and repress
human nature is the liGhTEst
Force of God oF aLL iN hUman
being that is the luST
that leads
to loVe
and human cooperation
and the libido responsible
in origin for human creativity
and productivity as whole.. the Karma
is do it sow it and reap the benefits don’t
sow it do it in liGht without shame and reap the
other dARkers side of life too.. that can lead to
addictions to opiates with vague somatic pains as human
nature is snuffed out with shame.. and other dARk Forces
of fear as associated with hate.. the ones who win in love
are the ones who free themselves naked with God treading on the fear of shame..
just a reminder.. the Gospel of Thomas verse 37 by so-called Yeshua who intiMates this too..:)
FIFTH Dimension of LOVE.. MacroVerse from two years ago..
while i am still visiting the ‘Wrong Planet’.. online and
attempting to find a language that will work with folks most trapped
in left hemisphere analyzing reason only thinking ways of brain thinking there..
in other words
missing
much
of the social
empathic spiritual
consensual lust and love
paRts of life as life becomes
more of a two-dimensional science
project in rules and regulations as forms
all solid as such set in concrete ways of stone
life as
statue
sidewalk
walking
never
reaching a dance
and sing of life all
green on grass whole as God as one
Force of eYes that see more than left-
brain thinking only as metaphor of course..
as sure.. the brain is more complicated than that..
with much NOT known about the mind as whole too beyond the brain itself..
anyway.. it’s the essence that counts as there are many languages and other symbols
on the path to trutH and liGht.. and sadly the greaTest problem in the world to be expected
is the tribal instinct that fights for resources to the exclusion of others to the point of
killing and raping
and harming
others
even
in
the
name
of God
who lives
in all
of
creation
now and
excluding
parts of God
Given Nature ranging
from different sexual orientations
to natural functions of God Given Nature
so God can enjoy the ride within human a little
more than pain and suffering now in a numb of life
of pain
that
knows
and feels
and senses little
Joy.. no doubt God
would rather live in Heaven
within too.. all i can do and
will do is tale ya noW and sHow
ya what works for me in my now individual
language way and other symbols in visual and
sensing and feeling ways that leads me to union with
God
of Nature
whOle noW..
fortunately.. i live
in a country with freedom
of expression that allows one
different languages for lust and love and God one
or
not..
not is the
saddest part of
all i.. for one see
as a nihilistic outlook
on life with little to no
holy and sacred and almost no
meaning and purpose in life.. the essence
of pain numb and depression as living life as death..
in other
words now
that eARThly
place away from
heaven that can
truly be
a numb
of pain
named
hell too..
free yourself.. live
in heaven.. is my only suggestion
in what works for you now as liGht liFE LoVe..:)
Another MacroVerse Memory from two years ago named “Google Away HOme aGain”..
as i make a path back to the River i was raised on and even visit my elementary
school building and reflect on all thE paths to truth and liGht that are now available
with global expanding free flow in sharing information associated with trUth and liGht
and the nuances
beyond
language alone..
particularly in visuals
of non-verbal language available
as art online where sadly beyond the
mirror neuron way of sharing in visual way..
we still miss much of the taste.. smell.. and
overall feel and sense as touch of life.. seeing
and hearing important of course but Helen Keller sees more of course too..
in so many more incredible potential human intelligences in physical and
emotional ways to
seek.. find and
practice
as liGht
of LIfE too..
for just one example..
the proprioception of
seeing the world without eyes or ears..
and this is where the free flowing art of movement comes in..
in not only integrating senses for greater above so below..
inside.. outside and all around experience of life
but integrating and expanding pro-social
feel good emotions
and
senses
too.. so many resources available online now that expound forevermore now
for those who are not locked in books of the past that subjugate human
through oppressing and repressing their much greater
overall human potential
to control
others
through
illusory fears
for materialistic gains
and traditionally reproductive control..
namely.. controlling the reproductive freedoms of women..
for men who see women as not much more than cattle to breed.. AND CONTROL..
and name that some name for God’s wish to even rape and Kill when God naturAlly
only
wants
to be
free as possible
within each human
being as history and
moreover herstory and
eTcstory continues to gRoW..
more than cattle behind fences closed.. up and clothed.. as hiding God Free..:)
“Broken Arrows oF Dreams Dance”.. MacroVerse Memory from a year ago..
that brings a theme song here and one more that speaks to the Free Spirits
of God that so much want to escape the frowns of repression and oppression of the
human spirit that so sadly can come from religion and culture of patriarchal ways of
subjugating and controlling human nature through oppressive and repressive ways of life
to control
all subsistence
resources including
human beings to expand
material and selfish reproductive gains..
been going on since the first part of Agriculture
around 10 to 12 thousand years ago.. as storing food
as grains in silos away from a forage of life together
and a naked dance togeTher where the whole family is village
and the child
whomever
the father
and mother is
is the child of the
village whole to be
raised allone with a healthy
balance of lust and love altoGeTher
as divine grace and love and WiLL and
Strength and Fearless as one family wHOle
full of holy and sacred meaning and purpose seeing
and feeling and sensing God in all stuff creation beyond
feeling and sensing and seeing now too.. so i dance and sing
free away from SupeR Walmart aisles of frowns of misery and suffering
where opiates take the place of a healthy balance of free LuST and loVe
in consensual
balance..
nah.. it’s
not as bad
as the theme
song heAR but it does
relate the core problem
of red state fear and hate
in tribal instinctual ways of
human scarcity running afraid from
Peace and Love for all in harmony..
true.. human beings are
only evolved
to live
in friendly
groups of 150 to
200 sets of naked
eyes and hips of consensual
lust and love.. so insanity of
overpopulation breeds roach motels
of hate and fear where frowns rule over
a joy of lust and love in consensual village way..
short and brutish is the way Clothed Christians reviewed
the life of American Indians in day of so-called wild and
free almost naked dance together around a campfire of moonlit
nights where the spirit raised one with God free from head to toe..
inside.. outside.. above so below and all around life as liGht as Lust
and Love Balance now.. for all
of existence
whole
with God..
Hell can last a long
time as life too clothed..
and the greatest Heaven is the
Heaven that lives within that is as
invisible as disabilities of pain and numb
named as depressions with opiate cures of lingering
hell as well
never
truly
cured
at root
of luST and Love..
for life wHole.. anyway
those who wish to unplug and
live will as Heaven now.. those who
do not will reap what they soW as the Harvest
is alwayS now.. even in a Spring that never changes into Winter now..
fitting
i
miGht
add as Karma sinGS her song
best as TrUth and liGht as he will do too..
with all
the tween
of
thaT
as GreaTEr TrUtH and
liGht now
WeLL..
as
breathe
oF liFE free
as God bes within..NoW..:)
Other than that for now this finishes
what seems to be a rather short overall MacroVerse
as number 78 of my own personal “Nether Land Bible 2017”
wHERe number 77 added in makes a total of 1,169,388 words as
a running total for the record as such.. as this 749th MacroVerse
whole of Ocean whole poem.. also titled ‘SonG of My SoUl’ coming to
the 42 month point whole since the end of August 2013.. on Word Press
still exceeds 3.3 million words.. likely getting close to 4 Million words
as total blogging effort started in March of 2013 for 48 months total effort too..
and yes.. all part of a 12 million
word or so online writing
expedition starting
on Thanks Giving
Day of 2010..
with “Nether Land
Bible 2017”.. starting
on Memorial Day of 2016..
again.. just to keep the record
of what i am doing in somewhat
concrete structural way too.. more
than just fLoWinG as Patterns do make
Golden pHI waves of 1.618 Ocean Flow
as water waves too.. and yeS
even words
heAR
as
reflection
of God Patterns
that humanifest as me
noW2.. as the waves of my soUl wash on..
shores forevermore now expanding as the
tide
goeS
in and out
even more..
so with all that sAid..
tonight will be the 149th dance
week at Good Old Seville Quarter with
all the cool college age folks there as like
the theme song here continues if one travels far
enough there will be someone who recognizes one’s fuller humanity free..
it is most often
the little
children
and so called
‘ethnic minorities’ who
recognize who i am full oF liGht
Free in Super Walmart when i continue
my Public Dance now at about 6900 miles
soon to approach 7000 miles close to the Spring
Equinox of 2017.. anyway i will not hide any of my liGht
as liFE
is the
Gift
for
me that
keeps giving
and sharing iT all
as a beacon oF liGht that
refuses to shine any dimmer than
the GreATest liGht i for one WiLL to bRing
as fearless strength of grace and love Dances and SingS oN..:)
More fun dance photos coming to this 78th MacroVerse of “Nether
Land Bible 2017” now titled “Dogwood Winter Blooms” and also
the 749th MacroVerse oF Ocean whOle poem with photos added
into the next MacroVerse too as DAncE and SonG begins and
ends and alWays staRts and never finishes
my efforts
forvermorenow..
and i’m pretty sure
that’s how it works for
God overall.. within.. inside..
outside.. above.. so below and all around
as liGht continues NoW the cycle from dARk
to LiGht even greaTEr noW oNE..ForCe oF LOVE..:)
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Getting back in the saddle.. River Flow expresSing
heARt.. spiRit and souL in a continuous streAM
of body and miNd BaLanCinG DancE and SonG
as now goeS oN more fully iN liGht..
taking a stop at the Funeral
Home to sign the
paperwork for
the cremation
and meeting
the long term county
funeral director who has been
burying my relatives and performing
related services.. decades on end for 50 or
60 years.. deaths coming in my family starting
with my Great Grandfather well before the 80’s.. in ’65..
and surrogate Uncle Ed shortly after that as friend of my Maternal Grandmother..
she taking care of him on his death bed in my home.. then.. dying of respiratory
problems as a long-term railroad worker by Blackwater river too.. with his daughter..
the Editor of the Magazine.. ‘Women’s Day’.. as she hit the big time then.. and a long
dry spell of human deaths after that although plenty of heart felt pet deaths as pets came
and more pets entered the realm of happiness.. namely.. my first Yellow Tabby cat.. named
Toby who used to sleep with me on the bed when i was in about first grade..
and my Dachshund mix Charlie in Middle School.. and Tiger
and Bear in Tuxedo Black and White kitty way
in college as a young adult.. to Elwood
and Jake Gray and White Tuxedo
Cats in full adulthood
age to
Arthur.. our
Twenty year
old Brown Tabby
around June 2014 and Moby
last year suffering complications
of Diabetes back then.. in February too..
And back to the Human’s.. my Great Uncle
Charles at age 94 in the early 80’s.. my Paternal
Grandmother Myrtle in ’83.. my Maternal Grandmother.. Louise.. 30
years ago in a very late spring at the end of March of ’87 with Azaleas
blooming beautiful.. she at age 83.. My Great Aunt Mary in her 80’s in the late
90’s.. Katrina’s Mother Sandra in 2006.. a really difficult time then for Katrina getting
through that.. and My Great Aunt Jettie in 2010.. at age 94.. and my 2nd Stepmother
Pat in 2008 and my Step Sister Karen her daughter.. in 2009.. and my 1st Step Mother’s Husband
Jerry.. at Christmas time in 2013.. then my Father Fred Sr.. in May of 2014 and Katrina’s Sister
Michelle on Christmas Eve of 2014.. no one died in 2015.. a very Good year that was indeed..
And then there was my Aunt Christina around Christmas of 2016.. sister of my Mother at age 89..
And yes.. of course.. as i think it is with most people.. my Mother was the hardest to lose of all.. along with my Son Ryan at age 51 days in July of ’97.. of course..
as a Mother’s Love is the bond that begins well before birth.. anyway.. it was very nice talking
to the Funeral Director named Donnie Sowell who came out of retirement.. before.. running
the Big Funeral Home in Milton to run a smaller one now.. he knowing most all
my elder relatives back when Milton was very small and most everyone
new everyone by name.. and remembering my Uncle Charles
as one of the First settlers at Navarre Beach Sound side
where he ran a gas station store for decades there
as the men stopped to talk for hours
to chew the fat and pass the time
as old folks used to say.. and do..
Uncle Charles.. was the kind of orator
who took you to the place whatever he was speaking
on with passionate emotions as the art of speaking was the
entertainment of the decades to replace all smart phones then..
i watched him and my Uncle Bob.. the Rich Uncle who did it starting
with appliances at Sears to a string of Vacuum stores.. my Father’s half
brother still alive.. and when i was so sick in 2008.. my spirit dead in
Emotional way and just a fried bundle of nerves without
what felt like any myelin sheath life to
insulate my nerves
from stray
electricity then..
i listened to my great Aunt
Jettie through all my pain then..
and her nephew Burt.. a generation older
than me and her nephew by Marriage Ski who
along with his wife have passed away in those decades too..
and as they said.. the art of oral tradition was a dying breed those days.. too..
as smart phones and text had even taken the phone conversations away then2..
as Aunt Jetties’ Son Fred.. yes.. another Fred.. also passed away around 2009 too..
living with my Great Aunt Jettie with some pain issues of his own he dealt with then..
he.. a writer… who wrote an ancestry of the entire family that i still.. thank Goodness.. have
a book copy of.. as it’s true.. my elder family were among the first settlers of the area that grew
it into what it is now.. where it’s true2.. no longer do folks know your name.. hehe.. except
for me as the very strange Metro Dancing man or guy in general as what my identifier
as a ‘Cheer’s Norm’ has come to be.. most often though.. they.. namely the younger folks
are hiding around the corner with a Smart phone recording the wild thing
they captured in video way
on just another boring
trip to a store..
that becomes
more
interesting as
out of the box dances
again.. in Target.. tonight..
hey.. dancing is much more fun
than sitting on mall benches and watching
sports as far as i for one know and sense and feel
now.. and if i can do it at age 56 and folks do it in their
90’s too.. it’s really not too late to dance and sing life whether
slow dance or song or a wild art like me.. oral tradition is basically
twitter and text dead.. even the phone has gone a sad way away from
the emotional social reciprocal social communication of the instrument of
human vocal ways.. but hey.. dance was the first human and cultural social
reciprocal communication of them all as art of human MoVinG CoNnecTing
Co-Creating ways with God of Nature all.. most specifically.. when two or more hUmans
come togeTher.. sTiLL.. a new connection of the neurons oF GoD make a new spARk of LiFE..
aRisEN.. i’LL spaRk some at Old Seville Quarter tonight… as with a few drinks.. i’m not nearly
as hard to approach as i seem to be in the so-called civilized world of buying stuff.. with a dance
and song of Love.. there is no need to buy shit.. hehe.. it’s a naked package dressed up
enough for legal to share as human flesh and blood HeaRT and SpiRit and soUL and if
you wonder why all the substance abuse.. up to about a third of the adult population now..
that’s
what’s
missing..
the dance and
song of liFE togEther sTiLL noW..
wHeRe everyone kNows yOur naMe
NoW aS youR heARt.. yoUR SpiRiT..
yoUr soUL Soars as new connections of
God neurons are made with human beings more..
so.. i invite you.. to yes.. come out and play and move
and connect and co-create with God more.. sure.. i’M
sure God does within as well all healthy wiTh liGht more too..
so.. what song to use for this.. i suppose an Aphrodite Matrix
Mix when humans really let it all out then as our so-called
primitive ancestors still do.. hehe.. at the Dance Hall
tonight.. liFe liGhts up now when/wHeRe liFe
becomes a Song and
Dance for
being
human Free..
it’s a within FORCE that
requires no external man
made tools aT all.. not even clothes
as those are required as Caesar coins to
get in the Dance Hall now.. but hey.. other than
that i’ve got a membership and without any drinks..
i pay a buck a week at prices that could make last
Century not shy away from fun.. other than that this area of
Nature is beyond beautiful.. trUly there is so much to experience
of life heAR that costs nothing aT aLL in terms of Caesar bucks for those
who know and feel and sense how to enjoy God within.. inside.. outside.. aLL FReED..
above.. so below and all around for freeR.. hehe.. all i need IS A Target Ball for fun and less..
all i need is a SonG
and DancE
of
Love FReED..
sure.. call me Freddy
Freeloader too.. just another
person collecting smiles instead of
beer cans on the side of the road and
that reminds me of two of the few males
on my maternal side of the family.. first cousin
Dickie who died in the Vietnam war in ’69 and
my first cousin Jimmy who died of throat cancer
at before my age now back in the 90’s or so.. he..
a generation older than me and Dickie too.. Life
IS A gift.. laugh
it love it
and
live it
wiTh
A SonG of DancE
aGaiN.. i SinG more..
Breathe Life as gift now..
A Tree of liFe liVinG hUmanS NoW..
And sure.. i’M juSt a Special SnoW Flake sTiLL noW
that my MoThEr created juSt for the local area heAR..
no way in hell i would have ended up heRe like this if my Father
stayed.. likely juSt anotHeR Law Enforcement or Military officer all
by the rules and regulations enforcing the law or perhaps a Judge..
wHo
kNows..
FeeLs..
SeNsES..
what may
coMe neXt.. to be
or not to be is is for more..
to coMe neXT as thE RiVeR FloWs..now… more..:)
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Introductory post to Free Novels..:)
GodsUniVerseNovel
41K words
Free Verse Poetry Novel..:)
GodsUniVerseNovel2
51K words
Free Verse Poetry Novel..:)
GodsUniVerseNovel3
338,630 words
Epic Free Verse Poetry Novel
Approximately 3000+ printed pages…
With Hundreds of Beautiful Beach Photos..:)
KATiE MiA FredericK!iI
3.3 Million plus words
Super Epic Free Verse Poetry Novel
AKA
SonG oF mY SoUL..:)
Approximately 30,000+ printed pages…
just ’cause
i caN
buiLd iT..
FoR Free..:)
And yeS.. FinAlly..
CrediTs FiELd oF DreAMs..
A Thanks YoU oF sORts..
NoW..:)
Love iS
ALLTHaTis..:)
GRains oF SaNd
hOld mounTain
oF LoVe NoW..:)
GodsUniVerse 42 HiTchHiKinG
Hmm.. more and less..
A Meaning oF liFe..;)
After Book of Fred
And Purpose
of course too..
@lEast
for mE..:)
6000 Miles of DANCE WALKING! NOW!
Documenting this Public Feat oF Feet in 3 years..:)
After Dance oF Fred
NeverEverLand DoN’T
Stop DanCinG noW..:)
Book oF Ten Sixteen..
9 Macro Verses from
October 2016.. totaling
141,244 words.. all liNked
from that Month like A Great PumPkin..;)
New Testament oF ELeVen iN HeaVen ‘SiXteen
Total of 12 MacroVerses with
final chapter of this New Personal
Testament named as such.. 181,221 words..
as streAMs.. RiVers… OceaN wHOle wAves SinG oN.. FReED..:)
12 MiLioN ThanksGiVinG Words 2016
Documenting 12 Million words written
Since ThanksGiVinG oF 2010 or
A Seventh Book wHOle noW
oR wiTh 16 Macro-Verses
sTarTinG October
2016.. enDinG..
oN ThanksGiving
2016.. iT iS wHAt
iT is..
NoW..
surELy
Longgg.. NoW..;)
2nd NT iN HeaVen TwELve ‘Sixteen
Included as 13 Macro-Verse liNks iN
Grand Cross Bible 2016.. 181,291 words..:)
Grand Cross Bible 2016
61 Macro-Verse chapter liNks
provided in this last chapter as
full table of contents oF A 915K
Word.. Personal Bible aS SucH..
Written from Memorial Day
2016 and finished and
published 7 months
later on Christmas
Day oF 2016..
Yes.. somE
whAT
F iN
EpiC..
aS thiS beComeS
mY 9th book completed
iN Star Year 2016 that ranges..
yes.. approaching 2 MilLioN words..
iNclusive oF 12 MilLioN.. over 6 years
written and recorded NoW oNline too..
Y.. yeS.. oF course.. ’cause i CaN Do WiLL..
WitH
thE ForcE
oF uNConDiTioNal
Fearless smART LoVe
wRiTe oN cOUrse..:)
KATiE MiA FredericK 2016 A Year in Review
A ReView oF A Record Years of Record years..:)
CoLoRs of HeAVeN Bible 2017
991K words
66 Macro-Verse Table of Contents Chapter liNks WiTH
5 added as a revision to ‘Grand Cross Bible 2016’
wHeRe A iSReaL Revelation oF HeaVeN
is made at the
eNd and continuing
beGiNNinG aS WeLL..:)
VicTorY LaP iN HeAVEn 2017
The rise oF A MiLLioN
Word Bible aT
Over 1.01 MiLLiON
Words and suRE..
A Victory Lap GoinG
aLong wiTh aLL thaT iS
And This aT thE 67th MacroVerse
oF thaT Bible.. pArt oF Ocean Whole Poem more..:)
CelebRaTinG 42 MoNths iN HeAVEn
Yes.. most Definitely Worth
Celebrating and noting
in Epic way too..:)
Nether Land Bible 2017
NoW A Third ReViSiOn of a Personal
MiLLioN plUs Word Bible
at this 69th MacroVerse
with liNks
to the
rest of the Bible
MacroVerse Chapters
arriving at 1,052,137 words
total at this 69th MacroVerse poinT
as words continue in coMiNg MacroVerses
after this 69th MacroVerse as nows continue to Go oN NoW..aLLFReED..LonGeR..;)
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